my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Monday, July 31, 2006
9:37 PM
Sometimes its a blessing to appear as offline!
n my hp, sooner or later, im gona switch it off ! Silent mode wont do any help cus i will still take a peep at it! its damn irritatiing althou i love my ringtone !
BMOP, althou there's improvement frm e previous one, but den i jus feel weird.
I dun care if u are reading this, but im not as free as u tink ok! pls pls stop !!!
Alas, the marathon of presentations will end tml. but more tests to come and sem1 wld be over.
As u can see, im in a lousy mood nw!
BUZZ OFF!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, July 30, 2006
10:02 PM
todae lst dae return back for work aft 2 mths, welL~ almost forget everything. susposed to write CR39 MC i almost go n write 1.56 Crizal Alizae, sch habit. todae lst time work w christine, cus mi n her always like playing hide and seek, i work she's off n vice versa. she's very nice, will help mi at the appropriate time :) hehe..yuan beng todae shop gt 6pple de, den chris was asked to go dwn to NP cus i tink dere nt enuff pple. at leeast lesser pple, i get to serve customers..if nt i stone dere often. sold a swissflex todae -achievement-, nv know that it gt quite alot of componets here n dere to take note -dead- cus i nv ask my customer bt the temple hood thingy...james v gaoxiaoz..each time he see mi, he will ask : bi ye le yao zhuo na li? my reply normally is ' i dunoe' but todae i decided to gif him a new reply 'perhaps hospital' haha. den he told mi some outlets tt are not advisable to work at de.. like xxxxx n xxx lols. den he ask mi quite a stupid qns le, if my opt is a success? of cus it is ma if not he wont see mi here..hee..den keep saying out of danger jiu hao..lols! n keep asking mi to eat in case i faint.. O.o i realised nw tt my outlet dun hav e promotion package, each time when i wan to tell the total price to my customer, i wld hesitate bit la, dunoe y. i jus dun like customers who ask mi why a piece of 1.56 CA wld cost tt much, if u dun wan , jus leave la. if u wish to enjoy discount, i dont mind entertain u. sometimes its blessed to be in SPOC, cus customer wont be unreasonable and calculative. anw~ todae dinner is wonderful n yummy. june cooked for mi. sesame wine chicken +egg+ vege + rice = delicious! =D as for ytd..althou reach sch earli for fyp, but nvm~ too bad mathew nv come along..miss him sia! hehe...glad that vivian finish her metropsis liao~ phew~ n i did an update of the subjects, for children de : 13Emmetropes, 17myopes / Poly: 16emmetropes, 30myopes. looks like children de emmetropes can fight w poly de..hee. went to gek poh aft fyp to meet my mum n ah yi, bought quite alot of things =D dinner was at soup restaurant..double =D tts quite alot alr, bit tired of all the bmop editing le..cus evreything seem ??? to me. luck tml for qna
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, July 28, 2006
9:35 PM
Im hungry. msg my bro to buy dinner back for mi, wonder if it's too late cus he sae he walking back alr. mixed feelings for todae's clinic. well~ im slow, i will show u tt im even slower on tue! i pity my 2nd px, her eyes suffered under touch ur leg, image a person keep pulling ur lids apart forcing ur eyes to open with much strenghth, it must be painful to get the lens forcefully in. went to buy a cup of mini melts, went in to tianpo to chit chat w my mother's fren since no biz. my aim is nt to reach hm to face e walls alone when im alr depressed. anw, aft my bath, began my tv marathon, jus no mood to study for my gems n prepare for presentations la, n tml reach sch for fyp at 7.45. . im still wondering wad i told iris last nite is it truth or im jus kidding..hai! tinking of buying a new foour leaf clover tml nite.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
7:29 PM
Today reach home pretty earli again..yea! Ytd dispensing test, althou i heng heng tio a full metal frame, but i tink my axis ran off..haha! nvm~ i dun have much hope in dispensing one. this morning, sit thru 4hrs of presentations...wah! tired! dunoe why le, todae chris like v agitated lor, the wae he speaks... O.o wonder wad happen to him. anw~ sch ends earlie. went to meet jeffrey n had lunch. reach hm, fig out my eyeball~ but i cant put all the pieces tgt, so my eye ball nw still half complete. so mani small pcs here n dere...haha! den headed off to dreamland...it jus v sunny when im on e wae hm~ but shortly after i drifted to sleep, its pouring like mad lor, the weather nwadays is jus so unpredictable. i slpt for 4hrs, but den its okie, cus tonite i tink im able to slp again..haha! lucky tml no nid go back for fyp, so sch starts at 1.30 for mi for clinic! wonder whose my CL fit px. outsider or junior? hai, opening those presentations..files quite big sia..bmop de, qns marks swimming in my head..lols...anw~ peg, jia you hor!! the yr3s alr landed ourselves in clinic, u also can do it de! =D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006
8:18 AM
Tml dispensing test again..siianz! todae v guilty...fitted rgp on a yr1..tear until v jia lat yet i could do nth except supplying tissue..conditioning solution also nv help much...lens dislocate once, lucky it dislocate until inferior n not Nasal or temporal. n todae found out one thing, yuan lai my lst px which is our junior, her sis was frm shangling's batch lor..n it turned out to be bei lei~ well~ two pretty girls i must sae..ai ping is v deMurE lor..my GE, wah lau, tt touch ur leg v gek gao le..buay tahan..n lek was in tang's rm for so long, waited n waited for her so do metropsis in e meanwhile..when i went for assessment, my brain concuss liao..hai~ nth to deduct also ask mi stupid qns..sianz! anw~ my rgp grades v bad la, double sian.but on e gd side, i dUn nid to have fullshift at west coast le on 11/8..cus ah wee nid GE, yeps, im more happy to gif u back..hehe..xie xie le. and childhood myopia NO TEST and NO QnA session~ woots!!! one test less to study n one presentation less to crack my brain on wad pple would ask..yippie
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, July 23, 2006
7:48 PM
Jus finished my bath not long ago, been out for whole dae for this 3daes, freaky tired but fun la. morning went back for fyp, but ms yeo was late n left w/o any key, we rotted outside OC.. 5kids todae n it was a total din. the lil boy was jus so noisy n inquisitive..n my hp was in e hands of dunoe how mani gers..dots. lucky it nv commit sucicide or wad so ever..ate the cold nasi tt yeo bought, den rush dwn to city hall to meet huiyu,huiting n ernest. he was e latest! with lesser hair n thinner, he's still nice looking la =D haha...had lunch at carl's junior, it reminded mi of e 'traumatic' experience w star hes n elsie tt time. den tt ernest was saying tt gt alot nh pple in his company..like yihong wenqin..when i hear this name wq, nearli choke on my burger..hao jiang bu jiang why mention his name..n the world is jus so small la.. aft eating, went walk rd marina sq, hmm~ we bought nth la..haha! went suntec to have our B & J ice cream..yummy delicious! haha..i caused hy to walk a big rd but still nv reached dere...she gona kill mi..hee. childhood myopia...!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
10:38 PM
My beautiful Sunday for tml is half 'wrecked'..aww~ as todae i was happily shopping in johore n about to try on my shoes, i hear my laogong zhiyang singing (hp ringing) so i pick up w/o looking at e no..in e end, to my misery, its ms yeo! >.<> lunch @ secret recipe. had lagsana, my sis n jie fu n mi each ordered a slice of cakes, cheap n yummy! its e same amt as in local, but the $ is changed to RM. act. todae i also nv bought much la, jus some cards, storybk, shoes, dress...haha! is my sis who reali mad la. dinner was at pizza hut, the cheesy bites! hmm~ i still kinda full, so when i haven even finish my lst slice of pizza, my jie fu alr finished 3 slices..faints faints. ytd was also a nice dae! morning went for fyp, den be subject for a/c, den lunch w koh n casp n kw join us aft tt. koh was rather surprised by wad i told her..den clinic time. my lst dear px present w diplopia..becus of the prism n we duN really unstd wad he was toking bt, alot of time was wasted on refraction!!! qi si wo le. worse thing is, my 2nd px arrive at 3 n she waited v long..super paiseh. lucky she's a nice ger, her style bit lijun..hee! nice to chat.. =) waited for ms lek to assess mi, she onli assess my diplopia uncle, the other one she said she duno wad grade to gif mi cus its an ez case..wad is tt man. nite time was spent w mushrms at V8! yeah! tml will be a awwful dae in the morning.!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, July 20, 2006
7:46 PM
Todae is by far, the earliest i reach hm since my MC ended, the feeling is wonderful! met mum for lunch, ate like a glutton - yioshi student meal, 2pcs of mac wings and fries. looks like im staying awae frm my vegetarian diet! reach hm~ slp for 5 hrs until 7+ shiok! bt i guess tonite i no nid to slp le n the bad thing is tml gotta reach sch at 8 for fyp! -.- den aftnn still gt clinic. aww~ two OGE hopefully is not DR or HTN or HBP! if not i will faint on spot two presentations dwn todae, sense of achivement! for chris ppt, u can feel qns shooting frm everywhere...lucky mushrms were not shot dwn! yeah! good job guys! followed by tt is rajeev journal, must thanks dayne n c kway cus dey doing MF n 'shelter' us frm the qns cus we doing toric MF aft dem. tink nxt wk chris gifing back our 2nd test, n hopefully sh will get the eyeball model cus i will koop the eye segments frm her.. xD nxt wk my schedule looks quite empty except for fyp n dispensing test, alas~ relaxing time. this two wks i kinda stressed n tired alr. shopping n food spree tml w my dearies!! hooray!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
3:43 PM
Half of the week gone! left two presentations to clear tml den relaxing time alr. but week16 is another tough week to go. Ytd clinic, both slots CL fits, n the best thing is i nv trim my finger nails, thus i dare to touch my px eyes. v paiseh to l.x. if i hurt her. so immed. aft she left, quickly get clipper frm audrey den trim it..phew~ lucky rajeev nv notice it. we did e trial bw one dae acv moist n one dae acu..hmm~ i still wan my Dailies de! rajeev ytd v bad, keep asking mi get out of e rm, first is he wan mi to asses a Cl fit again, he said he took out + rinse +insert back e lens again, but den cant be la, cus its totally diff lor, n in e end its cus he flip e lens over! heng i nv fall for his trick, den 2nd time becus he wan to do e masking of the acu moist lens. so while he i was out of e rm, i was talking to danny at e counter dere..he said i look diff, i was like huh? dots..must be cus i ytd wore skirt tts y diff, still sae i look more mature, i noe i getting old liao. but so sad la, he's nt west coast de clinician liao..we all will miss him, i susposed? den todae dispensing test..MmM~ i tink quite jia lat lor, anw~ nxt wk wld be more jia lat if i karna rimless! jus dun gif mi full plastic or rimless..QnA part i find it still ok la, but i dunoe tt lady finds my ans okie or nt.aft test went to find rajeev to assess mi, i v gek qiang lor..no markings on e lens i still can sae gt rotation..blurness. den ask mi y i fit SH lens when my patient dun intend to get SRP, cus he said its a exp lens n dun waste it unneccessary.. lucky i still can ans his qns..phew~ shall go watch 100% entertainment soon. presentations ma, leave it for tonite la.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, July 15, 2006
8:34 PM
Weekends' time. but nxt wk aint a nice week la, with CSW biz correspondence test on mon, lek's report due on tue, dispensing test on wed, rajeev n chris presentation on thr..lucky there's no talk on wed, perhaps can go off earli? hmM~ i still haven come out with the screening form for Geylang Serai de screening, dunoe this time rd nid to do ophtha or nt..
fri clinic was badly done..i tink my brain is jus made up of coconut water..keep forgetting things and so sotong blur..hai! saw danny in clinic, but so sad he's not on duty. chit chatting w beverly in the dispensing rm, commenting bt the various clinicians, how fake n true dey are..weLl~ agree to some of it la. last nite it was quite a surprise tt cz msn mi, hmm, guess im still the same, would talk to him until he offline no matter how tired i am..even aft the breakup.
todae went bacck to Gleneagles..FU visit n did a blood test..nearli fainted la n a big hole frm pocket! i can never imagine the bill..wah! i tell u, specialist really can make big bucks, well~ this will explain y im so determine to go ttsh to diao jing gui~ joking joking.. :P oh ya~ so happy, get ttsh as the place for hospi attachment,tgt w c kway zhen n ah wee! aft tt, went orchard shopping! initially quite sian la, cus bought nth. hee, finally when we step into far east, oh my god~ some things are jus irresistable la.!! bought a blouse n a mashimaro sock for my ipod dere. den we went tangs, wisma..bought some stuff frm dere too..wanted to buy the mini choco eclair frm subway de, but my sis jus pulled mi away. hai! too bad she forget to bring her TANGS voucher, if not can buy the perfume..very nice le, but i gt a feeling its similar to dawn de.. -.- reach CWP alr, wanted to buy dress pants frm G2000 de,but its so crowded w pple, so went home la.
Hai! reports n presentations...sobz
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, July 12, 2006
10:36 PM
Guys that ran POLY 50~ good job!! as wad ts sae 'we may not be the first, but we did our best' why am i here blogging instead of studying for chris test? cus nth simply get into my head. illumination..lamps,lightings..wad e shit is tt la. aiya, hopefully i can do the paper!!! prayz hard. todae dispensing, i dunoe how mani times i curse, but my framless still look like one..nv break..sin sin sin. but i will eat vegetarian to repent.. -.- act. its also gd to eat zai cus its cheap n can save money! save money for big treats when i recover n my hp bill hit $89.99..i also dunoe why so exp..hai. tml is a dead dae, test n presentation n lunch den some survival tips for dispensing test. stupid dispensing..as usual, hope wont be dumbfolded..n wads e time nw..11.30 alr, tonite i guess no nid to go dreamland le..sigh` [huiyun is forever so sweet w her msgs sia,haha~ love ya lots! n weikiat, takkaire of ur leg!!] mnisisg u.....
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, July 10, 2006
8:20 PM
im so freaky tired. if not for today de grp ISO presentation, i tink i wont even stae for anna lessons. anw~ must thanks mushrms la, cus dey willing to company mi stae..alot of things on my mind nw: CL journal, Chris PPT, childhood myopia ppt n report..n the upcoming tests..tired tired..thr test, the chapts are so boring..esp the luminace part, wad e heck la..if chris is realli to set a paper tt i cant do, im sure to find a gunny sack liao. i will alwasy rem this stupid qns he set in ocular anatomy 'compare and contrast tenon's capsule n sclera'? arr! n well~ that 10% dispensing test, i must well gif it up la. stupid rimlon rimless hinges or wadeva shit! two more presentations to go this wk with one test, tml presentation..i hope i wont be dumbfolded for ani n most impt, dun go like a train. clinic tml as welL~ lucky is FT duty, can clear my CL delivery n A/C quota..n hopefully gt time for mi to nap aft my lst px..yawns..
im in a grumpy mood 0-o
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
4:44 PM
Black Baby-G Sweet Poison Watch with a Digital Display and resin band. Establishing a new look for wristwear for women. Pink and purple displays offset solid-color bands and cases for a style that's cute, but with and an adult flavor. yea~ that's my new watch. ytd went on watch testing spree, im quite fussy over it until my mum wants to gif up. we went to every outlet in CWP selling watches..i fancied solvus titus watch, but the price is jus far too steep. the new series of adidas are nice, but den not really worth the price, so settle on Baby G de. dinner~ finally free from home cooked de! yesh! dine at soup restaurant..the samsui chicken with the ginger is simply too yummy! the san yu fish slices and vege and soup and desert too..wah! normally when my mum n mi order this set, we cant finish de, but ytd we did, or rather most of it was eaten by mi!! cant blame mi la. aft one mth w.o tasting the chicken meat..woo~ think this sat will know final verdict alr. nxt wk 3 presentations to go, more presentations to go the wk following nxt, more reports getting to be due..i tink i alot of things also undone --> chris ppt n rajeev journal, lek myopia ppt, biz mx report n ppt ( i destest this the most )! jia you!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, July 07, 2006
9:43 PM
Trilala~ clinic sessions end my day. phew~ my paeds px is so cute+nice+well-behaved+responsive n bit of talkative..but i like it. took abt an hr to finish her off.. must thanks c kway for her act cute tactics to entertain the kids, as i was 'entertaining' my lil px todae, her mum was gigggling away lor..sweating as well cus machiam like sauna..when her rx out, i noe later she sure wld go to frames rm for spectacles..n its really the case..haha. help her choose kingfisher specs with cartoon at the temple lor, come to choosing she also v kawaii.. todae also qh last dae, will miss her abit, althou she like to go knocking on our doors tt px is here..haha! guess she will miss the guys like gk xh kw cas more ba..haha. ytd stae back company ling for fyp, hoho~ matthew nt bad looking le, so sad he's wae too young alr..if not haha~ jokin..purely joking.tml going back for fyp, hopefully i wont screw things up, if not i tink yiling will strangle mi..haha! kies, i nid to go to iso web to see wad my ppt is toking bt liao..chrissy test still in e air..sian 1/2. i only love to sleep...~ mr quack~ how's kenny rogers? sweet?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
9:44 PM
My back is aching like nobody's biz, wound hurts, looks like wad happen to my fren aft her surgury is haunting mi..u dunoe whether to lie dwn or sit ard cus both wont do much of help..popping pain killer don tink will hav ani effect also. perhaps some tranxene would be of benefit.. as each dae pass, my energy lvl is decreasing, its jus slight better when ur asthma is starting to act up..today dispensing is jus so screwed up with so many screws..that 10% is so hard to earn, if possible, i rather gif it a miss lur. i nt only have problems w rimless, but rimlon n frame repair too la..wadever tt is linked w optician's job, i jus hate it except refraction. im jus so sick of it.
lucky a penknife is nt within my reach.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
9:30 PM
Long and tired day in sch..counter and dispensing duty.dispensing in the morning, quite slack.. was talking to our juniors n monica and counter pple..commit a serious mistake which earn mi the stupid grade in my black bk..even monica cant believe i gt tt grade n ask mi wad happen.. sad case.but i admit its realli my fault..lucky rajeev gt check ah, if not wrong things wld jus go in a chain..n he so kiam one lor.. -.- but den i still go ard lamenting bt the grade to pple like iris n xh n huiyun..lols.. becus of tt, i no appetite for lunch, so jus slack at CL rm chit chatting wif duck lor, also must thanks him for helping mi count frames..rest a while go back to counter...by tt time almost 3pm liao. look thru the schedule, quite fully booked. n i look thru my slots, very turn off le, 85% of it under touch ur leg, wah lau! how come i dun get jia jia!!! aft which, dispensing counter become quite messy liao, dunoe y todae, such a rare sight, quite mani wan to make specs, do adjustments,collect specs..kw very stressed ah! den helped him out cus bi jing i m slacking at counter..but not bad, todae we both meet our dispensing quota during the last dispensing slot..phew~ lucky todae i choose to come back for clinic. clinic ended, count frames, v sian one le, keep counting. den dunoe wad sh,wl,dayne n cas were doing in dayne's rm le..making so much noise..but i join in e fun also la. i mean very funny lor, make fun of qh n stuff...lols. den cas n i were comparing our amount of LOA we chalked up, but i tink he's still the ultimate winner la xD dayne! thanks for welcoming back! haha..durians is delicious!!!! im dead beat todae, 3more daes to clinic again + wkend.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, July 03, 2006
9:54 PM
Arhh..i was jus looking thru my iso ppt i did ard 1mth plus ago..i realli duno wad are dey talking about..so pple~ DUN ASK QNS regarding the section tt im presenting.xie xie. haah. today also had csw test, wrote crapz but i noe those are neither clear nor logical.. tml clinic time, full shift counter n dispensing. nw i dun find the excitement in doing counter liao..hopefully can sell some specs tml..n my dispensing quota, no nid reach liao la, still gt 3 to go le..n i cant find my clinic coat in my wardrobe, wonder my sis iron until put where sia.. sch is boring todae..c weiling/huiyun eat teriyaki chicken, szehui eat roti prata, mi le..eat roti. reach hm same old food for dinner, which i had been eating for passt 3wks! but den v hungry lor, so managed to finished the food. aft which..slping time..wake up bath n tv den nw online. nw feeling bit feverish, tink tml will skip lek's lesson, str8 awae go for clinic..n kiat wee 'basket'! hmmph..scold somemore tml u dispensing no pple i luff at u..jkjk! mushrms!! when i can go out to have gd food, lst we will go marche okiess!! nxt will be sushi buffet, den dim sum buffet..onz hor! as for marche, tink mebbe someone will nt go le cus she went w tp liao..haha! kies..enuff of the above crapz..im in a idiotic mood nw
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
