my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Monday, October 31, 2005
10:45 PM
lst day of sch today. Grrh, timetable quite messy lor, change here change dere until i v luan le..all becus of public holis n clin opt n cl fitting..so everyday must tell mi meet wad time le, if not later i miss pracs den get strangled sia. Bit of mental block cos for a mth plus nv have lectures n stuff already,ya..n i seriously dun like Bino vision ---> sianz. 3hrs of break passed v fast..napped for a short while in the lib den tc den time to go for lessons again. sigh..its been a yr n rajeev this sem taking us for 2modules, jia lat. his lesson i really dun dare to slp or press hp sia..hope i wont get chased out of class by him for dozing off in e future...
argh, seriously hor..i tink im getting bit tired of the r/s already. mental fatigue sia, guessing how have u been n wadsoever..n i dun tink my concern is being reprocicated la..who am i to u exactly? do u even realised the existence of mi? well, i doubt u have e ans to my qns ba.. f sia.
31st oct 8.30pm *winks*
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, October 30, 2005
1:30 AM
Wake up at 5.45am on a sat morning, very nang de of mi lor..cus going to muar ma. met up wif my cousins come their frens, my relatives n co la. went dunoe wad place to have our breakfast, had alot. nxt go temple bai bai --> lunch, ate alot too --> shopping at summit. due to limited time, i nv buy much le..onli bought CD, a pair of slippers n a top. haah. aft shopping, i tink go temples again. haha, todae we went to a total of 4temples. i guess the adults enjoy praying for gd fortune ba, cus tts e purpose of the trip to muar. as usual, the grp of us 'camped' at e back of e bus lor..kh raided my hp n dere di-siaoing mi lor..chuan here chuan dere...even my cousin also join in e 'fun' n sae wad catch mi w him at orchard n dover, tok crapz lor..cus i dun tink he realli saw mi at orchard w him luh..he still ask mi stuff bt mi n him. sigh la. i also dunoe wad to ssae lor. mMm, b4 we went for dinner, was playing bingo la. those hu wana play chip in one bucks lor, den the winner will get the amt tt those players chip in. I nv played initially cus my grandma won. 2nd rd mum ask mi to play..n i won le..win RM15 nia, nt much. den 3rd rd i lose..4th rd grandma won again. duhz. get sabo to sing duet wif kh, we sang guang huai fang shi. yeps..n some of dem thot we are qing mei zhu ma.. -.- even my dad thot so too..kaoz, i dun go for jie di lian one..aha. dinner was nt bad too..took pics,gt one pic mi n kh kinda close lor..haah,he asked mi use this pic go n spite someone..very bad le..n to conclude, im feeling v v tired rite nw so ya, shall end here. i jus found out sth frm someone's blog. wad else can i sae other than DISAPPOINTED in YOU! =/
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, October 28, 2005
2:10 AM
Time check: 1.55am wee hrs of a fri morning alr. holis really ending..but i can say this holis is one that i've gone out several times per week..less time to rot at home..gd. i still haven cleared e mess of lecture notes on my table. shall do it when i wake up. n my lib bks are due todae..still left half a bk to go. mMm, last wed went out wif ber xinyi eekang n alan. met at suntec, walked walked. catched a movie-->transporter 2 initally thot i wld be a boring one,but i was wrong. too exciting until i nv doze off..was freezing cold aft e movie, so we went out of e mall to de-froze. went to makan sutra (along esplanade) for dinner. v nice place oh. i had chao kway tiao n xy had oyster omelette. we shared lor..v nice leh the food!!!! the guys had hokkien mee stingray n stuff. ber n alan are rice buckets lor..eat so much rice. aft eating, ek go n buy tiger beer n i drank bit lor,quite nice taste le..well~ nite scenary along dere is really beautiful n romantic till i dun hav words for it. Really wish i can spent a nite outside dere admiring the scenary lor...woot! left there near to ten. ber took e same train as mi, cus he pei wo till wlands ma when he live in jurong. nice of him lor. as usual, i look dead lor cus tired liao ma. he offer to walk mi hm,but i decline lor cus yahs..den hmm~ must thanks e guys for the movie n drinks n attempts to kiap the softoys at arcade lor =) really had a nice time hanging out wif u all...im looking forward to e weekend when ek can get e car frm his dad bring us go dou feng n makan lor... ytd(thr) wake up near to twelve. but im still feeling tired. yuan beng meeting him 3+ de, but last min, his px for his NV played him out...den 4+ meet him at wlands since he coming dwn frm sch ma..catch e movie 40yr old virgin. the stupid theatre was awfully cold la. but this time he was feeling cold too...quite a hilarious movie, but i still prefer meet the focker thou. tink i nt tt bian tai enuff to unstd certain things ba..aft tt went fc eat den sae byebye le. actually tonite i intend to slp early de,but den well..dun wana tok bt it liao. n oh ya, thanks for hearing mi talked to u bt my bu kai xing le, althou i tink u also quite sleeply hearing it n nth to comment la. but its better den mi talking to air. n hope u will feel better liao la. dun be like mi feel lousy okie..enjoy ur swim but i dun wish to c a chao da duck okie... holis ending le, make full use of e remaining daes.takkaire!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
12:15 PM
shall update bt ytd~!~! its was the 2nd day of nuoo talk. luckily it ends till 12, but im still as slpy as ever. doze off again like many others again. haha. halfway went for gems reg, but duh! finally aft 6choices, get into Effective speaking skills cus those gems i wan zero seats le. lucky gt weiling pei wo.still alrite. die also die tgt. =P lunch break was nice as usual, get our CL bibled signed. haha! left sch aft that.
Highlight of the day was night time --> EYEBALL EXTRAVANGZA GALA DINNER. met mushrms at orchard lst den we walked to the venue which is Grand HYatt! woo! kinda posh le dere. feel bit out of place cus mostly dere are professionals frm optometric line...but luckily our table are all the optom students. kinda surprised that he sat e same table as us lor n is beside mi, cus i thot he sitting wif his class of guys ma. the food still not that bad. took some pics among ourselves,lects, DESMOND n him..haha. finally gt a pic w him leh. ahem, den v paiseh to sh, last nite keep di-siaoing u w u noe lor..hehe!! no offence ah. b4 leaving, walked over to his class tt table to say byebye, den his class of gers keep asking him to intro mi lor, den bit paiseh lor. diaoz. den outside e ballrm, saw another of his senior, n tt senior ask mi if he's my bf. haa, at tt pt of time, i seriously dunoe wan to sae yes or no le, but den i still sae yes la,haah. by e time we reach wlands, if he wan to walked mi hm, he wld hav miss his last train. so he asked mi if its okie if he dun walked mi hm. i sae nt okie le, cus so late le. hahaha...den ke lian him la, gotta take cab home. xD n yeps, must thanks zhixiong for the ticks to the gala dinner...n for doing a gd job in taking photos..hee!
gotta go n bath le,ltr meeting xinyi eekang n ber dey all at city hall. takkaire peepS!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, October 24, 2005
11:56 PM
went for nuoo talk todae, becus of this wake up at 6am+ wah sey long long nv wake up so earli so todae during the way, was either slping or stoning. i nv absorbed much, n aft tea break, quite many pple went off lor, but in e end still come back again for attendence. dawn wasnt really happy lor..well~ i feel v proud of myself le, can sit dere frm 8-6.30 thru out, althou inside my heart i reali wan to went off la. the food was nt bad lor, thats e onli thing i like. haah.
todae i feel v lousy lor. ling shld noe y. cus i was grumbling to her again, so paiseh, always made u listen to my troubles. on e wae hm, i tink alot..but still haven tink thru yet. wad do i really wan? todae i feel like avoiding u, i also dunoe y. seriously, am i really happy? argh..wo hao xiang ku le... =/
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, October 21, 2005
7:40 PM
Another eating day! went suki sushi w kor, shirlene n yw. i gt free treat. yay! ate until v full la cus its buffet ma..but i still gt eat dinner...haha! was v tired, n was yawning thru out the day lor. including todae, i've stepped into cine for consectively times lor..wah. sian sia. aft makan went heeren n paragon. hhaa, yw wana get mi my bdae present de, but i also duno wad i wna..so KIV lst lor.. left for hm ard 4+ cus i reali wan to KO le, guess its due to e food ba. haah haah, last nite was waiting for weiqiang de sms lor, cus i noe he wld be like last yr 2359 den msg mi. but den turn out 2359 i receive wenqin msg, nt bad la, at least he still gt e heart to rmb my bdae. receive brandon msg n di's call also. so todae aftnn,weiqiang msg mi this 'i had a confession to make, really sorry abt yest not coming down.Er..feel bit guilty cos i tink tt jus becus there is nt much pple i noe is not a gd reason. yup, really sorry also 4 e failure to sms u e bdae greetings yest nite. In the process of waiting, i fell asleep, so sorry again.Ya,but hope u enjoy urself yest and also thru out tis long break u r having,hope u found ur bracelet le n this 2nd dae of being a 18yr old le, had fun!' I saw his sms, stunned for words. n i dun blame him for anithing le yet he still keep apologising. n the most 'touching' thing is he still rmb i told him tt i lost my bracelet..aww! so nice rite...yeps, he's really a mr nice guy! xD
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
okie..2nd entry for the day. celebrated an earli bdae w him on 19oct. well~ meet him 5.30 at orchard.. b4 tt he went gym so i expected a tired him la n he look reali tired. haah! he wanted to bring me to Ichiban dunoe wad jap restaurant for dinner de,but den lucky im still full, so the idea was put off. heng ah, cus i dun wish him to spend so much money le.. so i suggest we walk to PS la since we intend to catch e movie dere. walk walk walk n i feel v weird lor, partly im still tinking of how to tok to him bt wad i feel n i guess im tired too lor, my tone wasnt v nice lor, but he still continue toking la..told mi bt e eye screening n his results blah blah blah. in e end, we dine at a cafe in cine, he ate spagh n i ate calamari rings lor. the movie 'april snow' was really bad. i doze off n still tinking of how to tell him..haha! when e movie ended, we both agreed that the show is really lousy n he said nxt time dun let mi choose movie liao..okie lor. on e train journey back to wlands, i guess i really look like a dead zombie. eyes literally is closing n im feeling v v cold, n v nang de leh,he help mi carry my handbag...woot! i keep telling him tt im v cold n yet he dun believe it until he held my hands. piang. when he walked mi hm tt time, my mind is still tinking of how to open my mouth n tell him le, cus nt much time left ma. so when almost reach my blk le, i asked him if he ji zhe hui jia or nt, lucky he said no so we went 520 de voidecksit dwn n chat lor. enjoy e nite breeze in his arms althou im alr v cold le..n he give mi my present..its a necklace n he helped mi put it on :) aft that, time is realli running out cus 11 le, later he cant catch e last train den die. i hesitated v v v long n finally open my mouth n told him how i feel. phew~ he nt angry or wad lor n he apologised. hiak~ den i chen ji lay dwn my terms n conditions,sounds bad rite? haha..aft finish telling wad i wana sae, hang out for a while more n bade gdbye le.. luckily the dae nv ends v badly cus initally it was real bad la. my tone n other stuff...phew phew~ n i feel relieved aft telling him my feelings lor..yeps..n i hope he rmb wad i want ba.. =)
dear~ rest well okie. hope u recover frm ur backpain soon kie..if u still going gym later, takaire ah!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
Its over 12am le, im officially 18! hmM~ shall blog bt my bdae celebration w my sec sch buddies! its really full of surprises n fun !! lst surprise: my dear huiyu appear at my doorstep with a bouquet of daises flowers when we were susposed to meet at cwp! lst time receive flowers in my lifetime sia..yay! 2nd surprise: received bdae sms frm her frens-yk,ht,pohsiew. ht sms was very cute lor! thanks! aft makan at cwp, we took train to somerset. my dear huiyu pull mi go heeren walk walk lor, n i guess its e lst time i step into the toilet, almost everything automatic de. 3rd surprise: elsie come heeren meet us, we went partyworld ktv. i wasnt expecting anyone le cus i thot only e 3ofus ma. xinyi nv told mi if she's coming n hest told mi she going wif ky. n to my surprise,i saw xy n hest la! omg..*faints* so we begin to start singing n here comes e 4th surprise: elsie went out to order drinks ma, but in e end she came back w a bdae cake w a lighted candle la! omg..so sing bdae song n make my wishes. hehe..took pics..cut cake..the brownie cake is delicious! 5th surprise: sook kim n qianni came along too..wah, long time no c u all le wor, thanks!! haha...n 6th surprise: i received a sms frm ernie!!!! woot! thanks oh! althou i noe u abit unwilling to msg mi huh! hahas..xie xie! n the last surprise is : this one is chao sweet of my gers la! i open my present! the book of 'special moments' ->a collection of those bdae msgs dey wrote for mi, which includes those photos we've taken during our sec sch daes..memories wor =) v v v touched, the efforts dey have put in is alot lor...n one special msg frm a special someone tt is WEIQIANG! im indeed v v shocked to see urs inside too.! yeps..aft ktv, we went cine. huiyu n sk left earlier.took neos! v chio wor! went pasta for dinner. qia n xy go meet fren too! n left mi hest ky n elsie. haha..lucky ky gt car le, he drove us back lor! err...quite a 'reckless' driver ah. n yah..guess wads ky bdae present for mi? a ride back hm! my wei lai jie fu..thanks oh! here comes my thank you msg! elsie: my mastermind for todae celebration. i struck for words le, thanks for e efforts as well as ur blog entry for mi! n huiyu: haha,honored to receive flowers frm u oh n ur blog entry too..xy hest qia sk joyce yvonne--> thanks for the parts n parcels for the memories oh, realli make mi miss those daes in 4/3..a big thank you to u all! love ya!! woo~ i yearn for a bdae full of surprises n this yr is really the one! I feel so happy! XD
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005
4:00 PM
1 more day to my birthday..so in less than 24hrs i'll turn 18 le, no more sweet 17..aww! but the gd thing is can watch M18 shows. i still haven recovered frm my sunburnt yet le, nw face skin started peeling alr, so face gt diff shade of colors n my shoulder is still red and pain.. ytd was mushrms outing, we went klunch n go orchard nua. this time at kbox, dun hav my shuai ge! Saddening. haha! sh n mi both received our bdae li wu..yea! forever de, last yr n this yr, my 1st pressie is always frm my dear mushrms! heeh..xie xie.. =) n thanks guys for the outing! nxt tue aft nuoo we go out enjoy ourselves again kie? n yeps,today results is out. finally the anxiety is over. im v happy w my grades cus nv forward module n my record hasnt been broken by Cs & Ds. *phew* must thanks my mushrms who've helped mi w schwork le,esp my pracs u noe.. Sigh` this few daes kinda unhappy lor cus he's like so heck care? i dun see u showing 'heckcareness' to ur game rite..but den i also dun wish to brood over it too much la, waste my time n spoil my mood nia. later meeting u..hopefully i can tell u wad i wan to sae althou i noe there's a risk dere..n i dun wish to spend my bdae unhappily..tts all. shall update again tonite! takkaire
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, October 15, 2005
10:00 PM
OuChz, my back n arms nw v pain, face like red lobster like that--> SuNbUrNt! today went swimming w my dear huiyu, frm 10-1.30, the heat frm the aftnn sun is powerful. but todae althou we sepnt 3hrs plus in pool, i tink the time really we swam is 45mins only la, the remaining was basically in the jacuzzi pool chit chatting, n huiyu made a funny joke. there was this someone whose back is facing us, the back n hair resembles a guy lor n its nt bad la, in e end it turn out to be a ger..so gao xiaoz. aft e swim, we walked to Lot 1 n went Let's Eat again! woot..the pandan leaf chicken is v nice lor..n went walk walk basically in almost everyshop. haha! went basement tt time, bring my dear go n c someone, he nt bad looking rite? haha! so nxt time u can go dere during weekends to bio him la..jkjk!
basically, nw im enjoying the cool air in the aircon rm, buay tahan ah! v painful... =/
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
5:30 PM
Finally,todae marks e end of runs to ttsh. its very tiring.having to put on a strong front when deep inside mi im breaking dwn find things to occupied myself to prevent my mind frm wandering off. the only times i looked forward was during his break n five thirty. ytd ling n huiyun came n visited my mum, they bought fruits n an activity bk n a pen for mi as well, very yong xing rite? thanks gers!! we had lunch tgt wif him also lor..aft tt occupy myself w e activity bk w discman n eating grapes w mum...den 5+ he came up n find mi lor..on his own accord sia. we went dwn to the grassland again lor..he left at 6+ n den i went back again. nite time my ah jiu fetched mi hm again. todae went dwn earlier to buy lunch for mum,cus hospital food is really sucky! bth! but food frm kopitiam isnt nice either. n he called mi at 12+ for lunch..on his own accord again!!! hahah! i've alr eaten le so i watched him eat lor..i told him i kinda turn off by food n he said he will get mi a bottle tt's labelled weight loss pills,but inside is weight gain pills..n even sae he gt lobang frm desmond can get it cheaper..kao! aft lunch he accompanied for a while den sis called mi cus everything settle le, time to go hm! he pei wo go find my mum n sis lor, n ask her to takkaire. well~ dun intend to tell my mum anithing bt mi n him de, guess she more or less also noe liao.but den i still bit uncertain bt it lor..bi jing .............
n my dear niece ah: wad are the things tt u realised ah? this few times read ur blog i bit confused le? wads happening ah? mus tell mi okie...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
11:55 PM
5more min to another new day, which i hope there will really be a better tml. todae is a v v terrible day for mi, suffered physically n mentally..early in e morning keep msging him cus i reali v dwn lor, n grateful that he still replied cus over 8am le. den called him again during 12+ but i dunoe his break is frm 1-2. tt time i really thot he's angry w mi lor ying wei he nv ans my call ma, but i tink too much le, im too sad tt time alr. finally he called mi, went dwn to meet him outside kopitiam,tt moment i reali str8 awae wana be in his arms, but well~ he was still in his clinic coat n baoling was dere lor. watch him eat,aft that went to a corner n sit dwn. i completely broke dwn infrt of him,thou he nv said much,but holding my hands tightly n lying on his shoulder is enuff to make mi feel relieved. aft his break, i went walk walk at those availabe shops lor + going toilet to wash up to kill time. luckily ling called mi lor, thanks le. at least nv gif mi time to be alone.. Jie n kor n lauren came aft tt, we jus sit dwn dere n do wad we can do lor. When he knocked off, he came up n find mi n pei wo a while b4 we went dwn to e grassland dere to chat lor..sat dere for hrs n he tried his best to make mi smile n make mi melted literally. appreciated his efforts. He pei wo till 8+ den accompany mi back to the ward. in the lift, i was in sadness again but he comfort mi lor.. left for hm ard 9+, ah jiu fetched us back~ phew. was basically slping thru out e whole journey. dead tired..n its gona be 12 soon le, time for mi to slp n prepare for tml. [[althou i noe u may nt c this, but dear, thanks for all accompanying mi all the while todae okie. really feel relieved to have u by myside when i really nid u todae,esp when u offer to buy mi mag n lend mi ur ipod to prevent mi frm thinkin too much.. muackz]] [[n of cus my dear mushrms n elsie n huiyu, thanks for ya concern. im touched. xie xie ni. hugss]]
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Monday, October 10, 2005
10:09 PM
2nd week of holis for nw. Last nite slp quite late n keep waking up in the middle of the night..called him ard 11+ cus really want to find someone to tok to, but miss call. Well, he was preparing stuff for his attachment e nxt dae n he called mi back at 12am.tok for 5min den i put his phone dwn le,but nevertheless kinda relieved to hear his voice lor. wanted to tell him wad happen but i jus cant said it out...so sms him bt it cus he sense sth is wrong w mi lor. he asked mi out for dinner(surprisingly) today,but i turn him dwn la. in e middle of e nite keep waking up, so todae i piggified until 12pm..jus nice when he was bt to have his lst break of e dae..went out for lunch den reach hm rot again,on phone/online/tv/slp as much n luff as i can cus tonite i can forsee WWIII breaking up in my hse..no joke.. jus nw chatted w him for a while nia, cus he need to go revise on the silent thief of vision if nt tml he get shoot qns by the doct den cham le. haah, he told mi the cases the doct shared w him todae during his attachment, interesting le. Seems like working in hospital is definitely a diff experience frm working in optical shops. N looks like no job for this week le cus ling haven received ani call yet. but nvm den we can go outing again lor. hope that i can brave tonite thru
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
9:50 PM
Change to blogspot..so ya this is my "new blog" old enteries are still here ba. n thanks peggy for taking the troubles to help mi set up everything,thanks ger! owe u a meal..this few daes well~ nv go out, so is rot at hm..still have remains of some flesh thou b4 everything returns to skeleton. kies..fri nth much happen. sat went swensense w ahyi n cousin n mum for lunch..very full. walked ard...den nite time go cwp meet peggy...had dinner at fc n we walked rds again..haha! went to find her fren liy, kinda ke lian la, whole dae standing dere folding clothes..todae sun, hai! hopefully matters will nt get out of hand again this time.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Thursday, October 06, 2005
8:03 AM
Yay!! todae went to watch Corpse bride. nt too bad a show..melodious n cute..budden quite short lor the show. read my storybk till i nearly doze off on train, heng nv miss stop n i was earli, for the lst time. haha. he pia cab dwn cus someone was happily playing games before that lor. aft the movie, he suggested go sembawang beach..i was like 'diaoz, that place' but in e end go airport cus i wan to go dere view planes. as usual, the no sense of direction de mi make him walk aimlessly lor..haha! n to my disappointment, the viewing mall how come so short stretch? all turn into food restaurants..kinda sian zi bua lor, but den wif him around nt sian la :) settle at mac for dinner...aww! ytd i jus had mac. so i share a meal w him lor, n he said each time he goes out w mi, his waistline sure suffer cus i eat v lil nia, remaining let him eat..haha! chit chatting at mac + looking out for shuai ges, sadly none le..sian. saw pretty ladies but no shuai ge..haha. left airport ard 8plus, took 858 hm instead of train cus later i wld complain no seats again..lalalala! its a one hr journey back to wlands, v dong buay diao.
n i wan complain sia. that guy todae stuff his ipod n wallet n hp into my handbag n refuesed to carry for mi cus he find it too lady like..wah liew..his 3210 lols..quite heavy le, so i dun care keep asking me to help mi take..n he onli offers help mi carry on train n bus or when there's nt much pple ard. -.-
tml shall stae at hm alr cus i've been going out for consecutively 4days. mum gona jump at mi soon. tonite i shall have the sweetest dreams XD
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
7:51 AM
ZzZz, im feeling tired, eyes closing soon. jus nw late aftnn went swimming at cck sports complex wif sh..woah, spent 1.5hrs in the pool nia, so no signs of being tanned. but still enjoy swimming.. =) went to wlands lib to borrow 4books to prevent myself frm growing fungi..haah.
ytd was mushrms outing again! yay..we went kbox @ luckychinatown..wonder why we went so far? i also dunoe le..cus huiyun suggested de, but nvm~ the waiter hiak hiak~ nt a bad looking one lor, we all chatted w him for a while la, n he's kinda 'cute' dunoe y hor, each time i go kbox sure let mi c a man bu cuo de waiter de.. whhee~ but den i wun as wad huiyun sae go dwn dere to bio him for this week la hor! haha.. we were quite high when singing certain songs la..enjoy myself xD aft which went to eat porridge...sh n huiyun both bought some apparels frm this fashion..woO! went recruit express for job interview, onli to noe that the last two daes we cant commit due to NuOO talk. bit sianz zibua la. but still will go for nuoo talk one.
Nw i still tinking..if tml gt go out or nt le, tt guy still haven cfm wif mi yet. y so bu xiao xing lost his hp? but den i lazi to wait for him online le cus i dun wish to sacrificed my slping time...yawns.... Z_z
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, October 03, 2005
10:52 AM
Oh my god..nearing to 2am soon..later 1030 meeting mushrms at outram..hoho~ so hopefully i can wake up on time later at 9.
ytd(mon) morning,wake up at 1050 cus meeting peggy 1115 at wlands...thot im going to be late but she later den mi sia. hahah!! went cwp walked one rd b4 proceeding to bugis. hmm~ i must sae todae she da shou huo oh, buy many things to dote herself, but rmb to save for rainy daes as well ah..heeh i bought a skirt n a bottle...love the skirt alot..heeh. v seldom will c mi buy things when im out wif frens de leh. aft our shopping at bugis street, went to guan yin miao bai bai..when i saw the crowd den realised todae is chu yi, but den nt as much pple as tt time during guan yin dan when i met dere w ling n huiyun. sincerely praying for wad i wan lor...hopefully my prayers wld be answered ba. yeps. den home sweet home.. n when i alight frm train, saw qin n xueling tgt, how sway can i be rite? hai, last nite was still looking thru e stuff he gave mi n the hp accessories n todae let mi bump into him..kao..but nvm la, at least i nv feel sad or wad lor...went pasar malam bought sugarcane juice for mum..cus i wld be going out more during the holis den wad she expected....so must noe how to zhuo ren abit. haha.
hmm~ wasnt reali in a gd mood jus nw..but all thanks to ling n huiyun...esp hy...thanks for wad u've done tonite okie? will gif u a hug de. at least clarifying some things w him. but dunoe whether its a gd or bad outcome la...shall nt dwell on it le..cus i wana stae happy during the holis!!
okie...off to lala land le..cyar pple! takkaire =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
Feeling v gek nw..until i feel like dropping tears already. but i dun wish to. im ranting to huiyun, guess she's kinda ke lian to hear my rants..but thanks ger.. muacks. hai! seriously. i dunoe wad shld i do? gif up or jus mou mou de wait for his hints? that nite, i thot as least u gif mi some confirmation, but i guess im really wrong lor. why why why? why are guys so sickening? aww! nw v ji dong le, n huiyun jus added ling into our conversation...hai~ so another ke lian de shou zhui le.
huiyun...rite nw im typing this entry...i reali scared le. dun dare to copy n paste the qns le..argh. totally spoil my gd mood todae! shiity!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
8:16 AM
Woah! this few days kinda sian, basically is a routine la --> tv vcd online eat slp . yahs~ watch the maid de vcd on fri alone...diaoz~ abit scared la, too bad no one beside mi for mi to grab..den weekends getting hooked on the show 'zhen qing' liao..nice one le. n finalie on sat nite, went crystal jade for dinner! woot! nice meal but queue kinda long for it, but den worth it la..cus nt i paying ma..hahaha! jus nw aftnn was looking thru the list of gems modules, this time i can only choose from business or humanities category onli...sigh` nt much nice ones available..mushrms..u all tink le must tell mi wad u all taking kie..i dun wana be alone....
okies...will nxt week be a better one? im bored bored bored. those mugging for As..jia you okie! i will be behind u de :)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
