my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
11:17 PM
Eeek,todae wear formal to sch...sianz zi bua..wear the shoe with a bit of heels...nw legs v painful lor...n todae's presentation...omg..irene sae i spoke too fast...hmm~ hopefully overall for that module at least get a B la..dun wana c a C..aft that went for my cl aftercare..chey! yuan lai can dun book aftcare one lor...so waste my 2trips to SPOC for aftercare sessions...todae ting feng check my eyes for v long lor...omg...the intensity he used to slit lamp is kinda high la...cus when i rest back...my vision reali is BLURRED..my PR all karna bleached liaoz...he very crappy too lor..haha! well, he said he realie regretted joining optometry cus he felt tt nt much of future...hai~ kinda true la...initialli i still tink that the future is well lit...budden recently i tink nt much of qian tu also lor...job scope is reali limited...haiz...n e bad thing is nid to spend 700+bucks on the two scopes... -.0
5more daes to lst sem paper..that is microbio,dun reali like this module but den i feel that this is e onli module that does not require much understanding..n jus memorise u can get a gd grade le... haha...budden memorizing those micro-organisms name can kill mi le..if we can write short forms tt wld be good..haha! okies...shall stop here le..tata
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
ZzZzzZ....feel so tired...jus wake up aft i doze off on my my lect notes ,den cum online to send huiyun the ppt for tml rwp...n yes...tml rwp presentation...formal wear!!! i hate it leh!! n i m sure tml presentation will be worse off than the lst one cus i nt as well prepared as e lst time...this presentation like complete it in a rush lor...nw feeling v nervous lor...
all the tests finished already, semestral exams awaiting mi...felt drained out le,v v tired...!! but die die also must pull thru for another two weeks..den freedom le!!! must perservere all the wae...hahaz... asking huiyu to pray for mi for my tml presentation...she told mi she will msg weiqiang..diaoz...zzzz...feel like dozing off again,wonder wad can make mi awake..tonite i still wan to study de le.....hopefulli...
cyar!
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Monday, March 28, 2005
4:31 AM
One test down--->anatomy..so left wed de PVO and thr de formal presentation...zzzzz...todae wad can i sae bt the test...haha! easier than lst test hopefully my marks will also be more than 66(wad i get for lst test) by alot la...hope i wun be disappointed when i get back my grade..i forget that onli nid to do 5/6 of qns..so i go n do 5.5 qns den realise that do extra le..sianz..no wonder i feel like in a rush...
aft class went bugis wif mushrms...mi ling n huiyun went guan yin miao bai bai~....sh wait outside for us..omg...its so crowded le...diaoz...lst time c such a big crowd dere...aft that went walk walk..went og bugis street n the pasar malam dere...sh bought a wallet...i v tempted to buy the QQ bear wallet...hahas..budden todae wallet zero money le...lols...
weiqiang sms mi...asked mi jia you for my semestral exams...hahas..kinda surprised lor cus i nv tell him when is mine sem exams ma..yuan lai is huiyu told him de...so sweet ger...haha! so ke lianz he fell sick during his bllock test period....n asked mi to takkaire of myself...haha..n last nite mf kor sae die die also must do well for my sem exams..dun be like him,get all the Cs n Ds.. he sounds until so serious..diaoz..yi zhuan yan,he graduating soon le,last sem in sp liaoz...tinking of the times when we lst met each other at canteen1 when he jus collected his Os....time indeed flies..
my legs v suan nw..nw listening to ying yue ri ji,aft that shall settle dwn c wad thing to study,but i dun feel like studying tonite le..o yar..todae sh gif mi a small card,wif a xiao mao de face oh..thanks dear...**huggs*
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Friday, March 25, 2005
6:56 PM
Sigh, its sat alr..n mon is anatomy test yet i haven finish memorizing all the stuff..last nite was stuffing notes on ocular appendages into my mind until i fall asleep...i onli finish the lacriminal apparatus den zzzz i go le...reali buay tahaN...anatomy left this last topic...n i tinking if the remaining topics which i susposed to have studied did remain in my mind or not...=/ hopefully yes lor. *prayying** im so tired of memorizing..even thou last time i like memory work..budden i realised i dun alr..
ytd was good fridae,woke up quite late n went breakfast..keep slacking n on phone during when i was studying...so sianz..reali gt no self discipline...motivation needless to sae..guess that i m addicted to the channel U show at 11.30pm [zhuo gui ri ji] cus everytime my mum was watching..i wld v much be tempted to watch also...n when the show ends,i always feel sad n dun feel like studying le...feel sad nt becus the show ends le,but den jus the storyline ba...
todae aiming to complete my anatomy n optics plus do some revision as well...determined to do it! haha! jia you!
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Thursday, March 24, 2005
3:05 AM
Updatez time! ytd had 2nd physio test...upon 88marks[9structured qns] wrote until hand v pain lor...but den wonder wad i wrote make sense or nt...**praying hard** also check my gems results last nite...tink can get a A ba..during rwp todae..damn sianz lor..let irene c wad we;ve done for the ppt...she sae heading misleading n bah bah bah bah.so meaning the time i spent on doing the ppt is wasted lor...she so ma fan!!!! sometimes how i wish kenneth is our rwp lect...n nxt week nid to be in formal wear again for presentation! totalie stupid! morning i went to find ms lek to clarify bt optics stuff...den i realised that the graphs for color vision de i labelled all wrongly..no wonder i read until weird weird de...halfwae thru...chit chatted also lor bt some things..haas...
aft sch todae...met kor at dover n we went je...he bought the forever frenz hp casing for mi...pink de! cutes :D haha...den he sae i owe him a treat cus tt time he analysed for mi the rwp e 2data sheets on the translators...lols...walked ard je central..he ask mi go get a skirt for formal wear instead of wearing pants..too bad lor..i dun tink i will wear a skirt..haha! sat dwn at jec...play wif his hp+his camera...v stylio le..his 6260 like ivan de lg hp...can turn turn de so can take pics @ diff angles...den left for home ard 5+...
last nite initallie wanted to study de..budden also wasnt in a very gd mood..was feeling down thou..so this time round...xiao ya was the one sounding cheerful de n i m e one sighing...haas.. talked till 11+ den i continue my tv show till 12.30..den off i went to slp...so whole nite nv study aniting! gd!
sem exam cuming le...sp peeps..jia you kie!
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005
1:01 AM
REAP WHAT U SOW---->sometimes i tink thats totally bullshit la or rather i m jus plain stupid...for 4yrs in nh...i've been seeing this sologan or rather a banner wif a seed n flower with this sologan on it in the hall...sianz...got back physio test..sian sian sian sian sian zibua...46/58...to tink i was still quite confident when doing e paper...looking at my ans..wonder wads wrong with them..wad dr koh said i've it but jus no marks awarded? nv go n get marks frm her since she said she alr mark v leniently le..but peeps from 01 still go n tao fen..tink dey reali care alot for their grades..my lao ba nv make it for his test again..omg! hope he reali studied for tml test n ivan too.... :) jia you! aft getting back todae's paper...i feel that i dun wan to study for tml physio test alr...tts it. so tired n im gona slp..guess i m pro siaz...cus e unit below my hse renovation wif all the unbearable drilling sounds i still can slp like a pig...n thats another reason y i dun wan to study for test...cant concentrate @ all lor..stupid!
looking at the timetable..i dun tink i can even follow it le..jus dun hav e determination and motivation....n oh ya..my bro ytd ORD le..haha..so he can slack until 1st of august when his term in NUS starts...woot~ better go n find a job n save some money instead of gambling on soccer..guess his bets on soccer turn horribly wrong this time rd..well~ wish that he can turnover lor..if not his savings i can sae is byebye liaoz. n kor failed his driviing test....hai~ hope he can pass e nxt time round..den perhaps i will hav free rides home le-->tts wad he said la. n one thing..i realised that my sis seems to be v eng in e office..keep sending mi those kind of forwarded emails using his mas email acc...diaoz...
5pm le..im hungry cus for e whole dae i onli ate 2pieces of bread wif butter..haha! hmm~ if hu gt go 7-11 spend over 5bucks...can help collect the hello kitty magnet? yea...cus the dear short mushrm wants it..haha! :P
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Monday, March 21, 2005
4:21 AM
Week 15...week 17 drawing nearer and nearer..sem exams..dang! this week wed gt physio test.. personally find it more tough for e facts to go in compared to the lst test..sigh...still gt some stuff i dun understand,budden i dun like to ask dr koh le cus her face look v fierce..sianz. last nite stayed up till 1am+ den go lying down on my bed..at 2.15am,that duckie sms mi..diaoz! so late liao still doing tutorial..hardworking lor...todae class starts at 1pm..v v v v v rare for mi le..haha!! den weiling pangseh mi dun wan lunch wif mi..its okie la..i can save money too! so i had bread for lunch cum breakfast...morning i studied abit..but dunoe e facts for went in or nt...haiz..
aft class went for my soft lens delivery..1mth supply of acuvue dailies! hahas...the lens is much more comfy than focus dailies de..i dun feel dryness of e eye and discomfort..and most impt the lens is nt as thin as focus de..so far flipping of eyelids..shang ling is still e best!!! todae sok fen flip my eyelid..literally is pull my eyelashes n its nt v comfy...haha!
[[xi huan yi ge ren hao bu rong yi wo xiang wo zai mei you zhe ge yong qi zai ji xu xi huan ni. ]] nw listening to music diary n duckie called..hahas...ask him call back at 8.30. haiz...at times i reali wish...but den i noe its kinda bu ke neng de lor...sigh` tinking of nxt week: packed wif so mani stuff n yet its still called e study week...anaotomy test on mon,optics test on tue and rwp prsentaion on thr...thank god that it is not a formal de...
tts all folks!
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with a shattered heart
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Friday, March 18, 2005
3:14 AM
Todae 2 things off my mind..gems presentation as well as gems test. n the gems presentation,we gt 93/100! so damn happy..i was nervous for todae's presentation till i alot of stuff nv said..but nvm~ hahas..brought 6fragrances to sch todae..n my bag still smells of dem..but it's pleasant kies! gif weiling one of e smelling strip i collected frm metro ytd..thats was nice ! :) hha! n gems test..heng mcq one mark each onli..so die also wun die until so nang kan..nw i praying hard my gems can get an A!!! todae last lesson for gems le..will miss my dear collin de..but nvm~ he still ard in cls area ..yay!
morning was late for chris prac for 15mins..nv wwent in till e briefing was over..cus when i was abt to enter..titus ask mi dun n secondly..i nv wear covered shoes..nv get caught by chris..but den get caught by uncle richard! hahaah! n for the temporal summation period prac....dunoe wad to do bt it too....
counting dwn...2 weeks+ to sem exam...stressed stressed! n nxt week gt physio test nxt nxt week gt anatomy n optics test....hopefully everyting goes well! hahah!! mon i getting another one mth supply of contact lens again ....yippie...sometimes feel that being optometry student is reali gd..gt freebies like contact lens...n todae wan fen help mi replace my specs de nose pads for FREE..last time went East CHamP dey cheat my $$ siahz...i get it replace for 6bucks..diaoz. wanfen going UK in sept to pursue her degree at cardiff..2yrs for $100,000..its very expensive...rich ger :)
tts all..tonite nid to pia my tut for chris n drkoh alr... cyar!
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
4:59 AM
Dunnoe that act the class is cursing n swearing at s.soh mb paper till i read ling's blog..haha! true..its kns! wth! realised that my hard work for studying for todae test goes dwn the drain..but wad can i sae? jus blame the fact tt i m stupid. so wads e use of being hardworking? in e end u still get shitty results whereas those hu like diao er lang dang ones still can score...ya...this clearly differentiates bw pple hu are clever n stupid..thats mi. stupid.fool. ya..fri gt gems test..collin realie i nth to sae...want to make the qns difficult...again is mcq..bah! todae b4 i went hm went john little n metro c can get perfume samples or nt..but i smell..also dunoe wad i smelling..n no one wants to bother mi lor..sianz..wad kind of attitude man?
Jus nw on phone wif xiao ya...talked bt wad happened ytd..was inferior and hurt..felt better aft telling him la...thx for the listening ear althou he dun reali wish to talk bt tt matter...finalie keeping that matter to myself for a nite...act. ytd wan to call him de but den he sure studying his mb test so dun disturb him lor...but dunoe how cum during our conversation..all of a sudden talked bt tt issue again..diaoz...sometimes i tink tt i reali v stupid le...compared to pple ard mi..haiz.
9pm le..tv time...shall blog till here...dun wan to continue my rants liaoz..cyar!
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Monday, March 14, 2005
4:31 AM
Woot~ huiyun highlight her hair..but her experience kinda bad! diaoz...golden color..den we all teasing her tt she's a monkey :P :P hehez..todae was rather pissed off with the guys in the class.. insensitive creatures..sometimes realie buay dong them lor. chris postponed anatomy test for one week....hai~ means week 16 sure mani daes nid to go back..y optometry students dun have study week de? den how are we susposed to study for our sem exams?? the syabullus so much...n yet our brain storage space n time for revision is so little..-unfair-
CD finished liaoz..so can leave sch at 3...todae reach hm study bit of microbio n poom! slpt all e wae frm 5+ to 7+...sianz..so meaning tonite i gt difficulty slping again..n tml lessons at 8.15...for the remaining for this week all lessons at 8 too! argh! As for the two optical instrument..kinda made up my mind wad brand i wan to purchase le...ophthalmoscope i wld get Wenych Allyen and Retinoscope i wld get Nitnez(dunoe how to spell) most prob la...c if they are user frenly..den will get them le...expensive!!! well...
so sianz..sometimes i tink somepple from e nxt class kinda selfish le...some onli la..nt all la.. well~ no offence if ani one frm 01 happen to chance upon my blog...n the guys hai..i nth to sae....
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Friday, March 11, 2005
7:15 AM
End of week 13. 3 weeks to sem exam...gd! haven started ani preparation yet...n the gd news is: hhoo~all e wae to e sem exams..gt tests along e wae...n reports n to hand..presentations too...i reaali hate irene,worse still nid to c her for the individual presentation..c her face i no mood to present le la..! enuff of the rants...
well~ morning the pple from both companies cum to introduce the retinoscopes n opthalmoscopes.. cus we nid to purchase ma...for yr2. different brands diff prices..n e prices are reali expensive althou it stated student price..my god. 2 instruments ,their price ranges frm 600+ to over 1ooo+...faints*
jus put dwn weiyang phone..b4 tt huiyu called~ Ask mi pei her go NUS de open hse...haha~ jus nice weiyang tml also going..but i cant go la..nid to do some self revision le..paisehz* weiyang going NS on 7th april...my sem exam period...he wants to meet mi b4 he go ns...guess i shall make myself one dae free to go out n relax..den shun bian meet him la. his Alvl results to mi v gd le la..all As except GP...n he v shiok le...go ard pri sch perform his recorder pieces..half an hr 50bucks! tts alot lor...even thou outside pays u higher la...but i must admit his recorder skills is SUPERB! :) :) :) :)
tts for all...........my dear tall mushrm: cheer up kies!!! love ya *muacks*
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with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
4:54 AM
"Life is so BEAuTIFUL and GREAT" !~!~! LIFE RAWKS!
I tink i going craze soon...yay! Jus another boring dae in sch! all the bl vessels driving mi mad during anatomy...and during physio...aft the guys came back from their smoking session...omg! stinks like shit ...for goodness sake..wan to smoke carry on la..but jus rid of the stink on ur bodY! its damn obvious u guys smoke kie...n it was bloody cold n i m hungry inside the LT...n that zhen dere kept asking qns which i tink kinda irrelavant...kaoz!!! optics initally had a gd luff lor...budden when proper lecture starts..my eyes jus feel like closing...LPS muscle nt working siahz. microbio at least was still ok...took ivan's lecture notes n scribble stuff on top..both useful n crap stuff! haa!! took train wif harvinder n angela tgt...as wad she said...life is indeed stupid..with going to sch n back hm everydae...wif lectures pracs n tut...wad kind of life is this man? weLL~ i guess everything seems too late nw.
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
6:24 AM
Yay!! Morning 9+ went swimming and get out of the pool at 11+. The pool quite crowded...many kids learning swimming..piang! realli v hard to swim...keep knocking into them lor...woot~ the feeling of being in the pool waters was jus simply so GREAT! as usual....mi n huiyu went to the wave pool n the jacuzzi pool..soak dere n chit chat~ haha..all of a sudden wana noe hu is ernie :P this time rd nv c longqiang dey all..so sad...lols
aft the swim..we walked to lot one makan...both of us felt that cant eat fast food since we spent 2hrs swimming...so we went 'Let's Eat' restaurant...like Sakura tt kind lor...still affordable..hahah! we walked rd lot one...look at bags.shoes.clothes.we both bought e same hp accessory..cute cute de. haha~ totallie regretted to go dwn to basement one of e shoppers' mall~ cus dere basically selling those YUMMY food that will simply make u go drooling :D but we control la..thou feel like eating...heng nv buy :P
reach hm..chiong finish my rwp report which i completed halfwae last nite. should have listen to xh cus he sae do rwp de report den do ms lek de lst...cus ms lek kinda shui bian la..can accept ani format..whereas for rwp..still nid to take note for langauage n format...hai~ tt time go n do ms lek de lst...den for rwp..the language reali must take note lor..sianz~ aft report..went to slp for a few hrs b4 going for dinner. on e wae hm frm dinner..walked past durian stall~ so i was looking at those durians lor...v xiang ma! tink i look at dem in kinda a silly wae..until e stall holder ask mi n my mum if wan to buy..the situation is reali gaoxiao lor..! dots.
nw my shoulder bit aching le..later ask mama massage for mi if she wans..if nt wait for tml papa back frm msia den ask him! hahah!!! oh ya~ my dad recently v gd le..gif mi extra 20bucks for allowance...means gt extra savings again! :P
todae nv studied aniting..later nite time hopefully i can stae awake oh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, March 04, 2005
3:44 AM
Fri is here again...hai~ this week is week12..another 5weeks will be Sem exams le! stressed? or am i numbed to it liaoz...both kor n xh also liddis sae...but i guess kinda true la..numbed liao till the extend tt i did some silly things la..dun ask mi wad i did. ytd aft physio test..was totalli drained out...rwp was on china students de instead of sales executives...wad a sianz. todae microbio, watch video on urine collection...diaoz..some parts bit sensored la..overall learn some things frm it thou...gems todae colin like kinda pissed off lor...sianz
having headache for almost a week liaoz..stupid..wonder wad is happening to mi. ha!
and finallie, tml going SWIMMING wif huiyu ! YAY!!! can dip in the waters again...n hopefully can de-stress....better still, slim dwn but den kinda hard! haha..n yeps..gd news...huiyu get A1 for her ao chi..n yeps...frens ard mi hu todae get their ao chi all get A. congrats siahz! n weiyang..woot~ 3As n his gp b4...glad that his gp can make it lor...yay!
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walking this empty street.
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