my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Thursday, August 31, 2006
10:42 PM
Cold freezy day. sudden change of plans to LASIK in the morning instead of CL clinic. was also allow in even thou i gt perfume on. changed into OT suit n tt shit mask. made my specs foggy. it was a boring surgery. perhaps as wad zhen mentioned: e interesting part is lifting up of e flap nia. early lunch at novena sq again. aft tt, tc time in the rm w e other two guys..susposed to have FFA in the PM slot, but no Px. so mi n sh went off wandering in the shops n rot in toilet plus sh elvis presley dance in e rm. we waited until 4 px still nt here yet, so earli dismissal. the two guys even left earlier than us lor. they all v shiok one le..everytime earli lunch n dismissal. tml is e last dae le, i will definitely miss that place.. my itp log sheet still empty. nt dunoe wad to write, is so lil space yet mani things. n the description dunoe wad to write also. sian la..i feel like slping...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
10:36 PM
been walking in e rain home since sun..so was curling myself in blanket while tv-ing. todae was a bad dae, im tired. last nite slp late, was chatting w ph n sokie. xu jiu bt the times at SELECT, but so sad he left aft my 3rd dae at work. sokie, i will inform u when i wana leave dere okies. anw, kinda relieved tt sort of like having e same feeling as her ba..jus feeling out of place at there.. perhaps im jus too lousy for e job la. anw, todae was so so tired for attachment. no cornea clinic, so general clinic at the atrium area, means is those paying full rate px. under dr lim..a nice lady..i dun mind her treating us as idiots.. lols..saw some things la..kinda amazed by e gonio lens n ahmed tube. PM we all dun wan to go for neuro opthal so olivia made special arrangements. taught us how to use the 78D lens. play w the indirect ophthal as well..falala~ chit chat until 5 den leaving time. saw anna at e taxi stand cus she go ttsh for DFE..on e wae hm, wana read my storybk but straining la, one eye is dilated.. nearli is headache..but still managed to complete b4 drifting into dreamland. the same effect i had when i was under the atropine drops last time. n i realised someone keep mentioning pig hor..PIG!!!! PIG PIG PIG! u better watch out dun get slaughter orh, n i noe why u walk faster than mi le, cus u gt 4 trotters while i gt 2legs! =D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 28, 2006
11:32 PM
2nd dae of attachment. early in e morning report for O.T. still nid to change in tt alien looking OT suite..the mask realli is suffocating. watched 3cataract surgeries todae, 1phaco, 2ECCE. i tink our dear szehui was looking forward when the opt will end cus can go eat..but to her disappointment, the 3rd opt is ECCE n is done by the medical officer, so was naturally more careful n precise. his stitches was done until v nice. some highlights during OT: we realise tt if the px is under GA, doc n nurses wld talk among demselves or listen to radio while doing e surgery. stuff like which kind of mooncakes or dumpling is nice. the medical student forget to put on his gloves. n for ecce, the cataract is placed into a containeer n returned to px..so shiok OT ended earli, so we had 2.5hrs for lunch. went over to novena sq LJS for lunch. regretted eating. PM initially was gen clinic again, but we requested for laser, in e end no px also. so get attached to a medical officer..i rather wan a MO den get tt big PD guy. dr chin v nice la, allow us to sit dwn n observe. n she was under supervision of dr yong again. i tink yong must be tinking y he so sway,keep seeing mi n sh cus morning OT n ytd glaucoma clinic was under him too. n since we gt e luxury of sitting dwn, we both get tired. halfwae thru, excuse ourselves to e ladies for e intention of getting kopi. haha! nxt door gt another MO , johnson tan =D bit like mou mou ren de style lor, too bad dun hav a nice view le...sad sia..lucky he gt pass by e rm im in a few times la.. so (: left ard 5.30.. lucky tml back to 8.30 reporting time...can sleep morE! my head getting heaver n heavier each dae.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
First dae of my hospital attachment. interesting dae, althou my legs are giving way. Short briefing by olivia plus going thru our schedule b4 going to search for the doc. u are being attached under. AM slot was LASER clinic, so sad, i tink the dr pay more attention to medical students..haha! see how the dr perform laser on DR px. shoot shoot shoot. Aft shooting,no more px le, so get attached to gen. clinic under dr ho. wah! stand all e wae until 1pm looking at ophthal seeing px. mostly cataract n DR. Lunch break sian 1/2, the FC was packed, so mi n sh da bao n sit at the benches to makan, ey not romantic can? lols. PM was glaucoma clinic. grrh. but not much like glaucoma clinic. he like to ask us qns la..n lucky sh was my shield, but i cant escape la cus he will call my name n expect a ans frm mi..lols..n he like to use medical terms which im unsure of lor, this is e aft effect of nt rem. ur patho well. sh~~ our swinging flash lite test? myasthenia gravis? very first thing must check e vision b4 evaluating the ONH? the day under dr yong ended w a granny with a CD ratio of 1.0 n he wan us to perform e Marcus GUn aka RAPD aka swinging flash lite test cus the granny gt R RAPD ma, but den we jus couldnt pick up anithing la. cus u noe why, she's under mydriatics. still sae wad v disappointed in e end nt our fault..but nvm =) the two docs are nice..dey intro us as young docs..muahah! see it, young docs! the dae is fun, w occasional sneak outs to our room to rest our legs, the clearing of our disgestive system aft clinic hor c kway? lols. pple dunoe thot we stuck in toilet bowl! =D @ e end of todae: i realised afew things. i understand y chris sae 'u dun happily fall asleep while e doc is seeing the px n the wonders of ophthalmoscopy in a dilated eye' met up w gy for dinner@ pasta mania. dun wish to have pasta w tomato herb sauce..for tml will be sseeing fishballs w ketchup! cus lst thing in e morning, Day surgery operating theeatre at 8am instead of 8.30..dots.! wonder which nice docs will i meet again..hoho! shall go flip thru kanski ltr if im nt tired cus dun wan to diu optometry de lian sia..FUN DAE @ TTSH!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
10:32 PM
Tiring dae..tml still gotta work, sianz! todae went to JB w my mum - Jusco Aeon Tebrau City Shopping Centre. Highly recommended. much much better than city sq, let alone sae holiday plaza. Act. nv really buy alot of things la. but eat alot la. HAd my lunch at dunoe which chi cafe, den dinner was at Manhantan fish market. Cheap la, cus the price, u jus changed frm $ to RM nia. haha...i had grilled fillet w herbs dunoe wad sauce, a super duper wrong choice. n the best thing i like bt the waffle~ quite a diff taste frm spore..and can choose up to two toppings le! =D the hypermarket is like, wah! salivia dripping when i see so mani diff taste of instant noodles..althou e mall is onli 3lvls, but den each lvl is like nv ending lor..frm branded to household names.. kan shang one 'kiu lou' (tts wad dey call it in dialect), super heart itchy..but the price is abit steep la..kinda regret tt i nv get it..awe! my fren's engagement party changed timing, which is at nite. such a weird time la..but im happy cus i can make it since i gt sth on in e aftnn..n heard frm sokie tt we having rd show frm 11th-17th..n sae edward tml will ask mi to fill in some slots..haha! gd thing is gt extra allowance, if nv ask mi, also gd cus tt wk is my free wk again. kies, shall blog till here. time for mi to go zZz
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
10:35 PM
YaHoO! yum cha with the class gers todae for dim sum breakfast! nice gathering la. althou most of us parted our ways aft the meal. i love the xiao long bao! im sure c kway did us proud, long standing winner! =) haha! i know ur digestive system works efficiently..lols! aft that, rotted at chinatwn a while b4 gg to JEC kBox. lucky huiyun n ckway joined us later. haha! den frm 2, we begin our attempts to break the windows or shatter ani glass surrrounding. ahaha. 6girls singing..fun sia. long time nv go kbox alr, tts y todae feeling was shiok la. wah! nth to describe it la. n of cus, some NC16 stuff tt huiyun n ckway do..tsk tsk! i mean if u were dere, one wld definitely luff until pengz la. n realised that hy nt bad la, quite a gd dancer..can 'shake' pretty well hor! n ur kuai le tian tang..haha~ wonderful time spent w e gers! =D
aft which, went town meet darren. walk ard, admiring the nite scenery..nearli killed my legs, cus v tiring ah. had dinner b4 gg hm. train so crowded..so stand all e way back hm..apparently my hp nv died despite many missed calls frm my mum..grrh!
hmM~ tml another dae at orchard again.. yawns!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 21, 2006
11:36 PM
Going to sch later in e morning, the good mi volunteer myself for i dun wan to grow mushrms at hm. Get tired of shopping sprees and dun hav much vitamin M to finance my shopping. Aft deducting the sch fees, the fig in my account looks pathetic.. and tt 75bucks like not enuff for mi.. Sat made some blunders at work, but lucky it was cleared up. phew~ and sold a swiss flex.. sun fyp tt yong leong nearli send mi n wl to hell! kao eh! i reali dun wish to see him le. he shld be glad tt he's a emmetrope, if nt i guess i dun hae much patience w him. lucky min jie's bro was cute..as least the whole dae nt tt bad. ytd which was a mon, cleared the mess on my table. its much neater. yeaH! saw wad my gers given mi last yr the 'special moments' time flies hor, NS de NS, tertiary life de, still in poly de. haha. had a v v full lunch. dad bought for me rice+duck drum stick+egg+ another dunoe wad..wah! its a big packet n im too full for dinner. kinda worried for fyp, 15emmetropes and 10myopes!!! n the time left is not alot le. i realli wish we can complete on time and not pass on to juniors. who gt lobang for 8-13yr old kids?
Happy birthday DEAR!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, August 18, 2006
9:36 PM
Grrh..Im full! Morning fyp jean was e subject..sorry ger~ its realli tiring. but thanks for helping out..we nid emmetropes like u. A pity that she left earli, so i karna be subject. O_o i realli admire those kids who complete the whole thing. As for work, seems tt mi n sokie had e same feeling ba. dunoe when edward will wan to treat us to cuttlefish.. hopefully no la. hiring us for $9/hr is like a waste of resources la. n tml is working day, die ah~ following few wkends i working james not ard..duno who will help mi when im realli dead liao...aiyo~ y wan to go property hunting during this period of time?
gif ptn-bbq a miss since ecp is damn bloody far frm my hse n tml nid to work n i cant take anithing frm dere. n jus nice gy asked mi out for dinner...so yeps. had a quick bath den took 962 to sun plaza. change route le, nv noe it also rao ard sembawang crescent. good also, so nxt time i visit my ah gong can str8 take 962 alr. we took 980 to sembawang plaza..dunoe e shuttle bus stand hide until where..haha! finish walking the mall in less than 30mins..settle at 'Taste of Thailand' for dinner. the food is fabulous n cheap too. last time live in yishun will always go dere eat de. too bad i still cant take seafood..great pity!! hey~ nxt time if gt chance, shld try the pine apple rice too..
great food is simply great for pigs huh.. =P i noe u still can eat de rite.. hehe ! thanks for e treat. anw~ i still had a slice of pizza when i reach hm, simply too hard to resist e temptation of cheesy pizza! my table is as messy as pig sty..tian ah! wonder how to clear the mess away.. sian half.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
10:39 PM
i tink todae i made a wrong choice of going dwn WCC for ms tang study. wrong choice of following dem to town. wrong choice of accepting my bro offer to help mi get the stuff i wan cus i couldnt find it ani where else and since it is, i shld have jus forget bt everything. wrong choice of everything todae. and yes, im pissed off. its also none of ur biz. PTN tml, shall gif it a miss. wads e great deal its e final yr?
hMM~ huiyu's radio blog is nice. with all the MLB songs. thanks for tt, i feel better. dear, ur bdae nxt week hor, free to meet up for nt? haha! im super duper free nxt wk! no fyp n work except wkends. good.
im going to enjoy myself to fullest nxt wk b4 the long awaiting attachment starts!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
10:50 PM
Out for almost whole dae. Got a scare when i reach city hall mrt, someone wearing shades appear in frt of mi..dots! Well, that 75bucks really prove to be useful. had fish n co for lunch~ cus someone sae tt having lunch at foodcourt is pathetic..tsk tsk. walk rd suntec, haha! we stepped into YES, wrong choice cus the sales girl keep tailing us. Lucky nv step into Paris Miki..headed for bugis aft tt. combed the whole of bugis village..nv bought the MNG minature cus i dun tink its really worth it le...saw a pair of Jeans I like, but den aft hearing c kway experience last time make mi dun dare to try it..haha! went to the 2nd lvl shop selling frames..disappointing. tt duck tried almost all e frames dere n decide on one, but den we find tt its quite fragile la..so in e end nv buy. lol. n v qiao, bump into sokhong. went to bugis pt also, quite a sian place..bought a zodiac shirt, althou bit nt worth it, i still go ahead w it cus its simply too cute la. wana buy PIG de, but den someone reserve it le..so yahz. chill over at coffee bean..talked bt certain things,welL~ =x nite time went over to newton, but den realise tt it was close. so went to north pt instead. had a quick dinner n tadA! home sweet home. bought ramily burger for my mum, shld have bought sth for miself too cuz im feeling hungry nw.hhaa okies...tml tink cancelling my appt at gleneagles cus mum nt free n she dun wan mi to go dwn alone, anw~ i wana noe e result for my blood test..if nth is wrong, i tink i will wack e doct. haha! tv time
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
10:22 PM
Perhaps todae den shld DECLARE holis. cleared the dispensing workshop todae..well~ learnt aniting? i dunoe, cus i was day dreaming away. Morning did the feedback forms all this, wads e use when they have alr planned to have OC closed on mon n wed. no pt asking us lor. aft workshop, mi n sh went walk walk rd CWP. she bought a watch, kinda 'classy' le, but den its white, must take gd care of it ah. still considering whether to buy that doggy watch, if buy one more, i wld have 3 watches alr! while walking on e wae hm~ elsie msg mi asked mi wana go penang during the teacher's dae break tt wkend? how i wish i can go, yao bu shi attachment! she even told mi the itinery, super gek sia. hai~ this wkend originally she jio mi go genting but den cus of fyp n some other reasons, i jus decline it. sadded. den call her up n tc abit, i will try to make my wkend free for gathering. nw tt holis are here, i can stay up to watch tv as long as dere are nice progs. this few daes been eating junk food like nobody biz..durians tibits icecream chocos! ani of dem wld be enuff to kill mi. i reali feel tt my immune system is becoming frm bad to worse. =( im 75bucks richer todae w compliments frm dawn cl study..time for mi to go shopping tml! =D i nid to buy my dear huiyu pressie!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, August 11, 2006
10:05 PM
Yesh! i DECLARE holis!! Finally a sem wif no sem exams, how kewl! N todae i gt no px, so im px for daniel, ceeteing n iris. dawn check my eyes until she sian 1/2. order my O2 optix, looks like my 1Day Acu Moist is gone liao, i dun have much Dailies on stock.. jus hope tt i wont develop mucin balls w my PureV lens. Todae we had one K/C px, perhaps i shld have 'accepted' the offer by iris cus she wan mi to have tt px iniitally. he's coming back for RGP i guess. n dawn upgraded her hx taking marks frm -3 to -5 . aft clinic, company ct dwn stairs to choose her frame, cus ms tang sae gif us special offer..im still tinking of my swiss flex..haha! also have a piece of cake w compliments frm anna cus mon's her bdae. we begin to chit chat w her, wah! she told us bt her overseas experiences lor...so nice n wonderful..hitched a ride frm her to clementi mrt if not we reali wan to cab hm liaoz..phew~ she told us monica nxt sem if she nv c wrongly is tue clinic, hopefully is tue n fri..althou i quite like her, but den i noe nxt sem if i under her, i will get 'killed' extra doubly..anw~ its still a big big qns mark to our future la..pls let mi grad w my diploma w no hiccups had sakae buffet w my sis. aww~ she dun wan to treat mi, so sad. well~ its an enjoyable dinner. da bao our mochi ice cream hm, hope it wld onli land in my stomach. my fridge nw alot of junks! longan, durian, jackfruit etc. all are welcome to eat dem la. cus i cant tahan the hybrid fragance.. sigh`
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
10:07 PM
Legs and back aching.. couldnt slpt last nite so todae kinda tired. lucky no lessons n onli briefings. chris is so long winded, as for the taxi driver screening, hengz gt one dae off for fyp, if nt u ask mi do CS i will concuss. Let monica assess my 4 files, im honored to sae : i failed one.. a 4.5 grade, nt bad lioa! she still v generous, n unexpectedly she failed my lst case instead of e 2nd n she forget bt her BV case liao..phew! went to work, overslept but i still reach dere on time. kinda stunned, cus onli 3person working, and is 3ladies, and among the 3, two are pregnant. one v 'cute' incident happen todae..i was serving this cheena lady:
she: i wan to buy sunglasses, top branded ones i begin to recommend Gucci de nVersace (wzadeva u call it) she: hmm, not bad. how much? i: ard 300+ she: sing dollars? i: yep she: gt cheaper ones? i: recommend fila de she: gt cheaper ones..ard $$$50? i: sorry, dun have. see the ironic of it? firstly she wan top branded ones n den see her last sentence. this incident again add on my 'dislike' agst .... hai! i duno wad to luff or faints lor. work was tiring. christine v nice, ask mi go off lst n let pei sung do the refraction =) hopefully tml WC no px. the sms came like is like qing tian pi li.. my hse reek of durian+jackfruit smell, durian is nice, but the hybrid of it is disgusting! im tired... O.o i miss u....its been a long time since i tok to u until todae.. (:
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
10:09 PM
Happy National Day! This two days super slacking, have my beauty sleep! Ytd dae finally bai tuo touch ur leg frm clinic~ rajeev n mi seem to hav some sort of communication prob..haha! Alia very nice !! ke lianz, studying for test during fitting. nxt px is for rgp fit, as wad ts sae, she's really quiet la..she n her fren late for half n hr, den i tink mel bit gan jiong la, forget to take px file den go off liao...den sokie px fly her aeroplane, somemore is lst yr optom..haha! aft clinic, went sembawang meet my parents, den dad drive us to old wlands dere for lunch. had alot until i stomach ache la..hai! todae wake up! had breakfast, the morning show 'tian shi xin -angel's heart' very touching sia, too bad i miss the early part of it cus i still zZzz.. basically the whole of todae is slp n eat slp n eat..even doze off while watching the parade. yuan beng wana go bugis w mum de, but den i nt feeling tt well la. so stae at hm. im excited bt the msia w mushrms!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 07, 2006
10:01 PM
Tests cleared todae, althou nt v promising, but den its relax time for there's no Sem exams =P sat wake up, go CWP for lunch @ Swensense, ate alot. there's this offer where u can get the desert for 41cents when u order a main course. went shopping for my cousin present, but i dunoe if i able to make it or nt. nite time catch the finals of superband..yeah! den my dear huiyu, too high n too rich liao, nxt time can donate tt amt of money to mi le..hehe! sun was work time. kinda slack =D so was dere chit chatting w christine n james. our topic was revolving property,marriage and kids. weird hor? jus nice tt dae we saw mani kids lor, v gaoxiao. den james keep asking mi when will i get married? dots sia, i haven even play enuff ask mi settle dwn..sort one. den he sae scalie i will meet my prince charming soon n i will wan to get tied dwn. unless u give mi someone as charming n doting as weixiang mayb i will consider. ahaa! anw~ we met alot of niao customers tt dae la..one sent pei sung to fumes until she no words lor..ytd lst time teach pple wear lens..nails so long dun bear to cut still wan to wear lens, later lens tear den u noe..aft work rest abit den tok to c kway on phone for 2hrs n online. he's e reason tt made mi to continue msn n forget bt my bmop, but its alrite cus it wont kill if i nv study. anw, as for todae bmop test, its super killler, even zhen e crappist also dunoe how to crap enuff lor, dun sae mi..sianz 1/2. tel role play v funny also~ a go go disco, i still agar agar la..lols.! the dae ended wif fyp meetings..ah~ subjects n subjects..where to dig! in a relaxing mood nw, looking forward to my holis even thou gt fyp, but hopefully the msia trip will pull thru n those food trips!=D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, August 04, 2006
10:22 PM
ONe more week to term break. yippie. tml i no nid to work cus exchange w sokie, so i can catch my superband finals le..todae full shift FT, morinng was really unpleasant la, cock up alot of things..cus mum injured herself..den dunoe how she is le..but nw she's quite alrite liao, jus dunoe when it will heal lor. well~ inevitably get a lecture by touch ur leg, aft tt she went for lunch. but when she came back, she begin to treat mi super duperly nice..smile at mi..i was quite taken aback lor. worse still, finish clinic liao, she asked mi nt to take it to heart wad she said n stuff, i was touched la cus its really my mistake lor..dots. as wad ah yun sae: maybe she really going deng deng deng deng ,tts y v empathetic. hoho! n my last px, marcus, i was hoping tt he cancel his appt cus ts scare mi tt he's a difficult px n im alr v drained. luckily he's alrite n i nv screw up my bv assessment tests.
todae the 9pm show last episode, duno why, towards e ending, tears jus trickled off my cheeks. had a so called gd cry la, feeling better.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
7:33 PM
HmM..todae is quite a nice dae. Essilor visit in the morning was an enriching one. It further convince mi that Essilor really is a Prenium lens. =D I was hoping it wld end earli so tt i can study for gems, apparently it did not la cus we reach sch near to one. bought a fillet n gobble it dwn b4 test start. phew~ lucky it was a manageable one. cus i haven finished studying for it jiu zzZzz le last nite. another lens talk - Hoya- 3.30..welL~ not really convinced la..haha! den went for monica grading.. althou the lst grade is really bad, but nvm~ i m still feeling alrite. nv cry. cus i noe i realli deserved tt grade, she nv fail mi very gd enuff le, i can see her effort in counting the marks she deduct cus i guess she dun wan to fail mi. it seems tt tonite my ginseng is nt bitter le, infact v tasteful..i siao liao,lols..anw~ bought a voodoo doll -cupid- for my sis, she like it alot =) yeah. perhaps tt shall be her bdae present..hehe
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
