my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
9:30 PM
Today susposed to be only a short day,but i left sch only @ 5+ .. morning was kinda sian la, i know i was running late for class le, but i was still dere dilly dally packing my stuff n stoning. in e end was late for 5mins..tink i v fated to be late on wed one..last sem wed de patho lessons i also prone to be late. aft lunch, pei peg go clubhse den went back for lab. did cover test on huiyun, hiak~ her phoria v obvious wor.. den did prelim exam. was late when meeting may ong..den i tink she kinda buay song mi so in e end i nv ask all the qns tt i wana asked. n i guess im giving up on excel liao. went back lab again. did self insertion/removal for SCL n RGP. I guess as i did more insertion for rgp, the more scared i become alr..my eyes cant seem be looking str8 n the lens thus get dislocated,so teared like dunoe wad sia. todae i really feel the pain in my eyes..nw still bit pain.. =/ my motility test realli like shit ah, i must admit thou..i guess cover test maddox n vongraefe will be as worse too..im jus so nt steady.. im feeling so tired...n yet im tinking of the pre n post sem exam period of last sem...grrh...i managed to survive thru the week 12/9-16/9 where there's 6tests+distractions so nw i shld be able to hang on, shld ba. ms lek sae sem2 is better than sem1, but how come i dun feel the same way?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
5:17 PM
Todae is the very lst time i get signatures for Bino vision prac. wah sey, kinda relieved. if not one go show her all the techniques, i tink i will die..esp maddox rod n vongraefe..seriously BV is tough sia i guess. cover test,motility test,aww! Im not v observant n smooth lor..hai. wonder how much practice i nid more than others. todae went to the newly pediatrics area, v cute okie! the stars, carpets n monkey, v shu fu leh..was hugging the star cushion..bv lesson i doze off la,cant take it le n stats i also dunoe wad to do w excel sia. recently, sick again. dwn wif flu,irritated throat n bit feverish at times. hai. i guess i really must cut dwn my intake of choco liao. continue at this rate, sooner or later i gona die. n of cus, aft last week of 'surprises', ytd early morning gt surprised by u again. thankies wor..v touched le. also dunoe wad to update liao le,jus feel like chilling out aft sch recently but den i tink of academic, sianz zibua liao. the same fear is in mi again lor althou ms lek told mi that im doing well..but den dunoe la. week 7 having CL fitting prac, n im still bad at my rgp insertion, i tink i will develop the phobia of having the lens dislocating in my eye liao. i mean seriously lor.. =/ tml staying back again..hai.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
11:44 PM
I guess i shld get on w my regular update of blog soon, if not it will turn rusty. Let mi see, todae is a pretty short dae. Morning really dread to get out of the bed, but no choice, nid to do my humphrey VF prac, n i gt free breakfast again..whee~ i must sae i v happy w my VF result cus its the 5th time i took this test n looking thru my 4previous records, i really nth to sae bt my result la, fixation losses,false -ve n +ve errors,pattern deviation all are nt within my normal range..todae stats lesson horrible la,she like rushing train, wad sia. i really damn laggy in stats le, at times waste so much time on it but still dun unstd. grrh. went to take measurements for clinic coat aft class, 35bucks for it. hai~ bo bian, den went IMM reach hm ard 5+ n slack!! ytd i went for my rgp fit n i order lens lor, $20 for a pair under SRP if nt if buy frm outside wld cost mi over 100bucks. yt guo rang is honor student, i feel like worshipping him as my study idol. roll of honors for all semester, can he pass some of his studying genes to mi? he's a nice guy la, but den sort of ke lian him cus his clinician keep asking him to close n open e door n lites, cus of the duochrome test.. mMm, surprises for 3daes..todae nearli heartattack sia, oh my god...thanks for ur effort oh. my choco bars,60*,35cents,1("v") ,msg strips n my name! woot*
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, November 21, 2005
11:54 AM
2weeks nv update..so shall update nw. Well, for the past two weeks kinda miserable ba n stoning my time away during lessons. so frm this week onwards, i must reali concentrate in class and be a happy ger. cus for tt two weeks, i'm not old stella. last nite i rang him up, n everything is settled. break up n be frens. at least things are not hanging in e air. the moment i put dwn phone, cried w immediate effect..n i called gy. must thanks him for companying mi thru e nite till 3+ when he still has his last fm paper todae..n i finalie turn in at 4am, surprisingly todae i still can tahan during lessons except BV prac..
HmM, must really buck up liao. 3rd week le..but den i c my last time de blog entry, sae wan to study hard also like nv do so le..still feeling bit of sad ba, but i believe i can get over it soon? wo ye bu zhi dao. i hope that the time when i c him in sch, n nt feeling aniting for him will come soon. althou the fond memories he gave mi aint alot, but dey are enuff to make mi dwn ba. my dear gers, thanks for ur concern okie..n of cus gy, i realli appreciate wad u did...n duck~ hoho~ i wan my makan sutra treat !!!
okie...one thing to rant: i hate biostats n BV!!!!!! this two hell modules.. -.-
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, November 07, 2005
7:30 PM
Days I nv updated liaoz!! Last thr is hari raya--> went my jie fu's hse visiting, ate alot of yummy food n cookies..enjoyed myself eating but den i tink i can control liao cus my weight is back to 42kilo alr. fri had CL fitting prac, aww! im stucked to koh again for prac..wish chris ng was e one taking mi...let lid eversion, quite a smooth prac althou iniitally was bit afraid of pulling pple's eyelashes out! hehe. try to evert melissa's lid w.o cotton bud n successful, well~ i definitely wun try this on sh de..haah! gems was boring, cus i feel like having mrs sim's eng lesson back in sec4..duhz. sat slpt almost the whole dae, the times im awake was during lunch n i went online to do my biostats quiz for chapt1. sun was a horrible day. whole dae lying on bed in pain(abdominal pain) no appetite to eat, no mood for anithing. went to c doct n he told mi intestine dunoe wad la. no cold/spicy food,no coffee,no cheese,no milk,no yougart,basically no diary products. n the best is plain porridge + steam fish. must well dun ask mi eat rite! kaoz. the painkiller he gif also doesnt prove to be much of effect.. -.- morning wake up, only feeling bit of pain. was relieved cus i thot i can attend lessons peacefully. but i was wrong!! on the train to sch, the stupid pain was back again. during BV prac v xing ku,but i ren. im gd at tolerating!! i din really pay attention to e briefing n demo sesson -die-lucky rajeev's 4-6 lessons was cancelled, if not i tink i wld faint liao,but that means make up class. hope i will feel better soon! pain, pls go away~~~!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
11:50 PM
New module started for today-->Biostatistics..sianzz! the lecturer turns mi off lur..so basically tried to survive thru the two hrs of lesson in lab..hai~ on e wae to fc2, walked pass tt stupid lion, kinda pissed off by wad he said la, the wae he said it. ji dan gao! chou ren duo zhuo guai! saw peg n lek xuan dere den sat dwn w dem. he came n met mi for lunch, but he alr eaten liao, sian zibua. so i buy fish burger, cant buy e meal cus he alr bought mi a drink liao. seems that todae words still cant come out of my mouth, cant tell him wad really i wan to sae n i can sae he realli dun sense aniting amiss. perhaps thanks to my acting skills of being normal infrt of him lor. he passed mi e lil gift he bought in tioman for mi,haah, his face is peeling skin but he still nt tanned de. aft lunch, did a crazy thing..dun mention wad it is la, den due to some time constraints, nv continue it. went off to cityhall, bit tempted to buy clothes, but heng nv. Had Bens & Jerrys ice cream treat..paradise..can sae it melted my sorrows? nahz..nt reallie le,but gt bit la. went sky garden n chill...haah! really love that place, but this time nv c many planes..grrh. den quite late le, home sweet home. thanks for companying mi for todae... =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
