my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Friday, May 29, 2009
8:15 PM
just finished talking to szehui~ omg, other than the content on our report, the remaining conversation i tink serves as great entertainment, rite ger? i will update u on my observation each time. no worries. Yay~ finally the report is done and i feel its quite a gd pce of wrk from the 3 of us. hopefully it wld be of some help la. still feeling v jittery bt my prac test le. i tink karna either who also no chance of smoking thru la. todae dr zhu told us nxt wk her 3modules tests nt counted. meaning all the 100% wld be on the final sem exam. not exactly a gd thing le. double the content but heavy weightage. ever since i started wrking pt, i tink im like grumbling more. find it quite tough to juggle bw the two even thou im nt wrking tt much compared to my classmates. 2yrs of nt using my brain effectively, nw come to getting the facts in, its quite tedious. nw no matter how long and hard i try, the facts seem hard to sink into my brain. i dun recall exp. this when im studying ocular patho last time. is it just my problem? sometimes, i feel hard wrk doesnt even mean aniting. i see alot of extremes. just feel like shutting myself awae from the others. anw, since i stae back todae. decided to meet hoi wai @ JE. took train tgt.catch up with each other. damn sian tt cant joined them on 13th for the bbq. anw, tt dae tink also will get half dae leave la, better still if serene will tell mi must well take whole dae. cus sometimes, i dun see the significance of mi there. last wed luckily, she left for TM when i reached. so left mi and clarie. quite shuang la, do my stuff, eat and home. just tt i feel guilty nt helping her do closing. cant wait for holis to come, i tink i've generate a list of things i wan to do le.! - gd satisfying rewarding meal - kbox - Dreamer's cafe - Swimming - Deep slumber sleep - Shopping and a new Hp if i gt the Vit M - Mushies outing, animals outing! i miss my sec sch gers... - Go JB - and of cus reports and presentation =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, May 23, 2009
5:40 AM
just realised that wrking on a sat is quite a dis-like-ful thing. got to gif the outings w frens a miss. liping they all planning bbq on 13th, i doubt i will be able to go lo. JJ still call mi ytd during my prac, there sia-ing mi . and todae my fren's 21st, also cant go. mentioning bt prac, during psychophy, each station is separated with a super no sound proof partition onli. im amazed how the handsome wearing a red specs can 'bicker' w sh lo. its realli quite funny la. even ms lek was there shaking head, from poly daes till nw still the same . during the SL prac, the 'fine line' u guys saw are not eyelash,hair,mucus,debris blahH~~ its act. a lens tear lor!!. no wonder my eye feel discomfort. ytd on e wae back, some thots running thru my mind. come to tink of it, i realised i missed wrking at EC despite the converse incident.i missed teddy.. time for my shower and work's time! there's always this qns i wan to ask u, but yet somehow i duno how to bring it out and i doubt i'll ever get a ans. thx pig for the chat last nite.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, May 21, 2009
6:54 AM
Sunny thr morning! it wld be nice if i can jump right straight into the pool.! past two daes, realli had gd nice sleeps despite some 'nitemares' . my wed prac lesson only frm 2-5 den im off to wrk. its better tis wae, no 5hr break and i can slp longer. but ending class at 5 and gg twn to tpy is quite a rush le, but still managed to meet joel and took the long boring red line train tgt. since sch started, we've been learning those adv techniques for prac. from GAT to 78D to BIO n to gonio soon. last time attachments at ttsh and in mmi, i onli c my docs using them, but nw at least we're taught how to perform the techniques. althou nt v competent, but i guess just have to practise more. but its also quite difficult cus unlike yr2, we can OTOT cus nw we nid docs to be ard for the instillation of drugs. the wonders of dilated eyes ! at one view, almost everything is in place unlike ur direct ophthal. its realli beautiful! effects of dilation is minimized le, lucky my near is ok aft two hrs and i dun feel glares. phew~ and i managed to get to do BIO despite being a subject for tt dae. v happy le, cus last wk having a bit of trouble to see the ONH. o ya, last sun mushies have lots of fun @ barrage and then iluma for our dinner+desert+shopping @ st. . having our pinic, walk thru the gallery, playing those childhood relief-ing times games. wah! its realli a gd dae to end the stress wk. thanks gers! =D i guess the fun part playing stacko and heart attack, cus u duno when the blocks will fall off. both games v exciting lor. in the midst of reading thru e notes in study rm tt dae, jessie and i found a new source of entertainment. nxt time dun keep laughing when u c tt person liao le. later pple paiseh how!? =P end of e wk le, 2mores wks to term break which means nxt wk is a crtical wk b4 the tests le. ! im gg to replenish my lost sleep hrs during tt 3wks. !! im becoming a panda ! =(
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, May 14, 2009
7:53 PM
I'm loving thrs! cus there's no sch and a perfect dae to rest aft a long day on wed. but that's for the past two wks. timetable changed again. but some of the daes only wef two wks later. and changes to come after term break.! but its quite a consolation to our grp esp on wed and fri at least there's reduction of break hrs in betw. lessons. i realised i've been feeling quite lousy this few daes. i guess my stupidity gets e head over mi. i've reached my threshold. for everything. sometimes i just dun like the way things are. but i noe i shldnt be tt accomodative, yet i also duno wad to do. somehow i wish i can turn a blind eye to everything and not to noe so much. ignorance is indeed bliss.. i dun wish to noe, but why m i yet so silly to go and pry bt it. finding a peace quiet place to soak myself in.. away from the crowd and pace of life.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, May 09, 2009
7:52 PM
started my part time alr. cant wait for the month's pay to come. i only see my money depleting each time i update my passbook. that's a saddening fact man. its reali an easy time wrking there lor..guess i nid to regain some confidence in adjusting frames and doing sales. quite disappointed todae. but then come to tink of it, maybe im asking for a lil too much? o wells. at times, i just feel im so stupid. doings things that i aint be doing. stubborn isnt it. stuff that i dont wish to noe, yet i just go ahead and ask and in e end, making myself unhappy. sorry pig..i know recently, i guess i've unintentionally make u angry ba. dui bu qi, but i've nv taken things for granted. kinda glad that my body alarm clock isnt tuned to waking up at 6am. past two wks i just wake up at 6+ unknowingly and knowingly and just went back to slp. bro off to UK for holis. full of envy. althou i've just been back frm hk and malacca, but i just wish to go oversea again. perhaps somewhere like genting im also satisfied. seriously, i really wish to visit that place, despite pple saying how nt fun that place is. mother's dae tml. glad that i managed to get sth for mum other than the 100bucks. im much more poorer again.. quite long nv blog alr. my frens too. some stuff i still rem: weili met mi at tpy aft my first dae of wrk. moral support. ! 1 kg ~ aka 1 K ji aka 1000 chickens! that makes us craving for kfc for lunch, rite gers? why ferris wheel revolve in circle? i must xie xie kw for driving mi dwn to creative to revive my player. i hate optics calculations
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
