my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
5:27 PM
Less than two weeks to 10/6..dreadful date. hai~ all my presentations still undone..how to finish dem by 9/6? sleep jus gets over mi..feeling so so tired..looks like medicine are making mi drowsy. exchanging clinic slots and tinking of when to have makeup tests and missing lessons for 2wks make mi feel like crying. boos~ todae clinic v sad, dawn penalised my hist taking so heavily..can really feel the heartache..the rest was fine jus that hist taking,althou she had her reaosns la -.-..n my 2nd px fly my aeroplane, but lucky huiyun volunteer her eyes for mi. aft clinic, went to buy minced pork noodle to make myself less miserable, eat the choco wafer sticks n made myself a cup of cereal.. WC cc de pantry is realli shiok la, like food heaven liddat..w compliments frm danny.suggested him to get a tub of ben n jerry ice cream dere..yehz. we can enter the pantry and eat as free as we like, nt like SPOC de.. tml ciba movie..still tinking to go or not to..cus its until quite late..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
7:50 PM
jus nw called some of the fyp subjects..some not interested, some changed no, some this yr taking psle, the parents told mi that must fit in the child extra cirrculum or tuition lessons b4 seeing gt time for the project or not, pity the kids nwadays. hai! i made a joke of myself, the ger told mi her parents went for taiji, but i hear until go tai guo ( thailand) -.- todae meeting monica for grading, she sure to niao mi to the max. cus the paeds NGE i screwed up, n i keep stepping on her toes literally todae..sway. lucky 2nd PX is optom junior.phew~ at least gt some records to refer back, n todae is the lst time i see neovas..todae also gt ms lek test, tink can breeze thru it la.. reach hm quite late todae. cus meet my sis for late lunch. had pasta mania again.nw still feeling full even till nw. week6 alr, 2more weeks to settle my presentations..todae tok to anna le, still gt three more lect to tok to..mushrms~ i nid favours from u all!! nxt wed catching da vinci code, compliments frm ciba vision. perhaps can start recommending focus lens le..jk! still must depend on fit n px comfort. following weeks gona rot at west coast cc le..i nid px!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, May 22, 2006
12:41 AM
Classmates are all nw in sch having lessons..n here im at hm..i still haven called e parents for my fyp subjects. ytd aft breakfast jiu lie on bed for whole dae alr, vomitted and the pain is killing mi. pain killers doesnt even help. evening time went for the jab, at least it helps. cus it knocked mi out totally within an hr. till nw still feel abit dizzy n strengthless. ltr going to see a specialist doc, im sure it gona cost a bomb. y am i so weak by nature? hai
feeling kinda xing ku nw..hopefully will be better for tml..if not clinic sure -.- one. tink dun wan ask kiatwee to cover my slot cus i tink i'll die doing a full dae clinic when i return this favour back. sigh` todae csw lesosns teaching business correspondence, will i be able to catch up? and my grp members..sorry le, i noe nxt week presentation for the biz idea thingy, yet todae i nt dere..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
10:12 PM
Looking thru my calender, realised that certain deadlines are drawing NEARER n NEARER. weeks aft the term break wld be v packed for mi, with all the case presentations n stuff n tests. its better to start researching nw, but den jus plain too lazy to get dwn to it. chris test on thr was alrite,thank god..also knew which duty for mi for the bukit ho swee cc..lucky is color vision n amsler..those doing ophthalmoscopy!! it'll be a gd training for u all le..fri lst time had clinic at west coast, the only thing i like is quite slack. doing slit lamp is so shit la, got to stand lor. guess big C/D ratio runs in my family..phew~ todae was working dae. 6pple in the shop! i was literally dere stoning for no reason. nth much to do since so mani stuff. hhaa! i realised the 3 misters in my store v nice la,haha! don v gd at handling customers complaints tts y james sae nxt time gt fussy customer all push to don..lols. n todae i get a angry customer..he said his photochromatic lens crack..den come dwn alot of times alr,but actual fact no lor..ji dan gao! n gt one ang moh family of 4..come and make specs..the mother haiyo! lst time do rx until i wan to vomit blood..choose frames also took a long time, but lucky two Oakleys was purchased..todae don taught mi how to use NETS, haha! at least learn how to handle payment, if not everytime must call dem..nets v fun le..haa! mum n sis company mi for dinner..had a quick deli meal quickly..den went back le. but dey v gd la, wait for mi to knock off work den we all went hm tgt..yayness(EC) time for mi to go dreamland le! tata
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
4:24 PM
Its 5pm plus nw..been doing nth since i reached home near to three. i tink todae's clinic is my most not stressed slot. Rajeev v nice. Knowing that i nv had my breakfast n my lst px fly my aeroplane cus its alr 10.30am!!! -.- he asked mi go get a sandwich..but when i was abt to step out of SPOC, he called mi back cus gt px..n is our yr2 junior. luckily le,if not wasted one slot doing nth. 2nd px, is also our junior from year1..v cooperative le..haha! n since is our junior, no nid to be that serious...was joking ard w her lor..when i ask her why she joined optometry~ she said its fascinating! whhoo~ xD f-a-s-c-i-n-a-t-i-n-g. very nice ger! bit paiseh cus i only let her go at one pm n her lesson is at one. but den its okie la, her 3other frens also late cus all doing Ge.. her nxt visit gotta retake her IOP again.RE was okie,but LE was high..tink too nervous liao..haha! fri gona 'migrate' to west coast cc le, hai~ dunoe gt px or not dere..if not hard to meet quota..n labcoat +clip board nid to bring here n dere, mafan! Todae e last nite to study for chris test le,cus tml gt training aft sch..lazy to study for his test le,but den nv study,bit dui bu qi him...lols..todae seem rather happy yeah! =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
10:16 PM
TOday lst dae of work @ capitol. MmM, no crowd de le, guess its mother's dae ba. only restaurants gt lots business. the people quite nice le, guide mi along. initally was v boring, cus dunoe wad to do. den started to arrange specs, attend to customers..the lensmeter is semi auto de..sianz! luckily gt one guy frm lucky plaza todae come dwn to cwp..crapz w him, let him suan n he taught mi some basics la of the products which i totally know nuts bt them lor..returned almost 99% of ophthalmic optics to vivien alr..haha! n his sales tatics realli is power le, must learn frm him..he told mi if wan to 'bluff customers' also must bluff until gt sey, cant anihow lai..lols~ n to tink i even believe some 'rubbish' from him la. he said cannot believe 100% words frm salesman..yepps. lucky gt him ard todae if not i wld be bored to death.. perhaps pple at specialist outlets better le, at least gt classmate to tok to..did refractions too, but dunoe correct or not le, die! cus quite some diff from the AutoRx la, told myself that autorx always overminus de n its gd to gif maximum plus.. chris test i onli touched abit nia le..sianz. clinic on tue again..phobia. currently my mood nw quite light hearted le, wonder how long will i maintain it. hahaaa!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, May 12, 2006
11:34 PM
One month of term jus flew past. That's fast. Wondering if i can grad in nxt Jan w/o failing my clinic..grrh! First test coming up soon, nxt thr, chris test on enviromental community optometry. essay questions le! Realised that i look forward to every thr, cus the morning kick off w chris lesson, he's like hyper n comical le..n lessons ends earli althou there's weekly fyp meeting. at least things are going on track soon. Esp last thr, has been looking forward to it since sun cus i know i gt free movie treat ! haah! althou i waited for that duck for quite long, but den the thot of movie n going out ya.. Voice was not that scary, but the story line is not v clear, i still abit blurred by it. aft movie, walked ard lor, went cine tangs basically the stretch of rd la. nitelife is quite happening dere, and the sky was v beautiful althou its nite time alr. yeps, went OJ for the blizzard,he was amazed how come the ice cream nv drip when the cup was overturned. well~ if u try that for another 5min, i assure u cream wld be dripping..haha! its been almost one yr plus since i had blizzards..miss the times at OJ where i sneak out on the food n icecream =D Wed had SOA talk, a funny one. I dont see alex as joker during clin opt one le..when i asked him y, he said he must be serious if not we might mistake ret or ophthalmoscopy..lols! den ytd i went JB..Mmm, dunoe y le, the dvds i wan dun have, unlike last time, those films not on show yet they wld alr have it..i bought 3pairs of shoes n a bag..my mum keep asking mi to buy formal shoes, cus she sae i v rough n i can share w my sis. i send my heels to the cobbler, n the ht of the heels was reduced by half..O.o heeh~ i feel lucky that i've a sis le, cus we can share our shoes, bags, clothes, esp formal ones.. mother's dae tml, but wld be having dinner tonite cus tml i starting work alr. but den its at sakura again...haah! den can go capitol to see whoseever working there. i realised that me n sokie..dunoe wad to sae le. we live near each other, work at the same outlet, our presentation dates for CL n clinical practise is the same, were in e same grp for the ms yeo de module, n our heels were brought frm e same shop n went to the same cobbler for repair..its quite funny thou. ciaoz!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
12:55 PM
I made the right decision of going to hubert's bdae celebration ytd. Really had a gd laugh dere n catch up session. Meet xinyi and went up tgt w her. Saw 2 familar guys in front of the computer.! due to my poor memory, i forgot their names le..n jie surprisingly still rmbed la.. wilfred and zhong qing. the dog was quite scary le..lucky it wont bite. the food was nice, filled myself w the salad, pineapple cashew rice,breaded fish, sweet sour PORK, n the hot+cold tian ping..but den sad that i cant have the oak cereal prawns, was v tempted by it. catched up w the two guys thru the hours of chat dere. wilfred is still as joker as ever,i keep laughing uncontrollably lor n zhong qing become more 'open up' le. still rmb the morning gatherings at the D&T block b4 assembly during the lower sec days, the few guys frm 4/7, nv fail to make the earli mornings interesting. tok bt the happening times back in Nh, the teachers,and their lives in Ite n nw in NYP, time flies. we all agreed we've grown old, graduating the same time nxt yr, but den the two of dem are still older than us..haah! althou i gt STM, but den i will nv forget wad zq said bt mi ytd. he said i've changed the most.. cus i grew taller le, not the shortie he know in nh few yrs back..kaoz. we took pics of the two guys n bdae boi, dunoe y one of the pic gt the twin bro jia fa inside..but nt bad la, quite an eye candy, heard that he's a volunteer help out at WC cc too w hubert..maybe can bump into dem one dae dere. four of us left the place ard 5. wilfred n zq walked back to nh bus stop to take bus, mi n xy walked back to oppo ginza. went to prima deli..den jus nice saw yiping dere too. chatted w her for a while den went off le. went dwn to boonlay to meet my mum n ahyi, had dinner at gek poh, bought a four leave clover fishie and two bags, one for mineself n one for sis. haah! quite cheap la, so buy dem w/o hesitating. but den im going to be broke soon, i dont think there's a time i sae im not broke. watch the whole of the general elections broadcast last nite. nt bad la, WP seem to grow stronger liao, this will reali make sg a democratic society. xh, thanks for companying to chat on my wae hm on fri aft i left oc,althou i noe u are like a dead pig, if not i dont know wad my mind will be like..xie xie. n todae is my dearest jie de bdae~ xinyi! happy 19th bdae!! stae young n cheerful always!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
11:31 PM
Random thots sweeping thru my mind.. had visual screening for the special olyompics on sat, sun was a tears cum smiles dae, spent my public holis slpingzz..lst clinic slot on tue, lucky 2nd patient default..took v long to do my NGE..felt heng that i nv spent much time on tono, althou the px did jump when the lst puff of air was on his eye..it was quite smooth w/o much errors, but the uncle was nice la, even gif mi his name card..mMm..but den my confidence lvl was still @ null.. todae dispensing was in mental block, i tink danny almost vomit blood..well~ cant blame la, its 8am class in the morning. went dwn to capitol hQ again,we know where wld we be posted to. causewae pt? dunoe gd or bad la, the onli gd thing is its near my hse..haah! went CWP walk walk todae, gt B&L + AMO de road show, both equally deserted, saw menghong dere. fyp meeting tml again.. hope will end early den can go home..fri wld be having clinic again, wish mi all the best pls. i dun wish to be a tortise again. i dont wish to be non competent compared to others. hai. will i ever have the chance to walk into ur heart? or is there always the presence of her? bottling up too much -ve and unwanted feelings for quite sometime, time to search for a void corner to release dem out.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
