my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
11:37 PM
Seems like things are cropped up in fyp, never even notice until huiyun called mi last nite. im so tired and drained. ytd went to work aft clinic, i told myself i cant step in for 5min den left le..but when i step in, i feel so tension la..lucky gt james n zurul to entertain mi with their lame jokes.. the weather is forever unpredictable dere. we've sunny dae, cloudy dae, thunderstorm, hammer, judge and lil fei biaoz flying ard.. woo~ must always get ur umbrella ready. 5wks of clinic over le! target wise, still alrite ba. hopefully..shall not sae everyting too earli mian de i keep hearing aeroplane engines..hai~ i guess im getting more n more used to the slacking style of part time clinicians alr, when come to under those SP lect, i tend to left out my NPC n CT. anw, i realise tt fei is a v nice clinician, wah! i did sth quite wrong also nv gif mi scold mi, if under mo~ i sure RIP le. i still haven done aniting for my CL case ppt which is this fri. i dun even quite get wad she wants. wad if i overlap with those pple presenting in frt of mi? n because of tis case ppt, i finally go n flip my efron book la, sianz. so pple~ dun shoot mi w chim qns.. save mi frm the mental torture!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
2:20 AM
It's been near to a year. still rem a year ago, 19 oct, u celebrated an early bdae w mi. tis yr, it was yet another dinner w u again.. each time we makan tgt, u always like to feed mi with more food, that nite was no different. and my reply is always e same.. 'im on diet or i dun wan to become fat' but u wld still stuff food to me. went for a walk after that. im having a mixture of confused feelings, yet im still smiling, chit chatting like normal on the front. i duno how to react when i heard wad u said. i duno if i shld be glad tt nite, it sort of like relived back those times..even thou gy said its a nitemare. welL~ i guess im stupid enuff to sae its a combi of both ba..so much things have happen jus in a dae's time..till e extent tt i reali feel like vanishing into e air..but i must realli thanks gy, it seems tt u are another soul who always bound to see the dwn side of mi..tt sms bt the dealings w animal, i find it rather interesting luh, kies, but i noe ur intentions.. i will be strong..at least i'll try~
Wee hrs of deepavalI! one yr older again..saddening fact. thx those sweet earthlings who still rem my bdae! =) n those who gif mi presents..llike them all! clinic on thr, i thot my first two px default, but i still managed to have two patients in e morning. forget to bring e keeler ophthal, but lucky tt uncle pupil is too constricted w cataract n poor attention span, even my clinician scope nth out of it so phew~ 2nd px is wanfen de ah yi!! she reach at ten n onli had her consultation at 12..gosh~ waited for so long. lucky still have a decent lunch at e pantry w the clinicians n sh n cas.CL fitting for the nxt two slots..did quite slow for e fitting..but ling yeou also nv sae aniting, so i jus take my own sweet time la. i guess there's still a big rm for improvement in rgps.. susposedly to treat cz for dinner, n lucky its e other wae rd..if not i can prepare to find a big hole in my pocket le.. dinner at ding tai feng..i love the xiao long baos as usual. BnL talk on fri, so long n freezy cold..i tink every fri must bring jacket along liao, if nt reali can freeze in tt classrm..had two cakes on my bdae, super sinful! grhh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
7:45 PM
guess i nid to bring the newly bought heels for some air pump at the frt, todae i wear it for the whole dae, blisters at e back, frt tight..was practically half limp half walk hm..anw~ tis few daes duno wad happen, kinda turn of by food, feel like vomiting aft a few bites..but managed to shed one kilo off thou it might nt look ani different..also not in a v gd mood.. tis morning had a shock la, 830 iris msged mi ask mi where im, cus she sae she reached wcc le..im like 'dun tell mi todae is sat' if not im prepare to get my demerit pts..but it turns out todae is a thr...yuan beng can do one rgp fit todae ,but sway sway gt walk in...n lucky nv flunk..if under lek i sure byebye liao..bit regretted tt i forgo the ride home, cus its almost the same time to reach hm la & my legs wont have to suffer... somehow my hp bit sort liao, dun get to receive pple msgs..if tts a few mths back, it wld be a v blessed ting la..but my dear k750, dont be so sort liao canz..ha~ tml lessons at 3, can meet my mum for lunch b4 heading to sch for B & L talk? dun even feel like gg la..till den ciaoz~
* gy!! i've updated le!! * haha!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Sunday, October 08, 2006
10:08 PM
2wks have passed le, counting dwn to my elearning break sia..haha! movie session w my mushies is an enjoyable and interesting one. the movie is uber funny! i guess those beside mi feel as if they are on train la..paisehz..cant control..its been a long time since i had a gd luff, n it jus balance up w the cries on thr..fri was oculus lab visit cum celebrating iris bdae and mid autumn at xiao gui lin..kinda relieve those childhood daes, lanterns candles sparkles~~ i noe its bad of us to add on to e haze.. sat 2 px fly my aeroplane..n only one paeds px..n nice of him to cheat my feelings during subj refraction. went JP aft clinic, yesh! bought a pair of heels...went walk walk n nite time was e musical..quite an average one ba..i love my cookie monster, he's so cute!! =) n as for todae, wake up super earli for screening at henderson cc, as usual, our dr tang appears at onli e rite time. had photo shoot w the mushies..hahaa!! can blow up alr.. =X went vivo w ah ling cus someone sae dere quite nice to walk, yeps, perhaps its reali nice to walk cus the mall v big w mani shops unopened.. or perhaps its e view of sentosa romantic? peep into IEC, but also nt like v big lo..saw kenny, but nt ts n gk cus they were also dere~~ i hate e haze.....
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
