my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Monday, January 31, 2005
9:08 AM
its 12.45am nw le..and its the lst of feb..a new month.i dun even realised it. ha. still awake nw.. nv did ani much of serious studying...was feeling v bad jus nw when xh called...sorry if i "screamed" at u...at the point i noe i going to break dwn in tears..i sms huiyu n luckily she called mi jus in time.. ended my call wif him n talk to hy~... glad that she's dere for mi...talked to her bt my bu gao xing n cried...really told her those unahappy things that've happened for the whole of last week..yeps...den also listen to her xing shi...till a pt of time,i guessed we both break dwn in tears...miss those daes in nh..when our classes are jus beside each other..guess i wld try to do wad u sae...i will try my best la...n u too also kie? really time for serious studying le, keep telling myself this..but den i nt reali doing aniting bt it lor...wth! my sem results gona suffer if this continues to go on...
feel lots better after the call n the cry...one week has passed...am i reali facing it or still deceiving myself? talking to jackie nw..he asked mi why i MIA from club so long liaoz...n told mi pple thot i quit le..regretted nv go for last week de meeting..cus they planning FO event..n i reali wished to be part of it..budden its too late to be in the PC nw. he asked mi wed 5.30 go dwn for song practise session..budden i jus feel anti social dere...perhaps being a loner is quite a gd idea...
a few hrs gona be in class again...dread it...esp during lect n tutorials. have to face everyting again.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT