my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
9:30 PM
Da nian chu san. the long weekend came to an end, sch again tml.. ytd whole day stayed at hm cus my jie fu family n mum's colleagues came over..haha! ordered Canadian pizza n kfc..ate alot. stayed up thru the nite...doing biostats,but den almost all dunoe. jus stucked w them if not i took v long time to attempt a qns.. aft that went to search for my gems topic thingy,but den i dunoe can or not le..want mike to help mi but den he playin WoW n by the time he finished his quest, its 5am liao..i alr log off le. yesh, i slpt at 5am in the morning n wake up at 8.30 to go mrs lee hse. ask two persons to gif mi morning CALLS at 8.30am. one wake mi up at 7+ the other SMS mi..dots.! but in e end i still earli, my dear elsie was v late sia. walked to mrs lee's hse..becus kam going out, so we cldnt go his hse...woot~ lee's two sons are v v cute n hyper...qinfeng n gin yang were like their daddies,carry them ard, entertaining dem..so cute lor..a while later,4/6 pple come..aha! the guys changed alot ba, mebbe due to e fact i long time nv c dem le,as usual, the moment dey arrive, they start their gambling den! when we were abt to leave, 4/7 pple came. stunned. saw wenqin..he still haven least changed abit..he extend his hands out to wish mi happy cny..surprised le, so li mao shang..yeps. den we go eekang hse nxt, he came n drives us dere. aha! the stake of lives of 4young ladies were in his hands...he more hiong den ky..drive kinda fast..phew~ reach his hse tt time, cus jianru nv bring oranges..he coop two of dem frm the basket of oranges...kinda obvious lor..chao gaoxiao! we played poker, initally played daidee,but change to blackjack cus mi n xy dere v sian lor...todae not on winning streak..that mike de gd luck no use todae unlike on chu yi. had ba gua n mac at his hse...sookim's craving for ba gua! ahha..n todae v xing fu le...xy feed mi..so no nid use my hands @ all~~ =) took train frm redhill w qin xy elsie n sk...mMm...qin v quiet lor...guess that's his nature ba. dun really mix w ani gers except his gerfren,well~ that's him last time lor nw nv changed too cus he felt that his gf is enuff le..thats wad he told mi last time la. but i v bad la, keep suaning him..hehe. went jiahao's hse..totally regretted going!! feel so awkward dere. but heng left a while later...cus dey going to movies...n i tag along lor...bit regretted tagging along also. felt extra. saw my dear cousin kel de gf...nth much to sae.. watched geisha again, some watched until doze off..movie ended..hm sweet hm. jus nw kel called mi n asked mi sth...dunoe wad to reply him..well! his frens too asked mi e same thing...ahaa...im hungry! i wan food!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, January 29, 2006
9:56 PM
First day of Woof~ year!! Reunion dinner last nite was wonderful~ feel more wen xing compared to last yr. quality instead of quantity. yeps, abalone n scallops n red wine. aft dinner, took out those sweets n chocos tt mi n sis bought for our cousins..well~ its really great to be a kid lur, no worries, jus pure enjoyment..see the smiles on their faces.. :)
Wake up at ten plus...quickly wash up n changed into my xing nian yi! yeps..jus nice when i finished, my jie fu arrived, my lil cousins too! so cute..forever, jia yun n terence love to coop sweets whenever dey are..headed to grandma hse..feast time..my ah yi uncles also dere, so basically is receive angbao time. jiahao also came dwn..aha! he wear until bit exaggerated la. nearli wan to 'slap' kelvin, cus he dere tease mi, even infrt of everyone..we(mi,kelvin,jiahao n vivian) played poker..each time its my turn be to zhuan, i pushed it to jiahao,if not i tink i wld lose more. initally was on losing streak, but den recoup my looses. start w 20cents n ended w $2.50..not that much but im contented la. haha. proceeded to dunoe whose's hse at yewtee..jus drink onli, nv eat..aha! i rmb his hse gt a leg massage equipment which all of us wld wan to have a try on last yr..n this yr is no diff.. we were so call 'queueing' up for tt machine..
last stop of e dae. my father side de grandparents...ehh~ receive angbao frm my dunoe which relative also..hahaha! initially onli we all dere, aft which my other aunties n cousins also arrived.. sth gaoxiao happen! i dunoe why lor, dey all couldnt recogise my dear brother...most of dem thot my bro is my boifren..wad e rite. diaoz...my taste gt that bad meh? =x den my bro he v sian diao, cus he felt that he's like an animal..haah. had a quick dinner...den the rest of my family went to watch i nt stupid..i went hm alone.
initally wana go chun dao he pan, i msg mike..n i tink he mis intepret mi..he thot i recommend him to go..n nt he company mi..kaoz.. n i thot he so gd la, wana order evm for mi cus he asked mi which set i wan...but den hor is he wan for him self when i told him i wan fillet..haha! so i sat infrt of tv, munching on my new yr goodies...open almost every tin of dem..woot! n someone nid to wait one hr for his evm..hoho!
this yr new yr is v diff...cus my jie fu join us for visiting..lucky for him, its smooth w.o much unwanted queries..yeps.. n i tink he earned alot of angbaos too... =) tml his family coming over..mama ordering pizza i guess..yeps..shall blog till here,long entry!
happy woof~ year..esp to ivan!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
2:36 PM
Nw at my cousin hse..the place where i wld also be having my reunion dinner...woot! saw my 4 lovely cousins..act cant sae four la..gt one is alr 15yrs old guy liao..lols~ went up here early cus i wan to escape the last min hsework at hm =x heez..watch tv n slack a while...den tidy up my clinic forms...my ah yi offer mi red wine! lst time drinking -->nice wor. but den aft drinking..face bit warm but nt red~.. my bro, mi , vivian n kelvin were di-siaoing the pri2 cousin..asking her if she like studying.. she said yes le,but den stressed. we den told her.. we den told her alot of crapz la..tease her until she wana wack us..lols! last nite i received a msg...i dunoe wad made u said those lor, perhaps i've really changed ba. but can tell mi why? n eventually, i hope our 'frenship wont come to an end' ba..hopefully it will go back to previously.. but den nvm~ shall not tink so much too, i've also sensed sth is wrong bw e both of us, but den nv raised it up..since u said it den liddis ba..hope u can focus n mug hard for the tests n sem exams ba...takkaire.happy cny to u too..its will not be advance cny by e time i type this...yeps...
happy cny pple! x)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, January 27, 2006
11:54 PM
This week came to an end.practically slpt alot each dae, but im still tired..wed went to watch memoirs of geisha w weiling n sh~nice movie lor! thou the theatre is cmi, but den budget la, cant expect much..thr nothing much happen, excpet that finally last chap for the dead pathology [glaucoma- the silent thief of death] todae which is fri! woot! althou i was running late, but den my mood wasnt spoilt @ all! koh was hyper high, nv scold pple lor..n di-siao ivan as da hong bao, dr koh said this too..toric SCL fitting was apparently quite alright, cus hor, u dun nid to tink of changing e base curve again n again cus toric lens onli gt one BC!! hahahah! gd! somemore during prac, it's been quite some time that eye candy uses CL Rm2! but den occasionally the lion spoil my view la. aft prac, went CL rm2 cus eyecandy doing lens delivery for weiling ma..hahahaha! so comical n joker n apparently quite pro in his clinic. asked chris yt weiqi n da fan shu bt the past point test, but den dun realli get wad dey are toking le..n yt face improve le wor!! nxt week gems test again..den marks e end of ESS le! but den die la, still tinking wan to tok bt legislation of CL or not..n i sure die one la. end of e dae leaving spoc thru e main clinic, i saw him,mmm,since long i nv saw him le, well~ on the wae hm, i was luffing non stop when the four of us tok bt another da da hong bao that is 'manhunk' lols. My OITP cfm le, all the forms also submitted alr..hope i wun regret it ba. Mike sae since its a rare experience, i shld go n he wld be giving mi moral support..lols, den i ask him why not he gif mi some financial support n guess wad he said? 'u tink im ur sugar daddy' xD funny.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, January 23, 2006
10:21 PM
Brand new week! CNY is nearing..but that is definitely not sth to be rejoice over,perhaps for only a moment ba. Tests n sem exams seem to be thronging in the air rather than the festive mood. Im still struggling with my academics...sigh~ bv, wad the heck is toking bt...damn blur okies. another one is biostats..if in the mood shall do my tut for chap ll later..during the 1.5hr at lib rm todae, mi dayne n weiling were 'PI' la to put it in nicer terms, haha, otherwise noe as kpo. were blog surfing, tracking dwn pple frenster accounts, dere making wild guesses are both of dem still tgt or ani chance of progression..ahaa! n came across some 'manhunk' pics..ahem! c liao totally freak out..omg! kie la, althou wad the 3ofus were doing kinda waste of time? but i still had enjoy myself luffing like mad la..lols~~
tomorrow tue..dread it. -.- sem exams timetable is out... sigh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, January 20, 2006
11:59 PM
Woohooo!!! Todae althou is a long n tiring dae..but i enjoy shopping wif my 2mushrms!! morning practical...tortured each other w rgps again..n of cus...smuggle some softlens for myself n my fren..total 4pairs! pro rite? haha..not onli mi hor..my classmates also did tt.. =x had lunch den rotted at fc2 while waiting for our gems test...heez, meanwhile saw some eye candy..guoyi chris da fan shu..heez! so happy...gems test..lucky i gt tok..lucky simon posed himself as a target for us..during rajeev lesson..my mind wandered off~ lols..reali nt in e mood for lessons la..heng he ended lessons 5min earlier...
aft that! bugis time!!!!! lst stop to guan yin miao bai bai! yehz! makan wanton noodle,but the serving is small...grrh! n ta da! we begin our shopping spree! weiling has the greatest shou huo, spent the most ! haha...as wad she said..i reali tried alot of clothings lor until i reali paiseh to go to the same fitting rm la..guess the sales ger must be thinking i mad liao,try so much but nv buy. anw, had a fun time trying those clothes la,weiling shld noe y..my chou si dun anihow tell pple hor! in e end, bought two white tops! saw one pink top i like le,but dun hav my size..sad! den while huiyun was looking at shoes...gt one brand Americaya...while ling was pronuncing this..i thot wad le..america de ya? meaning america de duck? i still thot is wad food cafe sia..malu!
reach hm at 1045..better than last week..was v v tired..my legs v v suan sia..stand all e wae from bugis to wlands...n worse still hp went flat..so boredom during half of e trip hm. mum n cousins dey all going malacca tml..i also wana go..but make up lessons frm 9-2 hell le! but i shallnt complain..cus todae outing w mushrms was fun! hopefully someone will get sth for mi...hahahaha!!!
okie...todae since i pangseh my sis go out wif mushrms..i hope my sis tml dun pangseh mi for dinner...i went shopping todae..she also..but alone. haah..when mum saw us wad we bought..she was in awe..lols..n my sis encourage mi to get more clothes n shoes even thou my warobe almost full le! yeh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
10:42 PM
Week 12 going to be over soon, once week 13 is gone, it will be CNY and once we returned from the CNY break, its term tests + prac tests n after which Sem Exams. Tue nite ms lek msn mi asking us where we looked so tired..n tt dae during BV lessons, monica asked the same qns too. well~ the ans is v obvious wad n i suspose u all shld noe the ans since dey have gone thru wad we are going thru nw. Seems like there's not really enuff time le, on top of the hectic timetable, we still nid to make use of our free time for lab practise...not only one module,but three okie! BV itself is quite jia lat liao lor..seriously, i realli miss Year one life, cus no need stae back for lab practise.. n at least im not struggling like wad im in yr2 nw. Wad shangling told mi last time indeed true, yr1 n yr3 kinda smooth sailing except that yr2 is war time.
Today only 4hrs of vivien's lessons..ocular pathology 2 is v v worse. Come to tink of it, ocular anatomy and patho one is nuts, compared to patho 2. So many many posterior eye diseases, slide test is worse la, every fundus will look the same la. On a lighter note, the 8 of us went CCF n Spinnovex aft class..but cant find our senior de FYP on thermo tech eyes~ as usual went to disturb chris lor, like wad we did last yr..but this time we nv take goodies bag n our tour to Guild Hse le.
Shall update tml. tml having gems test n cl fitting prac..aww! RGPs again.. no dislocation i hope. feeling so dwn,dwn nw.. =/ where are u...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, January 16, 2006
10:30 PM
AhaH!! Back to sch aft a slacking weekend doing nthz..apparently totally no mood for lessons..know the revised test date for clinopt tests,sia la, VF included again n anna said we did badly for VF test..aww!!! I have more confidence in scoring for VF compared to BV le.. break time went to get my lens..intially is do RGP delivery de..but den hidayah sae she will deliver my purevision + O2 optix lst..aft that become no time liao..so haven get my rgp yet. n hidayah v v cute lor..woot! all thanks to her..my supply of solution is woo!! hehez..the lil secret bw mi n her.. but den have difficulty carrying dem hm..v heavy lor..heng weikiat n ivan help mi carry on train..hee! todae during rajeev lessons, those who he called to ans qns are those sleepy ones..but i noe why he called mi n weiling le..cus we were talking away! xD hehe..heck la..jus no mood for studies! in enjoyment mood..but if this continues to go on..den X_x mMm..campus superstar jus now..kewL! huiyun is falling in love w the RI guy..haha! and jus nw went to have a look at www.campussuperstar.com.sg heee...this link is in my fave liaoz..
tml is a stupid long dae...8-5 wif a miserable one hr break...w 4hrs of prac str8..pls! hope i will survive!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Sunday, January 15, 2006
6:34 PM
My weekend sundae gona be over soon. very relaxed until there's no words for it. It's been sometimes when i SLEEP + stay online till the wee hours of sat/sun to chat, pool WITHOUT the worries of studying for tests. The feeling is really NICE!! talking crapz, suanings..surfing net..woo! Aft many attempts, i finally found the ILT company de website n noe wad it stands for..althou i noe its bo liao, but nvm la even thou tt fella still tinking whether to send his resume dere or not. Really slpt alot during the weekends...shiok! Must really enjoy myself till CNY cus aft CNY is term tests,prac tests n sem exams -->taboo!!! But pls pls, i dun wish to stae at hm during cny to study..hopefully plans work out..todae my dear sis went market..copy mi! she also bought sweets+choco for my lil cousins..but nt bad le, the wrappers also v attractive!! shall coop some to eat..lalalaa x)
tml getting my RGP lens liao! but will i wear it or jus for show case only? cos the cost of maintainence is kinda high...the soaking solution cant coop frm sch le unlike saline..but i nv coop saline b4 also la! shall c tml how lst..n i hope no dislocation, nt tt i dun trust my senior, but den my eyes will rotate..
chaoz!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Saturday, January 14, 2006
12:49 AM
Saturday morning liao! Friday aft rajeev lesson, mushrms outing to chinatwn! fun ! time w them is always so fun la.. *grinz* haha! we went chinatwn makan lst! we ordered chee chong fan.carrot cake.chee kway.duck rice.peanut paste.seasme paste.steam egg.ice kachang. n shared the food.. full n delicious! wad can i sae..eating is paradise! but gaining wt is another issue. fat liao! haha! aft eating, went OG n walked those crowded streets...alot of pple le! tink cus todae nv rain lor..gdgd. means that i no nid to wear cold clothes ani more..hopefully the rain season is over n sun shine!!! i bought a belt n some choco, the wrappings kinda attractive le..shall gif dem to my lil cousins..left there ard 10+..but i reach hm at 12. cool~ cus we took 143 to JE den took train back...woo~ the bus ride brought mi back lots of memories....
ytd morning de CL prac..apparently anna nt in gd mood le...i realised my rgp fitting skills is still so lousy sia..haha! die die...must buck up buck up! n i reali forget how to use radiuscope alr, so todae when anna asked sh to verify the BC, we dunoe!! wana to ask mou mou ren for help, but paiseh la...so ask hamburger...lols~ well welll!
oh ya~ we took some pics todae. hehe..all thanks to huiyun's camera..yeh! mushrms--> thanks for the outing oh..love ya all *huggss*
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
2:09 PM
Yeh~ no sch today, public holis, wonder tml if i shld pon stats or not, v tempted to le cus tml dun intend go practise for prac so only go sch for 2hrs or less than that cus may ong sure earli dismiss de. hmM, aft 2tests ytd, i was enjoying the whole nite infrt of tv n on phone la. clin opt test so so la, but BV quite dead lor, last qns case study diagnosis wrongly le!!! imagine nxt time my patient come to mi n i diagnose wrongly and w optometrist being legislated..-.o this BV test my lateral muscles v guai, nv shift ard, cus i v scared tt momo la..but den i tink mi n wl de mistakes t the same lor... I jus love slping n slping ...esp in the cool weather...really simply no mood to study for thr de complications test. studyin for that two tests drained mi out totally...the nxt clin opt n bv test gona clashed again..gosh! n we received the dates for our clinopt prac test alr..fast.. sem exams like nearing le hor...n soon going to attachment n yr3 le!! but b4 that, CNY! *winkz*
fri mushrms outing...yay!!! at least there's sth for mi to look forward to (:
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
2:34 PM
Its A saturday aftnn already! I pigged from last nite 9+ until 12noon todae. nv even finished watching my ai de zhang men ren. this one still small matter,but my two tests on bv will be also finished la. hahaha! clin opt jus finished reading thru, nv memorised. die ah, both mi n weiling also nv memorised! x_X i getting more n more last min when it comes to studying for tests, but not in planning for outings. my CL fit test was liddis, nw bv+clin opt also liddis..pray hard i can scrape thru ah.we got back our stats test on wed when we jus finished it on tue, may ong realy efficient sia n she finished her hypothesis chapter alr. went to prac lab for fri de CL fitting prac test on wed...i really got traumatised by RGPs again!! disolocate n dislocate n dislocate! but guan yin bao you, fri (which is ytd) my prac test was QUITE ok la, was kinda stressed up by anna n even ACCIDENTALLY give her a kick! hahaha! lucky ivan was my subject..but den hor, he v tall le! so i was standing when using the slit lamp w my right leg 'trembling'.. tink i nv adjust him properly ba. heng heng my lens insertion on ivan n myself was ok, no dislocation! but den he teared like river when the rgp was in his eyes. gems class was sianz le..conversational thingy, n nxt week maybe gt test..omg!!! how how? i really dunoe how to tok lor, other i noe i qutie talkative la,but wad comes out of my mouth are mainly rubbish. how to gif constructive comments? recently have been raining la, esp during the times on my wae back hm frm wlands. ytd waited for sis, we went buy dinner n its was pouring. makes no diff if im sharing umbrella w her or nt, cus when i reached hm, i was wet n my bag too, n this includes her BK dinner..hahahah!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
11:23 PM
Aww, lst day of sch n down with biostats..grrh..pls dun gif mi too bad a mark okie? cant finish the paper on time...tink too much referencing alr..morning prac kinda fun, do orthoptics training, mMm..den get two more signatures but so? still 5 to go i tink, nv expect that we four all the ones w e most 'haven get signatures' shrugs..but instead of ms lek making us gan jiong, we make her more gan jiong..lols xD during the 3hr break, went to edit the essay, kao eh! i nearli wan to vomit out my lunch, i dunoe bt sh..hooz. almost wana find a big window to jump dwn sia,but jus make do w it la..huiyun n weiling dere suaning us lor, cus we were referencing from their report n dey finished editing v fast lor..
ytd nite gt the campus superstar! i love the guy who sing pu tong peng you! when he smile, he's charming lor..woot! the guys really sing better..geez~ nt i tico okies.but its a fact. n issit a tit for a tat? y must u all of a sudden in 2006, be the lst one to mention his name? u really made mi teared do u noe that? n i onli catch some slp at 3am+ n i guess u dun mean it ba as wad u said, guess u ytd nite realli bonkers le n be glad that i nv slam dwn the phone.n i will TRY not to mention things tt u dun like la, c e word try? winksz~ jk la.
oh ya! i chosen my attachment placement liao! IGARD PTE LTD n EMPEROR OPTICS & CONTACT LENS(Lot1) but no guarantee will get into either of this two also,but i hope to get into IGARD w sh of cus..well~ shall let the lecturers decide?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Sunday, January 01, 2006
12:00 AM
Yea~ todae we had 3pple outing...hehe! Susposed to meet @ 12 at lot1,but all of us were late. Company ernest to look for jobs @ loT1,but none, either dey wan female or he cant commit for the time. Had lunch @ 'Lets Eat' ! the fave place where mi n dear huiyu will go aft our swim! it's ernest lst time dere..but he nv bao ang bao le. lols *inside joke* during our meal, tok bt the chronicles of Narnia again...he n his wardrobe...fantasy imagination..even if u jobless go into wardrobe, also wont enter the land of Narnia de wor.. :P aft lunch, we went to B1..saw huiyu de shuai ge engineer..we went Emperor, ahem~ guoyi nt working but saw zhenyang instead..tok to him bt CL..hahahahaa! proceeded to IMM, we also walked ard aimlessly dere le. but also keep a look out for jobs for ernie...yeps..its was raining heavily while we were waiting for the shuttle bus, v chilly cold as well. den the couple infrt us were so inconsiderate la...their umbrella..den ernie dere keep wah lao wah lao..chao gaoxiao! pple also cut our queue..when we reached je, rain stopped le..dear went off lst, den i pei ernie to jec de kbox cus there wana employ pple...yeps, todae he finalie filled in one application form...happy rite? hope u will get the job ba!b4 tt went skate ring awhile but it was freezy cold so left a while later le. nite time was spent w my family. went Old Wlands dere makan. tok crapz over the dinner..had satay, stingray, sotong, frog legs, soup, spicy fish, kangkong,he nv realised that almost all the food are spicy n his precious daughter dun take spicy food la..lols.but nvm~ still had a nice dinner too ytd also went jec for lunch w lao ba, ivan n sh...i dunoe y..i find it as a v enjoyable lunch. we toked about our sec sch life, ivan de is the most interesting wor...
okies...finish blog le..the clock strikes 12 le wor...happy 2006!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
