my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
7:23 PM
BoO! my two consecutive offs ended. so are my offs for may. time flies. by the time june ends tada! last sat went for the manchester talk,eye screening,makan @ amk. iris curious to look @ converse le. i noe i v jialat la. haa! late aftnn went swimming w shimin. althou nv swim much but i tink its a gd workout anw. tt evening nearly quarrel w henry. cus my request off on 7th not approved, but i told him i alr gt plans le. den he gif mi tt kind of niaoed talk lo. super fed up tt time. but i still go ahead w my plans lor. worse still e nxt dae i thot annie wrking, but henry replaced her instead. see him kinda awkward sia. sianz. den he keep asking mi do refractions must be see mi too eng liao. wonder wad underlying meaning he has as well. mon was a super super tired dae for mie. had onli a few hrs of time cus was mob-tving. result of the nxt dae. no mood to do refractions. so some of it ask franky to help mi. tink i also anihow open prices cus tt dae de sales nt v gd, no matter wad cant let cus escaped! keyed records but still not finished. help my optician write notes for his refraction test. near to closing, gt one t10 s8 family. mi n aiying serve the mother cum son until -.-lll aft that quickly settle my CL exchange. stae back to see my optician did his refraction. aiying as subject. tink her current specs over minus alot le. scary! so tue, off. receive a call frm wrk. aiying told mi i order contact lens wrongly. den some stuff also did wrongly. lucky annie nv noe sia. phew~ must xie xie her settle for mi. slp the whole of aftnn tt dae. shiok! wed off again. wake up kinda earli. company franky for his refraction test. finally had my fc1 de jap n fruit juice. saw amy too. hope he n amy can pass their refraction test! i told franky if he passed i get him a PSP.......................... de casing! hahaha! so during his test, went dwn depot rd to settle some stuff. nv knew it wld drag until 1. my god~ so let him wait for an hr plus, even longer than tt time i wait for him aft his dispensing test. heng heng peace! went to suntec. had gelare waffle w his half cup of cuppa. catch indiana jones. i was jokingly saying 'aiya shld have coop 2ticks frm shop' den no nid pay for the tix le. movie ok ok la. at least tis time i nv doze off nt like iron man den let him zhuo dao. tink todae we walked the suntec for a few rds. keep passing those carts tt sell economical watches. franky told mi as optom cannot get tt kind of watches must get sth frm city chain. kns! no money le. dinner steamboat buffet @ hotpot culture @ marina sq. hmm~ ok ok also la. but i like the choco fondue la althou buffet alr kinda sinful liao. plus the fondue,goodness. went to 'admire' the fountain of wealth aft dinner den home! can see that the sha gua v tired. hope tt he fully recover soon n pass his rx test! its really a enjoyable dae. sth to be part of my memoir. if only each time it wld be like todae...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, May 23, 2008
11:01 PM
recently keep having slpess nites whereas the nxt dae still gotta wrk. a wk plus no blogged le..shall start frm where i ended.. last fri, as usual my phone keep ringing until i step out of the hse den i ans. really bu gao xing lo. so was dere ranting until i reach wlands interchange. up the escalator, i saw train to marina bay 2mins. ran n tap my EZlink card n den someone stopped mi. at tt moment, seriously. i shocked dao lo. i mean i nv expect to see u at tt pt of time rite. all the wae frm 9+ n needless to sae u send mi into daze for the rest of the dae. ai ying bought mi mac breakfast tt dae.. so happy! first dae of the occulus rdshow. tt promoter i nth to sae. he eat ji dan. sat kinda stupid. firstly when i open my eye stare at the clock its 9.44am! jump dwn bed immed cus if im late i gotta pay fine for my two SA since im the one holding key. luckily i nv missed the train. and secondly 6pple wrking? wei mian too much alr lo. so basically nth to do sia. but tt dae i serve 2 families of cust until i nearli went mad. super s8 + t10. nite time aft wrk met zq. he jus returned back frm taiwan and passed mi some foodstuff n small gifts la. went s11 for food. hai first time ever in my life my hp received so mani missed calls. dun dare to return call but still ying zhe tou pi n dial back when i was walking home cus i can weather forcast alr. n tada sun im late. i missed the train! and being lazi to ran all e wae frm amk to shop..i jus walk slowly lo. but luckily my SA help mi punched card at 1029. whole dae was a bad bad dae. onli aiying knoes why. franky was sick. i noe its time to park myself in the refraction rm. tt nite also saw ling n lijun cus they @ amk for dinner. mon was vesak dae. so busy!! we all v hiong le. gt new incentive scheme le. so the frames we took for cust are all those under incentive scheme de. lens also all push future x steel. hahah! guess we are too liong liao la. nite time ended quite late. andrew went to the p.malam to buy us food. i sae i wan ramily burger le. in e end he bought roti john back. diaox. 4 servings le! so we had our food in the shop, had lots of laughter during the meal lor. tue my off dae. finally. slp all the wae until 12+ shiok. had lunch w my sis @ pizza hut. student meal yeh. den walk ard cwp. pyscho my sis go gelare. finally had waffle le. online-ing the whole of aftnn. nite time went dwn amk. saw annie. stupid mie. wed was a slack dae. so doing cleaning up. annie doing display. chiio de leh! =) den JnJ de sales come n take photograph of the displays. thr and fri also another slack daesss! omg! duno can hit target or nt. thr annie off. no one used comp..so i started keying those records. thot i keyed alot liao le, but the pile like only lessen abit nia. fri which is todae. woke up late cus previous nite on phone until 3+. missed calls again. to reduce the possibility of quarreling, i lied. but still quarreled in the end cus he also like dun believe le. yes i admit im feeling lousy so ended up nt talking to each other lor. talk to aiying bt my hesitation. anw i also made my decision tt nite. told aiying bt it too le. saw someone future wife? saw sth tt i noe the presence but dun wish to knew. haa. im being the foolish mi in the past again. i duno y. but i seriously tink maybe all the shit will end soon!! no tears !
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
11:14 PM
unknowingly reading ur sms during my offs near to ten, seeing ur miss calls on the daes of my wrk has alr becoome my habit. 3-5 miss calls around 9.30 cus im busy preparing to go out aft my bath. a short chat b4 wrk starts. occasional meet ups on train. a quick bite b4 e dae starts. all tis has become part of my morny routine without realisation. working thru the dae. sometimess missed calls during settlement and cleaning up time. receiving sth , either a call or jus a short msg, aft wrk. talking on the phone, despite quarrels or bickerings, in the nite. these has also become sth ussual b4 the dae ends. but i believe all this sh** will end soon! haha! bz sianz dae. literally whole dae doing those ling ling sui sui things..annie de love notes. servicing. cls. ensuring those urgent jobs really return back. previous dae ILT only came for 2nd trip. first trip de specs all disappear to god noes where. in e end todae den back. goodness. uncle get pok liao, nw the despatch is a young lad. quite humorous lo. althou im off the previous dae, but i dun tink is bz le. yet hai. quite disappointed ba. u sounded sian, guess todae my turn lor. to hang out those JnJ wobblers n stuff, borrow those tall tall ladder. must xie xie my 2 SAs for doing the job. reali cannot depend on guys. excuses! called JnJ to scold pple. super pek chek. firstly my exchange come wrongly. wan BC 9.0 gif mi 8.5.. at first i thot so nice call mi up first to apologise b4 i shoot my wrds. okies, but the nxt dae my exchange become order. so Ma fan, rang up again ask dem do CN n exchange. nerves! tink i gt my retribution also la. early in e dae call up agents n lab to 'scold' pple nite time i gt lamed by a cust. sacastic sia. wo REN! tt time reali bad mood liao, but i jus smile smile n ren! lao da sae de, no matter wad cannot blow up even thou alr at limit le. but admist all tis, lucky aiying help mi to settle tidy up my CLs. seeing too mani boxes of those 5pce pack t/l aiying begin our distribution. lalaa x) occulus rdshow frm fri - sun. the 100btles of freshkon MPS 50pouches 500box of fusion 180boxes of alluring eyes nw all lying in my shop quite unsightly. thr fri sat, wrking w my SAs only. die liao. i wan annie or franky back le. its reali tiring to handle all e refractions n almost dispensing n other ad hoc stuff. annie todae off but i still call her a few times like disturbing liddat. also grumble to her tt i nearli go ki siao le. hope everything go well on fri n sat. jia you to mi!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, May 12, 2008
5:06 PM
last sat was working @ bedok eye care. omg. had a bit of difficulty finding that place cus i dun even noe the blk . quite a great torture for mi. took 168 (35mins) until tampiness den transfer train to bedok. faints. cx dere all disturb disturb de. the prices dere also sigh` i also nv did anithing constructive dere except slacking. even gt the time to go and bought a pair of heels. initally really wan to go walk ard the central de but scared boss come dwn lor. ate alot of snacks n food dere as well..i seriously hope henry wont put mi dere. at e shop i did sth which frightened lao da~ but i also duno y i did tt. luckily till nw no one yet discovered wad i did if not i tink i sure receive counselling le. tt nite nearli quarreled again but luckily all ended well . the nxt dae sun. im the one holding the key so cant afford to be late. but im nearli late. phew~ even my new colleague mariania is earlier. her name v difficult to pronounced so basically each of us pronounced her name in a different manner. haha! tt dae quite slack cus basically no human flow except in the aftnn. quite worried bt the dae sales lo. in e end it turn out quite abit bad la. but i also dun care so much! lolz. tt dae althou gt shimin to help mi in the refraction, but i still v tired la. so i cant imagine nxt sat with the occulus rdshow, wrking w my 3gers n henry. onli one doing refraction n wrking w henry=stressed! tink i wld prefer parking myself in the rx rm the whole dae. i tink is last thr. weather in shop nt very de gd. i nearly went craze, but i duno bt aiying. tink she also. on top of that, nid to key those safilo frames. so many! total 5 invoices le n the models like all crampped tgt one. wah lau eh. ask mi label the price really headache. lucky aiying correct some of my mistakes. but still gt mistake. lucky is discovered by franky n nt annie. n he ask mi to be more alert nxt time. oOpz. n so ya, the cold weather in the shop continued until evening. madness n craziness n lame-ness. worse still , my legs made a fatal mistake. so im prepared for a cold war alr. get snubbed thru the nite until the nxt morny gt a call. tink i also abit bu shuang n raised my voice bit thru the headset. pple walking past mi sure tink i sort liao. lalala~ off dae todae. if i nv took a look @ the schedule carefully, i tink i wld be returning back to wrk. haha! so basically slp until 11+ den wake up. slack here slack dere go lib n lunch. back home pack my stuff slowly. haa~ discard some of the bags n shoes. woo~ more room for replenishment. lol.~ quite some time nv go for shopping trips alr actually. hmm~ waiting for my first comm cheque le. haiyo, sometimes i reali duno wads the prob. are my wrds tt pricky or am i reali tt insensitive or the other party is too sensitive? goodness gracious!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, May 05, 2008
11:52 PM
sometimes i realised that i've been too nice alr. or stupid? wo ye bu zhi dao. doing stuff tt im not obliged to. talking to yt at times really is chimology. thot pondering qns. hmm.. off dae out to vivo. nth much worth mentioning. wae back to amk jus for ramily burger. but pasar malam ended. da bao food frm hub to EC. stae dere n help until 10+ tml gona face the pile of cls again. saw how buzi dey were todae. i nearli went numb. cus for tis month, gt one wkend gona work w my 3 sa, two wkdaes w my sa. how m i gg to sos help to when i nid one esp when my dispensing is not so zai. feeling quite lousy todae. why cant u be jus offering mi wrds of comfort n console instead of asking for the reason? cansonova.ha`
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, May 02, 2008
11:21 PM
Im back to blog again! i onli had 3hrs of slp last nite. wake up in a super blur mode at 6+ bath changed n left hm. when im walking to bus stop onli to realise i forget to bring my hp. so walk back. lucky im not late. met sokie @ wlands mrt n so i gt someone to company mi all e wae to queenstwn. had my medical checkup. feel kinda weird in tt place. saw mr edwin. had blood test again. 3tubes! nearli fainted. b4 drawing the blood i told the nurse i v scared..n she still tell mi she will try her best cus my veins v de not prominent + ask mi not to scream of jump when during the test. muahah! aft my checkup, went to my ah yi hse at boonlay. did pedicure. wah lau eh! i tink i v sua ku. soak my feet. dead skin on my feet all get filed. shiok, althou v ticklish. n jus nice during the filing, im talking to xianghui n den franky, n both of dem thot tt im gg ki siao cus i keep laughing away. nw my feet smooth sia. haha! had back massage as well -tension relief- tink i shld indulge myself in massage during my offs. left her hse ard 2+ n cab dwn to mmi. the cab uncle. i nth to sae. he duno e directions well..n pass mi a 2002 street directory ask mi search for the map. still suan mi sae how come duno how to guide his wae out of jurong to expresswae. kns! met my mum @ cwp. bought her to choose her belated bdae cum mother's dae gift. i v filial le all of a sudden. lol. had dinner at ichiban sushi. super long queue. due to some miscommunication, one order was missed out. in e end gt a complimentary plate of sushi frm the manager n she v nice, waived off the service tax. two daes of wkends b4 to my mon off. looking forward to it.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
4 daes of wrk, here comes my off. 2nd of may! last off dae, met up w my dearest mushies! so happy to see the girls lor. had our meal @ cartel b4 proceeding to giraffe. ambience 90% but bit stuffy thou. or maybe the weather is humid tis few daes. had a wonderful time catching up w each other be it wrk or personal stuff. i still rem mi ling n dayne luff our wae off when we were talkin bt ah seng, our essilor despatch. tt uncle ah, can be compared to the ah nam uncle, both equallly fierce. happy moments passed fast n we made our wae hm ard 10. its also a relief tt im off tt dae. cus frm the sms tt franky sent mi, its damn busi. phew~ but must be exciting as well la as wad andrew said. act. feel like dropping off @ amk de but den somehow i still continue my journey back and only receive a call when i reach khatib.too late. recalling back..tue was a super duper bad dae for mi. everything i do also not smooth. earli in the morning get those bird shit. n it continues all e wae till late aftnn. first time i call up JnJ until i wana vomit blood. wonder tt guy is new de or wad? wah lau eh..like gt communication barrier like tt althou he v polite. but i wan to vomit blood liao. tt dae key all the new frames. nv managed to key sales i also duno y. nite time went to chong pang for supper again. da bao back for my mum n i cab hm. the feeling of cabbing hm is shiok la. but cant make tis a habit. tt nite sort of like quarrel w someone. kns! so the nxt morning since he relent abit, i also relent la. black face w each other also wont benefit. and aft some discussion n msgs, i reach my conclusion.! haiyo. so..april had endded. target hit! yesh! gt tt pathetic comm..and 1st of may labor dae marks a gd start. sales was gd. but i met one FON kid. nearli wan to faint on him cus i nt enuff slp alr still gif mi variable response. was kinda bz but still managed to settle my CL stuff n fax over since tml im off. haha. can forsee when i return on sat, a big pile of CLs must be waiting for mi. haha! had labour dae company dinner @ i also duno where. food so so . somehow i reali missed those food outings w northern peeps le cus always bound to be fab food. cab hm w franky whereas lao da send angie hm. the journey back was long but ...... hmm~ well duno la. walk a step look a step. gotta wake up at 6+ later. sian ah!! may offs: 3rd(fri) 5th(mon) 7th(wed) 12th(mon) 14th(wed) 20th(tue) 24th(sat) 27th 28th(tue wed) mushies! when can we meet up in may again?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
