my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Friday, December 30, 2005
12:34 PM
I hate stats. my notes n txt infront of mi, but yet i choose to face the comp doing nth. jus blog surfing n frenster surfing. its friday nw already, yeps, one more dae to new yr eve n 3daes to end of this term break. bv assignment still nt yet completed, tests n tests n tests..freak! pple cleared their tests b4 elearning , ours le? all cramped during elearning week n aft break. permuation combination probability binominal..all so foreign.. i nid help~ jus nw evening had a chat w huiyu, entertaining le! i noe this sat wun be as fun as last sat. cus i noe kacuah wont be free de. n my mum dun allow mi to stae out at nite lor...wad a sianz rite? it will deem pathetic if i stae at hm on sat nite, but most prob i will la. if not i can go esplanade or sentosa for countdwn! grrh. seems that at times, i reall i get irritated v easily. sometimes i realli dun like those hu claim dey have not ...... but in act. fact they alr had. grh. this few daes, i have this weird feeling, are u alrite this few daes?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
11:52 AM
Woohoo! lstly wana wish our dear short mushrm sweet 18th bdae! yay! finally finally not underaged alr..may all ur dreams come true!!! ytd is a tiring day sia. morning went back sch for lab, den 'tortured' ivan w rgp,but den i thot onli nid one optimum eye nia, but is nid one pair..jia lat! haha!! fri going back again. aft lab, we went plaza..nv change much that place except gt the extension. due to the fact i nv bring my wallet, cant buy some things i wan le..n my meals all are suan zai weiling for temp. haha! we went kopitiam la kopi/teh w our kaya toasts n two boiled eggs..pple walked past us keep staring at us..nv c pple eat kaya toasts b4 issit?? >.< reached hm ard 5+..take a look at those stereograms info..sianz sia,nt fun @ all. Had a bath at 6+ den headed for cwp watch -chronicles of Narnia- waited so long for the stupid lift..but ernie n huiyu haven came yet. help hy buy her popcorn set, someone suggested buy mixed lor! the movie was not bad la, but i prefer harry potter! nite time, was trying to fig out wad to be done for the stereograms..still blurred w e facts. Was laming w tt ernst! the zhen zi n jia zi...den did some parts of the stereogram until 1+..can u imagine? i take so long jus to do a small portion..grrh! My holis tickling past, min n min, sec by sec..n all my tests untouched, but im still in e slacking mood!! muahahah xD
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, December 26, 2005
10:57 PM
Yay! todae i enjoyed myself outside,althou im not the bdae ger! geez. we met earlier to get ling's present! yay!! haha...den our dear bdae came, had lunch @ cArtel, due to the fact that there are 8pple --> ling szehui harrison ahheng lihua xiuping huiyun n mi, we waited quite long. lst time dine at cartel, nt a bad experience. traded my fishnchips w ah heng for his pork ribs n harrison for his softshellcrabs..nice le. the pork ribs is nice! free flow of bread also nice. aft makan, went walk walk the stretch of orchard-fareast,wisma,etc...walk until is really legs giving way!!took neos at fareast,and we had our dinner at Newton's circle. Wah...we shared hokkien mee,satay,fried carrot cake,oyster omelette...very delicious,i like the hokkien mee n carrot cake! xD aft dinner alr 8+ liaoz, well walking to e bus stop, i tripped n guess wad? my slippers the strap came off...so i walk like limping lor..pple keep staring at me. heng my sis bring my OP slippers to causewae for mi. went to get ticks for tml show,but den hor...dun think the seats are gd le...dun come n kill mi hor!
okie la..really really time for serious studying? but den i still no mood la. wana go kbox n shopping for new wallet n jacket le...saw the adidias jacket todae, aww the price is so steep. n i wana get a pierre cardin wallet! but den no money..my 80bucks from CL study alr used until 7788 le..hu wana fiance my shopping spree!!!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
Look at e time i blogged this entry 3.35am. and im still freshly awake, reason being i was slping the whole of aftnn on xmas! i slpt at 3am+ in the wee hrs on sat nite--> i dunoe why i stae up to chat w someone hu keep suaning mi+doing bv prac report..must be nt in e rite state of mind. woke up near to twelve n doze off at 2pm, slpt all e wae till 5 to go cwp for dinner. had the jolly christmas pizza..the cheesy crust is woot! xD was tempted to buy shoes at Charles n Keith le..but den in e end sis bought, i nv. this yr de xmas, received 4presents so far..milkbottle frm jiahao,dunoe y he bought mi that too.. a heartshaped Swarovski necklace frm sis,superstar concert vcd frm mum n chocos frm my dear huiyu! xD still gt more to come or nt? haha...MmM, till nw i still tinking of the weiqiang cum ernie cum huiyu cum mi outing..wonder when will have this 4pple outing again..cus kacuah going enlisted in early jan le n ernie shld be starting work soon. seriously im nt in e study mood lor, perhaps as wad anna said 'go play first since majority of the test in 2nd week' grrh..tinking of bv dampens my mood. feel like smacking m.lim upside dwn. as for stats..oh well~ i haven touched it too..tinking of plans for countdwn, but mum forbade mi to go to those crowded places..sianz... kies.. time for bed! im hungry~
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
11:40 PM
MeRRy XmAS!~! yeps...todae is xmas eve..enjoyed myself!! xD must thanks dear huiyu for planning todae kbox outing!!! we were early, so we went to the rm lst, afterwhich ernst n weiqiang came. wad can i sae man~ i finaly saw weiqiang todae!!!!!! he v shy le..sing quite softly lor even w mike,but i tink he suits xiong tian ping songs lor. mMm..as for ernie,i nth to sae. he sang really well~ it reali makes a diff .. n he kinda high la, sing sing sing sudden hop onto the sofa.. *grins* today really gt er (ear) fu at kbox..sing finish le, we went orchard cus kacuah wana go lib@orchard the train was crowded. aww! todae the two guys v lame..till den i gt a taste of their coldness...esp weiqiang, he really v cold. we had late lunch at subway,free treat from the guys..so nice rite? hehe...at dere both of dem was talking bt ernie's dunoe wad business, i dere listen also listen until blur sia. den he told mi he wana try hard lens...which is rgp la, i was shocked n tinking to myself he damn brave sia, not scared the initial adaptation,but oweing to the high cost, he nv tried.hehe..jealous or not? i get my hard lens for onli 20bucks. went walk walk ard town area,crowded crowded, weiqiang left earlier cus he gt church, so left the 3of us. we went paragon..the toilet dere like also quite high class le..lols. a while later,huiyu gotta rush hm le...so she cab back to cck, we lobang her cab to cck also. went dwn to B1,but sadly emperor was closed..haha! den i took train back to wlands meet mum. crowd crowd n crowd again. due to mi wearing lens for over 12hrs todae n including one hr of slp, i had difficulty removing the lens in LE which is one day acuvue. kaoz. surprising no prob in removing the focus dailes.. n left eye is all red nw...pain!
okies..huiyu! this is fer u! thanks for ur gift n the name tag n ur plan n ur treats todae!! woot! xD hope u've enjoyed ur celebrations wif ur cousins!! love ya!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
11:50 PM
Elearning coming to an end le, or rather my elearning week consist of face learning also. 4daes of going back sch consectively,tml finalie a break dae frm sch! i really will cherish the time of staying at hm n nt complaining of growing fungi more. patho test was soso la, those qns frm macular chapt my ans kinda slip short. todae CL fitting test, omg, wad can i sae? for mcq, i tink some qns, like 2ans also can, gt one qns i tink i cock eye, see wrong axis. sigh. wonder how come so blur? as for those calculations, really diff frm past yr papers lor! still thot can depend on ling, but den our tables separated -.- so onli depend on myself. but no use lor, cus i todae morning den started studying at 9+.. aft test,went to continue ms dawn de CL study, in total for todae n ytd, was fitted w 8pairs of lens, mostly w stinging sensation..but den the money was worth it..80bucks for 2hrs of project. hope that gt more of this kind of CL study, den can earn money!!! this is my 2nd time being a subject for CL study, hope more of this willl come den can earn easi money! had ptn in the evening at marina steamboat. v v full ah..but i like also nv eat much. sometimes i reali tink some guys reali v ungentleman lor..nthz to sae. onli care for themselves. grrh,but at least guankai was nice enuff to peel prawns for mi! =D so in return, 'dump' him w quite alot of food. went arcade play play a while, played daytona,shld have listen to duck play auto de, manual one v sian lor. left the place ard ten plus n reach hm ard 11+..dragged myself to bath. Since elearning week gona be over, no excuse to be lazy le. stella ah stella, pls pls wake up n study hard can or ntz!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, December 19, 2005
11:23 PM
few daes no blog le. life is kinda mundane la. except ytd went sentosa w some 4/3 peeps - xy hest ying elle elsie hersis joyce chrysa n the guys qf gy n kw. enjoyed myself le! esp getting wet. playing volley is reali nt my type..so aft a while i sat dwn dere watch dem play lor. elsie played until her fingers red sia. kong bu. ard 4+ it rained heavily, so we went dwn to the pavilion take shelter...had our food as well. the guys also dunoe wad dey doing lor. tt time very cold sia. rain die dwn liao went to take our shower. long queue. yeps. so waited. lucky mi n xy decided to bath cus last nite when i reach hm i was simply too lazi to bath again. had dinner @ pastamiana, our left overs were all eaten by e guys. dey are simply hungry. ate reali alot.. gosh! den went NZ icecream for our tian ping, treated e guys icecream.aft wich take 188 back to lot one play arcade. stae dere until close. chatted awhile den we all nid to catch last train back le. reach hm at 12midnite. tired. *i love e pics we took at sentosa* qf is simply so cute la. tried figuring my cl fit tut..n tokin bt tt, i tink my thr de test xiong duo ji shao, so weiling..u noe wad to do huh. patho so so ba.
somehow...jus feel weird todae. dunoe why. yeps. as wad df said, tml will be a betta day. will it? my elearning week somehow become like so #(*^(&$^. i shall stop grumbling bt the tests n stuff le, cus nth will change. yeps..jus gotta move on w life.......or rather is dere one?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
8:50 PM
Today im damn pissed off la aft knowing patho test is postponed to nxt wed..althou the facts nv really stae in my mind,but i rather have the test todae! if not my efforts of staying up on tue n last nite all dwn e train. n the gd thing is nxt mon-thr going back sch when its e-learning week. n wed gt patho test, thr i gt CL fitting test which i haven touched. becus of this patho test,i push back those lab reports n other stuff to be done lor..but nw patho still adds on to e burden. wth! n its her fault, nt our fault. why cant u be more alert when u were telling the class which slides the test will be until instead of being not so serious? >.< den go sch, dunoe y,i feel that rajeev also getting on my nerves..guess i not in gd mood alr tt time le.. ytd had the amo talk, n b4 that was studying patho until grrh..c patho again. realli dread it. the talk was so so la,wonder if their lens really that gd or not? den during the so call informal quiz, get the gv movie tick,got is one free pair..in e end onli one free tick..bo liao le..n tt lionel chao extra la,asked qns which is answered in e slide but obviosuly he dunoe la cus he was slping awae n since he's working for amo,he shld also noe e product well rite..n his gang of frens all wear white except he..so 'outstanding' but den at least saw guoyi at e LT!..lols..act doesnt make ani diff if gt c him or not..okie -crapz- last sat,i thot its e end of everything le but i was wrong la...well~ dunoe la. life nwadays is so wu liao! duck! slping pills+alcohol?!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, December 12, 2005
6:50 PM
Monday bluez! Todae nv went sch, v obvious de was sick la althou todae i feel much much better compared to ytd. but den i nv go take mc la,cus todae i basically wan to rest at hm since no lab le..but i wld be contradicating myself if i sae i hate to miss lessons..?ytd was realli hell, vomiting/fever/headache etc. was slping thru out e whole dae n my plan for studying patho failed. n till nw, i onli finished one topic onli. dead flat. todae wake up, head was still spinning, at least fever was gone le. appetite improved abit onli, lethargic n was also slping practically thru out..n todae n ytd, sorry to those whom i nv reply ur msg or pick up ur calls, simply too lazi stretch my hand n press hp. nite time is here, hopefully tml i will be in e rite state of mind to go sch..hope that bv wun give mi any headaches..n well~ patho! hope i can finish a few slides tonite. i dun wish to fumble on my every lst test for this sem..n yw~ appreciated ur concern ytd le..wah sey! even volunteer to take notes frm mushrms n sent to my hse so tt i can study n ur tons of sms...xie xie ni! grrh! still nt much appetite for dinner, tink i will get to lost some weight again,hopefully! n last nite xing ku my mum le, cus she nv have a wink of slp until quite late,ying wei when im dwn w fever,she always will stae up n company mi de..muackz!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, December 09, 2005
11:56 PM
Todae is a long long dae!! class ended @ 5.30pm! every fri sure drag de..all becus of gems. n todae my gems is cancelled, so happy sia. went to prac lab, but also nt really in the mood lor, v tired!! todae during cl fitting, i realli mental block, cant tink properly lor..v cham! wad pooling,touch,blahh!! 4hrs of prac str8 can really damage alot of brain cells.morning de prac, v gaoxiao le! i so happy when yf is my subject, our k-readings kinda similar, so we agar agar know wad we shld do le..n she v cute lor!! but come to yx, v paiseh, nt much remaining time left n i still fitted 5lens on her..sigh` wonder nxt time yr3 fit so mani lens, my patient sure hate mi one. aft class went town with duck! hmM, the lightings not very nice le. dine at food republic..grrh! i tink i will put on AT LEAST a KG todae, he la, still go n order hagao when we alr hard our nasi rice(chicken) n murtabak(mutton)..woo! when i was eating e murtabak, hoho! sth funny happen! =x finish eating le, walk walk n digest...went lido de mos, wana find my dear niece de, but she off work le, so we headed for mrt. n guess wad? my 6/4.5 eyes spotted MAC selling milkshake!! milkshake le! i thot i can onli drank it in msia! n ya..he bought strawberrymilkshake la..drank abit which realli make mi nw v v v v full!! i nid to diet liao!!!! but im tempted by the tub of bens n jerry ice cream la!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
9:27 PM
Recently, find that my blog is kinda dead. haah. its okie..cus my frens blog are kinda dead too =x pretty tired from all those lessons n pracs..nth really perks mi out frm aniting. last nite wana do some stats..but aft chionging the two damn reports, i felt so tired. aft tv i drifted off to laalaa land. wanted to wake up at 6+ but 9am den i get up. did tut for clinopt n stats..which realli drained my energy. last nite had a short chat w weiqi, nv realised that i had such a cute senior lor..my god. n i ask her to do mi a favour, thanks ger! todae's patho was bad!! i realli dere dreaming lor, tinking of things which i shldnt be tinking of, esp when vivien was talking bt the wet/dry ARMD n the amsler chart to check for scotoma n metamorphopsia.. (~_~) anything related to patho, i realli dread it. n guess wad, i overslpt on e wae back. slpt until sembawang, at tt time i still thot i at wlands n was tinking perhaps i can stop at admiratly n take bus, heng i nv if not i will land myself in yishun alr. grrh. tml u going to be enlisted alr, wish u all e best kie. althou i noe todae's my ans is not wad u wan n i alr expected ur presence, but glad to hear u said tt its okie. i will make ur tt ur xiao ding dang wont be mistreated by mi la..u takkaire kies...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, December 04, 2005
12:27 PM
Moved on to another aspect of CL fitting, lens fitting evaluation. Wad more can i sae? I failed again on fri's prac, two lens fitting practically being loose fit..i nearli wan to pengz when anna come in n take a look. n luckily ytd, i saw how a tight fit lens looks like on ling's eyes..thanks ger! fri during my lunch break, i saw xinyi! dunoe y le, when i saw her, felt a tinge of sadness n feel like crying(guess its e aftermath of my CL prac)..jie,i miss u alot leh! thou we both in cls, budden seldom c each other de..long time no hav heart to heart talk le hor like in sec sch times?i know recently u not feeling v gd like mi, budden must get over it soon okie? i'll help u w ur 'food sampling' if u nid mine help kie? =) looking forward to 4/3 gathering, elsie,how's its going on? miss the joker guys... Jus now mum ask mi bt him, wan to noe my response? i was luffing away when i told her blah..dun even noe wad happen to mi liaoz. tml is week6 le, n tml gt BV prac again, grrh! hope can get signatures again..cus i noe ms lim wont be asking for our service again. feel contradicting le, sometimes i like her, sometimes i dun like her. but den at least she pointed out where's my prob during rgp insertion. v grateful to her for this..but at times during lesson, she realli grrh! n emphasize much on self learning, grrh.. dear n elsie,tml prom nite rite? dress up nice nice n enjoy urselves oh. dear..take pics for mi to c! *winks*
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
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