my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Thursday, June 29, 2006
10:46 PM
Jus finished my bath, todae spent my lst dae in sch. wah, i must sae. nearli concuss! attention span very short, rajeev lesson i nearli drifted into dreamland. hMm, todae ts case presentation, i kinda admire him le cus he did on orthok lens..i mean its nv taught to us b4, n yet he presented until nt bad lor *clapsz* aft class, ms yeo treated us lunch at staff centre, but so mani pple le, her pocket must been having a big hole nw, i cant ate buffet, sandwich le, also cant, bu shi you beef bu ran jiu shi egg..in e end have the SP NOODLE, nt bad la, but jus tt i reali no appetite,but den ice cream of cus i hav e appetite, deliciocus sia! den, went to c c fyp, reali forget everyting le, company dayne n ling thru metropsis, even my refraction also gone case le, as wad kw said: mc liao return everyback alr, on hearing this, gif up doing le let him do lor..the yr1 guy jerome very funny lor, machiam like ah boi! haah. ard 5+ left sch, reali is v v v v restless, lucky managed to grab a seat.went to GP let the doc examine my wound, cus i v v v scared also, got some ointment n tablets..two wks ltr gona went back gleneagles for FU also..sigh. all e wae reach home concuss until 9+ wake up for dinner, reali damn tired. wonder how mani joules of energy i required to gain back the strength i had b4.. =/ walking each step as if u are going to KO soon.the feeling is terrible. more screenings to come, todae also choose location for hopsital attachment, hopefully can get into ttsh..the hospi attach. place i want to go since last yr, if not ani of my 3choices also can, jus dun gif mi NUH or CGH!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
9:32 PM
Going to sleep aft this entry. Tml most prob returning back to sch, if i managed not to oversleep. haah..but i dunoe wad im gona eat in sch. Felt that im missing out alot of things le, n of cus pple~ haha! have been rotting on bed/ inft of tv all this well~ so todae went out to old woodlands dere have lunch, testing testing the outside environment. so so la, tend to walk v slowly, sad case. wad i ate? nth but fish meat noodle, lucky dad order cheng teng for mi, but mine onli gt logan n the white oval shaped thingy.. -.- wad is this? ytd our dear sokie very nice, deliver notes to my hse nearby de bus stop, save mi frm walking to Cauewae pt, xie le..den she told mi she 'died' in dawn hands again...tt teacher, hai~ still gt chances to be under her when im on full shift. haah! den ytd kelvin told mi he's interested in free specs n wan to do our fyp, pray hard ah! he n his sister dun complain bt my 'dis-service' to dem if not their dad will come aft mi...hopefully dey can tahan thru the Metropsis. wonder where to find thirty plus 8-14 kids~perhaps we can change our target to lower sec students instead of upper pri ones..dunoe le, since there are a few sec schs reali v near tO SP. yea..also settle the lens order thingy liao, lucky not my fault, cus i dere keep tinking did i write the order wrongly? even if i wrote wrongly, dawn tt superwoman also wont miss it de lor, n its settled finalli~ die ah, i haven copied the notes for CSW sia, tml nid to return le!! talking bt which, i still owe lib 2bks. damn lazi to bring le..haah
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, June 26, 2006
4:32 AM
Its 5am+ on a mon morning, those having 8am class will soon be awake. it's also a new term for those in pri/sec/jc etc. i can say i can sae my eyes are wide open, but brain almost dead. was reading thru bernard's notes for biz mx, alot of qns marks in mine mind cus i missed 3/4 of the part of product marketing tt time, n the remaining 1/4 which is the placing part will be missed in later lessons. how great. -.- also try to search for articles, emailed rajeev le, hopefully he will blessed mi w some enlightenment..and the rct report nt reali sure wad to do w the studies part too..projs presentations and wordy reports will soon make up the remaining of my life for this current sem.. when my leave ends, there wld be at least one presentation per wk till e end.. x_X and full clinic shiftss. earlier in e nite was clearing some docs in my drive, came across many pics taken w frenz.. batam trip, gala dinner, a wonderful and surprisin 18th bdae.. tinking back of e last two events brought tears n smiles to mi, each time staying up late seeing u in msn, reali made mi wana dble click on ur nick, but lucky i nv did tt for i would be reminded of e pre and post exam times. ur nick is still e same la, frm last oct till nw..but one thing tt's changed. my sis starting work today, no one to company mi..but den nvm~ she bought for mi a PierreCardin leather wallet as my bdae present..nice design n one which i've been looking forward to oweing it. With a new wallet, im gona get a new watch soon..wondering to get a Swatch skin design or a Guess design? haha, fat hope la, perhaps i shld be contented with the 'guess watch' tt i bought in batam, but the timing keeps going wrong la, lucky it haven cause mi to be late for clinic cus i only wore tt watch on clinic daes.. im off to weaver dreams le! tata!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
10:17 PM
My bio clock is going haywire..slping @ 3am each nite and waking up at 1pm..jus cant slp la, so online do lek's report. . Wonder wad i do makes sense? I dunoe when i can return back to sch le, still dun hav the strenght to walk properly, and i cant bend n stuff..but 4/7 i feel like going back for my counter n dispensing duty..shouldnt be too strenous ritez? but welL~ my MC ends on 10/7..going back will be stressful n time w all the presentations n repay debts' time. final yr is indeed bz la, thinking back of last yr well~clinic and all~ it's all in e past la..i will keep it as part of my memory..i jus wan to grad within the time frame.. looking at the pics taken at the yr1 n 2 ptn..saw, nvm =x my bro today duno wad happen le, eat so much. 4plus eat a pack of yi mee..dinner at 8plus, den nw eating 3chicken wings w fries..super duper tempt mi. but nvm, 2wks passing soon, im going to bargain to eat ice cream.. and maybe go causewae pt for a walk? i long long time no step out of hse le except going hospi! yw offer to bring mi out tml go dou fen in his car, but i doubt so la..haah! once again, i miss yummi food!!!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
5:55 PM
Sigh, i asked my cousin for help to ask if her frens interested in our fyp proj, n the respoonse i get back is 2..okies~ at least better than nth.. and hope they wont get rejected. pls pls. think must tink of other alternatives alr.. i missed going to movies, nw holis, some gd movies in show. hai~ i wan to watch silent hill! comments i heard from pple not bad le.. past two daes, i had a change of the type of fish im eating. instead of ang gou li~ my mum bought cod fish, damn exp la, l piece near to ten dollars..but its simply very delicious..i can finish one whole piece de, but nice mi decided to half three quarts of it n left one small quarts for my sis la..haha! mian de later she drool her salivia all over my precious fish meat.. ytd someone ask mi to help mi find some norms for NPC, AC/A Ratio,NRA, PRA, TBUT etc, so i jus send the whole bv table tt we took frm senior to him..den he told mi he forget all the abbreviations alr..den i asked him some qns regarding my ppt, his ans require alot of processing sia..haha! but i also dun dare to ask some silly qns if not he sure luff at mi de, or pour cold water..haa, i noe i nt li hai ma, tts y must ask ard ma.. >.< tt period of time nv see him online i thot he angry lor but its nt, its due to his internet get cut off..n the reason he thot why his connection is off is hmm~ funny i wld sae.. okies..time to watch tv, back aching..~ huiyun~ wan to volunteer a massage?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, June 16, 2006
10:45 PM
Today went dwn to change the dressing, the doct bluff mi say not pain, in e end its quite painful lor..more medications..5tablets at one go in e morning, must well kill mi la..also collected my histology report..hmM~ lucky its not that new to mi if not i tink i can jue shi for a wk. one week alr~ wonder how mani more wks to go b4 i can go back sch. one wk of no 'normal' food that's still a long way to go for that. hai, childhood myopia, journal, randomised clinical trials, i v scared to open my mailbox to c my teamates completed work..i jus feel so guilt n useless...perhaps in e lst place shld jus feigned everything..yi hou de shi yi hou cai da suan la..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
12:11 PM
Long time no blog le..i survived that few daes in G.H. the salty food, the sweet to the core horlicks, the granny beside mi which xh n mushrms have a taste of it, the lonliness and the not so nice to slp on bed. the nurses (esp staff nurses) and environment is v nice, of cus u paid for the service..the total bill is quite aHem la. the stupid GA+doc cost mi over 400bucks plus 3blue blacks on my rite hand, gek kiang la, poke my rite hand, in e end u cause mi more blue blacks n pain la!lucky my doc is nice..n the nurses, i noe its for my own gd la, u dont wan to help mi ard cus u dun wan mi to b dependent on others..and the auntie who noes tt i dont wan the sweet to the core horlick, instead she change to one spoon instead of two.. todae at least i feel bit better, gt abit of strength if nt i wont be sitting infrt of comp le. past few daes, each step i took will make me hunt for breath la. hope i will recover my energy n the pain to go awae soon..i wan to go back for clinic n sch n do fyp n projs!! fyp mates~ noe u all are facing setbacks, haiz~ im guilty sia, perhaps we shld realli split up the subjects, dun use one subject for the 3proj, dey will sure KO one. oh ya..i miss last sat de bukit ho swee screening, lucky gt pple like ts edwin n cas to company me to do makeup..phew~ mushrms!! thanks for the DIY frame,bracelet and the lil piglet card..so cutess!! u guys always bound to get stuff for mi to cheer mi up and kill my boredom de.huggiess~ n sh i will rmb tt u ate awae my choco roll for teabreak..hee..and xh~ thanks for the soup n sour plum n the chats when im lonely in the ward..haah! i still waiting for my birdnest or hashima, i dun wan ducknest ah..n dun tempt mi w yummy food la..althou i noe my ngoe her is v delicious..tonite i having steam ang gou li le!! okies..time to get rest le..my mum nagging at mi le..haha! cyar! pple~ pray tt i recover soon le! tc. ah ling~ hows u n guoyi ah~ that woof~ woof~ ai wen dun wan le ah! haha.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, June 09, 2006
11:11 PM
Waiting to finish uploadings songs to my Ipod.shall let it company during my stay in G.H. Aww~ hope i will recover fast to continue w my projs n fyp n CLINIC! i cant afford to miss clinic! really damn guilty leting my teammates do the grp work..esp mushrms~ realli thanks for your help n love! muacks! thanks for ur msgs =) n xianghui~ dunoe wad to sae to u also la.ahaa!
On a lighter note, todae lst dae dispensing cum counter duty. initally kinda scared la, cus dunoe how qh will 'torture' mi..but alrite la..jus ask mi do filing n retrieve files n calling..i love counter job! can talk to pple, joke w the counter staff, ans phone call whereby we wasted our salivia n in e end the people dun wan to book appt..haha! aftnn swap to dispensing..lst time dne nid to dispense spec..gan jong liao cus dunoe wad to do, lucky gt dayne to help mi! den adjust bit of nosepad nia..n ms lek sae gd fitting..aww~ i dun deserve that mark la..haha! ILT v efficient, our ten over jobs sent ytd todae arrived le, so verified them..den went to stone in the frame rm, nearli KO but struggle to keep my eyes open cus not a nice sight to doze off in the rm n i wld sure get demerit pts..sold a pair of specs todae..haha..monica px..under her sure can get to sell specs de..lols. den iris was talking bt her experience w monica..n see our watermelon so stressed..relax okiess~ towards end of dispensing, qh came in n try on the frames..hmm~ den entertain her lor..nice of her le,help us recruit subjects for fyp when she saw paeds GE! casper must hao hao xie xie her le! do stock check, i dunoe wad went into my mind, everything was alrite, jus tt addition was wrong.. let qh niao abit..haha! that marks e end of the dae! so sad, todae wld be the last time doing counter duty for this sem...hai! n i miss wccc,i miss danny!! mMm..danny realli is v nice la, if he's abit younger..hoooo~~~~ i miss sch.
world cup fever is here! i can be in e rm doing my stuff but also can noe when there's a goal scored cus i can hear pple cheering across my blk! haha.
nxt few daes at G.H..wonder wld i be bored to death or pain to death! haha!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
12:09 PM
Ytd is the 6/6/06 devilish date..nv realised that until danny told mi when i go n get signatures from him. rattled some things to him out of no where, lucky he nv chase mi out of his rm n continue to listen to mi..clinic the 3ofus lst slot no px, so sokie fitted color lens on iris, was dere watching lor..when their 2nd px come, i nth to do liao, so go n washed the colored lens while waiting for xinyi to arrive so can save washing of lens time. lucky dawn asked her to insert lens herself..hoho~ in e end she chose freshkon color fusion Misty grey..the color suits her,but den when i checked the fitting under slit lamp in high Mag, the print look kinda errr..ya..2nd time under dawn le, i noe wad she looked out for so ytd my hist taking realli is filled out the whole space w my lil words, she wan to pin pt aniting i also wont let her gt the chance to! my impression of her is realli dot dot dot, dun wan comment le esp aft last time wad she said to mi..xy ah~ u must cut dwn ur wearing time le, later ur papillae n follicles upgrade den nt v gd le, glad that u make new specs alr~ den can alt. bw .. =) aft our clinic, we went to eat minced pork noodle! the two gers v v joker la! sokie: auntie, ba choy mee w/o ba choy, i onli wan mushrms n meatball~ iris better still, normal order but in e end pass all the fillings to mi..means tt my minced pork noodle gt extra pork n ingredients xD act. sokie v entertaining le, cus each time go hm tgt w her, she sure bound to make mi luff by her past incidents de lor..haha..cab halfwae till b.gombak to iris aft lunch...thanks for e ride ah. finalli finished both my ge n cl de case ppt..cl case i realli took damn long to do it, each time i stare at e info, i wan to slp sia! ISO journal chris n childhood myopia to go. mushrms~ i will try to do my part the best la..sorry for ani inconvenience caused le.. love u alL~ esp yun, thanks for asking mi to stae at hm n not going for fyp..muacks~
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Monday, June 05, 2006
10:18 PM
Updatez time..but den ironically, lazi to type dwn things that happened. this few week de clinics all spent @ west coast, relaxing w danny ard..seriously i dun noe why le,so many weeks have passed le,i still v scared of clinic, my confidence is still at null. fitted RGP last fri, lucky nth goes wrong..hengz! sat is nearing..if i said i dun feel anything thats totally bull shit la, but in front of my mum i try to be normal least she worried too much again. my academics is bound to suffer.. that's e thing i hated most..trying to race agst time to complete ppt as much as i could b4 sat, GE dwn, CL n my ISO research info le, jus to dump dem tgt can le..still gt two more to go. n my clinic exchange forms still get n filled in.. last sat working was stoning like mad, business not tt gd..talked to james. he told mi tt causewae is a gd biz outlet compared to certain..haah! n he told mi bt his experiences in fitting lens..once he fitted SCL n tt guy fainted.. okies..tml clinic again, dunoe lst slot gt px or not, 2nd slot reserved by xinyi~ yea~ ur eyes wld be safe in my hands..hope tt lst slot no px den can do my own stuff..but dunoe la. my M1 plan going expired le, will be switchin to students plan, 13bucks for lst 12mths~ yay! back to cl ppt~~ yawn s
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
