my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
11:28 PM
Month of feb ending lor...so means one more mth for my probation! wonder i will pass my probation or nt? lolz. Mar also a new affreshed mth for mi. but i guess im feeling quite alright le. not dreamy alr...quite awake le. anw..for last wk, i tink i received many 'surprises' obviously its nt gd ones..reali feel that im on roller coaster ride n truely understand the 4words meng xing shi fen. haaH! last mon was the end of everyting n i made things clear to that person le, but somehow he still like abit dun understand lor. jessie...thanks for ur company n waking mi up with ur words oh. last mon..had mani sinful delights to make myself happy. i like the waffle. i like my choco float. tue was a happening dae. the trio -mi shirley franky- wrking tgt. i like this arrangement..cus reali nt stress one...den v fun! we can do wad crazy things we wan..tt dae duno y..shirley suggested go karoke..so onz la. nite time we went party world ktv @ wlands. phew~ its near my hse. i must sae, that nite i really enjoyed myself singing n shouting..except the song fei ni mou shu which bring tears to my eyes. the company is great even thou ... we sang quite alot of songs la..act its also a pleasure watching the mvs w/o singing.. kelvin joined us ard 12+ haha..i seriously cant control my laughter when he n franky sang a hokkien duet song. if im nt wrong..its the theme song for yi nang wang (4.30pm show on chnl8) super funny! we left at 1 since dey are closing le..went to 515 for chit chat session. another laughter session. since im the newbie in EC, so dey told mi bt mani funny incidents lor. althou its sounds bad but its reali v v gaoxiao! wonder how long wld i stae dere. well~ duno le. left dere ard 3+ even thou its 3blks away, still hitch a ride frm kelvin n immed aft bath..KO alr. and as for todae..since i only had 5hrs of slp last nite. im super duper stone n tired. lucky i nv commit ani mistakes. coffee also nt helpful to wake mi up. instead i feel more queasy aft drinking it. super slack as well~ cus nt much cust lo. really bored to tears.so ask franky practice his refraction so im his subject. my main aim is not so nice ask him to practice..but so i can slack in the refraction rm. =P the whoel of todae, there's not even a moment of busy. so i begin to observe things tt kelvin told mi last nite..quite true n funny. recently, hear abt some grumbles of wrk. but seriously im quite immuned to it le. perhaps i see tis as a repetition as wad had happen in e previous workplace. nt a v gd sign thou. bu zhi dao la.. i will try my best to practise optometry as really a profession. jia you to mi!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, February 20, 2008
11:19 PM
past few nites have been slping late even thou the nxt dae im working. so each time when aftnn dun hav customers..i feel like slping alr. its kinda rare that pass few daes left wrk early. i wish have more of these days la at least i wont reach hm so late. sun was a scary dae. whole of aftnn keep seeing kids, keep doing refraction on kids. all the same sign!!! astig no changes..but their short sightedness average increase by abt -075 to -1.00DS and i keep seeing neovas when i do SL on my CL px. so scary esp those kids..when i let dem trial frame their new power im so afraid dey wld see 2 of their mummy or daddy if not feel like floating.
anw that sun nite, stay up chat w my sis. told her bt tt matter la. well~ yes i noe i shld not be so naive la. gucci still is over converse!! i shall bear tis in mind! talk bt work n further studies...some how when talking bt work, my lacrimal glands is activated. sometimes im jus too tired of wrk. i dun really feel happy w my pay, nt becus its not enuff but i jus dun feel happy..
both mon n tue wrking was another slacking one. but mon morning i really had a frustrating time calling the CL companies whereas franky is calling the frame agents. we both were competing who wld finish clearing up the shit soon. haha~ kns~ call until my phone wana explode liao still no ans if nt engaged. madness! whereas for tue..slack until i literally wan to doze off. angie was psp-ing, so i teach my optician refraction lor since he gg for his test soon. maybe shld have made tings more complicated so tt he wont unstd. haiya..but im nt tt black hearted la. tt dae feeling super lousy again when i heard his conversation w kelvin. althou no head no tail v clueless but im able to guess dao sth ba well~
wed which is todae, OFF! morning went post office settle some stuff den went back yishun for lunch. went temple pray cus tis yr rabbit fan tai sui! was super sleepy so basically im zZz thru out the journey. evening time met up w jessie n huiyun! hai~ ling was sick so cant join us!! ger, nvm see ya nxt outing kies. im determine to do retail therapy todae..to make myself happy!! yep yep bought one pair of shoes n a top. on top of tt still gt huiyun ai xin oreo cheese cake *love u ger* but jus that when im enjoying myself i duno y he still gt to call. mama de.
nxt off dae is 4daes away! jia you!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, February 16, 2008
11:15 PM
tis week out of 7days, i've 3 off daes. not exactly a gd thing cus towards e end of the mth my offs are quite far away in between. lucky mth of feb is short. seriously after having my cny break, dun really have the mood to work on chu 4. n super duper sway i duno y, i miss the usual train.. n the nxt train is 7mins later. deep dwn in my heart im tinking 'die liao, sure the first one in my outlet to karna the $2 fine' n franky still called mi n keep asking mi where i m n offer to pay the fine for mi if im really late. initially he planned to meet mi take train at wlands tgt but hai sadly in e end no fate la cus i cant expect him to wait for mi n pay everybody's fines ma. so immed when i alight at amk, i ran all e wae to my shop n heng heng my punch card sae 10:29! thanks goodness. but den i noe im alr late cus the punch card machine timing is 2mins behind. met jessie on one of my off aft her work for a swim @ CSC. totally felt so much relax aft the swim. thanks for the company. well~ that nite had a super long chat w franky over certain matters. haha~ n well~ as the saying goes 'hao jing bu chang zai' beautiful moments dont last long. so true la. my brain is on the right track . im so stubborn n so undecisive. but anw, must reali thanks jessie! yes. thanks for the phone chatss each dae. no pt making myself being in a lousy mood over some insensitivity. right nw as im typing tis entry.. i came to light that gucci is definitely better than converse! yes u are right! i've spent the whole of todae tinking, i shldnt dwngrade myself rite ? Im an optom le..haha! okies la.. but just tt when i've alr started to fully convinced myself, my hp rang..shucks. gucci rawks over converse!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, February 09, 2008
11:57 PM
chu san ending liao. tml returning back wrk. hope the dae will past fast. its funny. the nxt dae where many of us wld be starting wrk, im off. but nvm~ nite time meeting jessie for a swim! swim my fats away!!! todae went visiting again. first stop was jessie hse! erm~ i tink im the latest! haha..iris was v happy cus she's e earliest. went weikiat hse aft that. hmm~ i love the keropok at his hse le. den somehow jodi v funny. we were talking bt yx..she seems to be guessing the wrong gers frm 01. chao funny! somehow im quite surprised to who gigoLOH is attached to la..cus i thot...hmm~~ cab to t.jurong dere for food b4 gg up to ivan hse. the noodle aunty chao attitude la! ma ma de~ n the food not v nice. literally force the noodles dwn my throat. ivan hse also v cosy. nv knew that two guys rm can be so neat. im truely guilty. open gambling den at his rm..nxt time peeps~ if u wan to play cards..perhaps u guys can ask xianghui along cus practically he doesnt knew much bt e rules..n at ivan hse i managed to recoup my ytd losses. last stop was my ah yi hse..which totally kills my mood for the whole dae. dey sae they starting steamboat at 6+ one.. but at 6 i receive my sis sms asking mi where im n left mi only. i thot left mi haven reach. in e end le..when i reach my ah yi hse. i realised tt dey al lfinish the meal alr..left mi nt yet eaten! im like super fed up lor! call mi unreasonable or wad. but im realli speechless at tt moment. but nvm~ some1 call mi when i was bt to call him n i started my rrants. hai worried bt my hp bill for e mth of jan. jus hope that it wont shoot up to tt much. time for slp soon. i hope i wont get fine $2 tml.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Friday, February 08, 2008
11:33 PM
the 3.5daes break from wrk going to end soon le. tml is chu san le..but on chu si going to kai gong le! so on eve..went to wrk super feeling no mood. keep telling myself time will past fast since annie sae close shop at 2. but instead 4+ den i left amk. reach hm very fast KO on my bed alr. feeling v tired lor...ard 8+ den start e reunion dinner. hmm~ really is reunion dinner cus its a whole family. i really feel v v v happy tt he joined us. cus its been since many many yrs tt my reunion dinner is not complete. althou no steeamboat, but have two of xianghui's species n jessie's species ( braised n roasted duck meat n roasted pork meat) lying on table. super sinful. chu yi..lazed in bed until 12noon! shiok! went to my grandma hse. as usual..almost all the mother side relatives dere..so bascially is collect my angbaos n eating! chu er! jodi iris n jessie come my hse !! so happy! help mi clear some of the tibits! hee.. girls, my hse onli looks neat during cny la. haha! aft that went qing lan's hse! wah sey todae den i nw she alr ROM le..so her laogong gif us angbaos! thanks for the lunch oh! aft ql's hse is iris hse! hahaha.. nt tt messy la..still presentable. ur rm looks fairytale to mie lo.. nite time the 3of us catch ah long pte ltd at jec !! lucky we book the ticks earli. its realli a hilarious movie! recommended to watch! really luff my heart out. a gd form of de-stress! tml chu san le! some of us kai gong alr. so tml gg jessie hse den wk hse den ivan hse ba? haha! last dae to enjoy le cus sun starting wrk. yehs! thanks girls for the great company todae. if not i tink i wld be wasting my time at home! love ya!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
11:13 PM
Long long time no update le. ! so i guess long entry ahead! firstly~ belated bdae to my mushrm mummie!! sorry for tis late greeting. super sorry** i wish u stay happy n pretty always okies! so long nv update..some things tt happened during wrk. gt one particular dae boss asked mi go dwn bedok wrk...so when i jus reach bedok he call mi sae ask mi return back to amk wrk. im like -.- wake up so earli jus to go bedok den ask mi go back amk?!?! but luckily he sent mi back so nt tt jialat.. but air con was spoilt n im stuck w no air con for 3 consecutive daes! whereas others onli one or two due to their offs lo. >.< so swayz can. but heng la tt dae i wear skirt instead of jeans..so nt tt bad..n due to the reason tt i wore skirt..franky gif mi a name 'xiao gong zhu' lil princess! so 3daes w/o aircon..4th dae when aircon is repaired..i duno how come im dwn w flu bug. worse still its on a bz sat. so annie let mi off earlier. but i do a bit of cleaning up la..until dey nearli wan to chase mi awae liao. den hor..things doesnt turn better. i begin to dwn w sorethroat, which worsen each dae la. last thr franky had his dispening test. nice mi company him back sp lor. wana had jap for lunch de but nt open..so had yong tau foo. cant eat fc1 de chicken chop due to my throat. pei him until his test time den i went to ah yi hse to paint my nails..but bit disappointed ba. went back dover meet franky. i nearli wan to cross over to take train back to je le cus he sae aft his test finished at 4 he wld call mi..i wait until 4.40 lor. we went town n had dinner at sakae. went AX @ taka to buy his shirt. uncle sherman was dere so gt 40% dis. we went chinatwn ! cus i sae i dun have cny mood so go dere to gan rang some mood. haha! it's kinda crowded. walk walk den its a long journey hm.. the nxt dae fri..aft wrk we all stae back to do SPRING CLEANING! kns! by tt time im sneezing like no body biz. so basically was jus wipping here n dere. sian. also had meeting. the details also v sian. hai aft spring cleaning..kelvin sent mi n franky hm. annie sent angie hm den shirley gt her chauffeur.. the 3ofus had a late supper at 515. aft the meal i told kelvin i can walked back myself since i only stayed 3blks away..but he insisted on driving mi back n when he reach my blk.. he sae 'huh so near onli ah' duhz. sat i went off 2hrs earlier..cus im a sickling.. shirley better still went off at 12+ haha! andrew cover mi n henry sent mi hm. ytd which was mon..most of us in holis mood alr. esp towards nite time dun reali have the mood to wrk. lucky time flies cus quite bz n teach CL. closing tt time henry came n passed us shou gong hong bao!! wee~ first angbao i received le. he also gif us a bag of cny goodies lo, distributed for us frm suppliers de. v heavy lo. went to have chong pang nasi lemak w franky n shirley. nth really special bt it le. franky wan to sent mi n shirley hm by cab. ki siao. gg to eat grass for the mth of feb still dun wan to save up. in e end bicker until i sae i wan to take bus! so he company mi take 858. since alr company mi until wlands..must well help mi carry tt heavy bag of goodies home la..ahah~ we hanged out ard at the playgrd until 2+ b4 i went up. n tada todae since its my off dae. slp until 1+ pack my wardrobe. out the old clothes go la.. den went to cut my hair b4 meeting szehui at tmall. bought one pair of shoes frm dmk. cheap cheap 19.90 nia. tis yr de cny i dun really feel the mood le. duno y..alas but nvm its a 3.5 daes break frm wrk! i wan to be happy!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
