my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Saturday, June 28, 2008
11:20 AM
My off dae is here again. but past few daes during wrk, im literally -no mood- to do anyting. tue company dinner @ ahyat seafood. not really that fantastic. but gd and super fulling dinner. the dinner was held over several reasons. annie bdae laoda n lao er promotion and for mi, but tts nt e main pt. the series of announcements was made aft the meal. tears equilibrium. was holding ying's hands n she tell mi no matter wad dun lose equilibrium. cabbed home. tt nite couldnt slp. the moment i step home, jus teared n teared. aft bath online msn w xy jie. having a heart to heart talk w her. ger, dun tink so much kies. aft tt talk to franky. hai tt time tink i still tearing. duno wad to talk too. aft tt talk to jie on phone. only managed to slp at 5am and waking up at 9+ e nxt dae. reach wrk slightly earlier so went open door first. initally wanted to slack a while first in the rx rm b4 i on e lights but gt cust. sianz each time i open door slightly earlier sure gt hiccups de. tt whole dae was doing displays n wiping specs. if not i sure KO. thr during wrk, annie nt feeling well. so andrew take over. so meaning i bao ga liao again. mi n aiying meet dao a t10 cust, get complain jiu get complain la. sianz. nite time bz. progressives ah. tian ah. i also duno wad im doing during dotting. so i jus measure my frame size n calculate e ht out. ended wrk super late w/o dinner. so andrew bought us s11 dew western for us. had our meal doing some cleaning up tidy up e jobs den hm. reach hm ard 12. sian fri i noe i can slack cus no govt. whole dae was slacking until nite time bz a while onli. my two SA all kai dan gt x lens one lo. my dear aiying shared some w mi. yehs. aftnn had a chat w laoda. ta shi cong ming de. aft tt call, ying understand how im feeling. my mood immed frm top fall rite to pit bottom. nite time worse still. ying keep asking mi nt to tink so much. like wise to her too. had jap @ s11 . angie joined us too. went out to chill aft tt. u are not stupid, im not either. sigh` gg swimming soon.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, June 23, 2008
12:30 PM
aft wrking for 5daes, finally i got my off. tis 5daes, feeling kinda tired. keep getting headaches, guess its due to my late nites up mob tv-ing and snubbiness.
so continue-ing frm my last entry, went kbox @ AMK aft wrk w my colleagues last sun. sang until closing. althou no cover charge, but with all the misc. charges n taxes, the bill is quite exp le. but im not complaining la, cus the nxt dae dey all take turns to treat mi meals n drinks. haha! cab home, reali wan to complain the cab uncle. not professional at all. mama de. if i noted dwn his plate no, i sure lodge a complaint one lo.
off on tue. wake up go lib had lunch. went to cut n dye my hair. quite cheap onli le. $35 in total! =D i also love my hair color. waffles dae. but no half price cus i takeaway waffle. da bao for my SA n franky to eat. i reach at 8+ but dey all bz so until 9 den haf e waffle. but bit cold le. i must admit kinda pathetic le, 3persons share one waffle. tt nite quite pissed off la. i tink i always doing stupid tings. u dun take e initiative i also dont lo. in e end, i won! cus wed someone waited for mi aft wrk n had late dinner tgt lor. wed quite a bad dae. initially thot annie off ma. but she came dwn. bad weather forecast. to make matters worse, the other 3 heavenly kings also dwn. omg.
all went well on thr, but fri was shit la. haven seen u alr quarrel le. haiyo.! aftnn was ok, but nite time u wan to dig out morny matter n talk bt it rite, in e end ignorance time! sat as well~ annie came late. she bought us sushi tei de food! omg. so yummy. my two SA nv eat much, so i polish dem off, but my stomach still feel kinda empty. tt dae my incentives quite alot. haha! so happy. i don care u are hu hu de fren, wanting my incentive, i still wont offer u much discount. even yuting also buay tahan mi when i told her tt cust wan giodarno frame. haha! catch kungfu panda @ cwp aft wrk w steven. the characters so cute. haha, tt nite franky ask mi out for movie, but too bad~ in e end he n mariania went marsiling for food. tink tt time he still tinking tt im still angry lor. but indeed im. who ask u.
sun woke up late. 9.44am. but tis time i nt tt gan jiong cus franky also gt key. so i also man man lai la. it was drizzling when i reach amk. franky shelter mi frm e traffic light dere since my both SA alr in shop le n im late le. aft tt he went market buy breakfast. yeh! time pass kinda fast that dae. aiying bro came dwn make specs. having loads of fun lo. aft wrk catch 'don mess w zohan' at amk hub. nice humorous show! movie ended ard 12+ althou still gt last train hm, but luckily switched to the idea of cabbing home. i won for e dae. =D
n tada todae mon im off. went jb. evening time met jessie for a swim. yes. swim. tink im swimming slower n slower. reason getting fat le. haish! aft swim went csc de arcade. super high when playing the st. fighter. yesh. i tink e machine suffers quite a bit under my hands. had subway for dinner. healthy. called franky told him bt my decision. act. i also ageed w him la. he's not stupid. being guilty, initally wana go dwn yishun de, but in e end ended up @ amk mac. mariania treat. gt one guy beside us was watching kungfu panda on his portable dvd player. so all our eyes on e player. aft that guy left, franky n mariania divert their attention to e lcd tv for soccer. my two sa left earlier..so company franky watch soccer a while den took train back. i also duno wads wrong w mi tt moment. hai. yue xian yue sheng.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
9:59 PM
sigh` hrs earlier im still luffing like my hearts off, ke shi xian zai yan lei zhi zai da zhuan. xiang ta duo le ba~ sian. catched 'missing' last nite @ cathay. i tink im scared by e person beside mi instead of e show. i like the movie soundtrack. hope 933 will buo tt song. bad bad sales todae but yet we had hell loads of fun in e shop talking nonsense and excess money. weird. lucky maanged to sell ftxs todae. but alot alot of shit. get scolded in e morning. aft tt bad shit started rolling in. since franky e most senior, he's e one to handle. kbox w my colleagues tml nite aft wrk. my treat. yehs. hopefully it wld be a enjoyable nite! tearz......
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, June 13, 2008
5:23 PM
haiyo, annie gg to be on AL soon. recently only working with her a few times onli. each time wrk w her must be serious abit. cant be ki siao. cus used to wrking w my SA, abit craze lor. i mean reali craze. talking bt nonsense stuff doing craze things. at times even infrt of cust, also nv gu much of xing xiang. no wonder someone get "operated" . feeling a pinch of guilt also cus bi jing annie gt tell us to .... last tue n wed super pissed off. tink i also stupid enuff to go w/o food. henry asked mi out for coffee, also feed back to him bt some stuff la. sat went on 1 dae batam trip w my cousins n his frens. haa~ feel old sia cus dey are 16-18s de mi le, gg to hit the 21 soon. trip so so la. the trip brought mi back memories of my oitp n the ciba trip. cus its like the places we visited quite similar lor. tt nite catch midnite movie 'chronicles of narnia' w franky. it was a long show, but nice la. the prince caspian so shuai~ sun was dumpling dae. i noe if annie was wrking, she sure wld buy us dumpling de. but too bad she's not. went out a while to meet zq cus he bought dumplings for mie. a while later i came back into shop, one cust bought mi OCK food stuff. omg. why she dun buy mi dumplings instead. reason: cus last wk i merely help adjust spec, den the nxt dae she buy mi durians. den ock. jus hope nxt time she buy mi abalone la. lols. ok, i tinking too much. den a while later, franky came dwn w dumplings again. nite time mi n my two SAs went to our lao di fang for chilling. tis time wo xue cong ming le ! wed finally met up w ling n jessie. b4 tt mi n ling went orchard for shopping. retail therapy! so i must wrk harder to get my incentives. nite time met jessie @ compass pt. dinner @ swensens . main course + earthquake! sinful but delicious. thr b4 wrk, had breakfast at a hawker in amk b4 mum send mi to wrk. had a yummy breakfast. dabao food for my two SA as well. but when i was walking towards e shop, im stunned le. how come i saw franky dere? thot his off? when he saw the food in my hand he was 'complaining' how come i onli dabao food when he's off. nv buy for him when he's wrking. but the sian thing, dey alr met up for breakfast so eaten le. franky bought porridge for mi, but i also eaten le. v funny rite? all of us eaten le but there's still food. but in e end dey still polished the food. i polished off my porridge onli at 5+ lucky still edible. haha! nite time settlement shortage morning. all turns out to be aiying count money wrongly. flaot excess $40! hahaha!! n tada...todae im off. so sian off one dae wrk one dae den off again. but nvm~ later gg out for dinner n movie! sha gua coming back earlier.. yeh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008
9:07 PM
tis wk i gt my two consecutive offs again. mon n tue tis time rd. so last wk aft returning frm my two off, get abit of butter spread frm annie la. tt round seg lor. heng heng my e-line ok la. i duno wads wrong with mi tt dae, fitting ht gif until so high. i myself try it, seriously abit of deviation lands my eyes in the reading portion liao. heng my lil ger nv complain. phew~ sat was e last dae of may. 2nd target not hit. tt dae bedok was closed cus of pipe prob. so lao da come over to AMK. wrking w him bit stressed la. dots dots dots. den he help to lubricate the sliding panels for the safilo display. so nw we no nid to hear those screeching sounds n no nid waste too much strength in sliding the panels le. lao da jiu shi lao da! tt dae he jio us buy 4d. den buy 2sets of no i tink. so i also ask aiying to contribute for ibet.! n yes! we strike 3rd lo. so aft the dividends, one person winnings also nt tt much la. but better den nth la =) tt dae i keep asking my two SAs out. for movies or food or wad also can. i jus dun wan to get home so earli. aiying was saying i no govt tts y ki siao liao. so in e end, aft standing @ e traffic light turning green 3x, disscussing at amk station, we finally settle @ admiralty de . playgrd. gers chat. chill out. did sth considered out of ordinary for mi. as for the two gers, also kinda surprising la. haha! but den admist of the chill out, someone bu gao xing. if i knew tt, i shld have told a lie suan le, save mi all e trouble. sun was a hell damn busy dae. alot of progressives, and of cus big fishes la. mine gt gucci+comfort airwear trans, you's+comfort airwear trans, boss prescription sg. annie also gt quite alot of big fishes. but can see that she v v shag. the usual cheerful her when reach nite time, no batt le. ten plus still haven do settlement. lucky aiying n franky came back frm bedok helped us. if not duno wad time will leave shop. tt nite gt a company back until home. call mi silly or wad, i jus feel v happy le. althou im alr dead beat, but having someone to company reali gif mi a comforting feel. mon n tues im off. mon met sh go gym @ csc. gd workout! at least i sweat. but den i duno y my arms aching..whereas my legs no prob. bending my arms during changing also pain sia. catch up w sh. told her bt those STUPID UNTIL CANNOT STUPID de thingSS i did. hai! tt nite had a long chat until frm 12-2+ my phone went dead. but sort of quarrel over one issue lo. but it ended well la. aft e chat, feeling quite dwn la. mob tv the bian zhou qu 'rythmn of life' the last few episodes. duno y certain parts, my lacrmial glands was activated. or rather tis few daes, my tear lands faulty alr. sigh` tues went dwn oob collect my cert. walk ard chinatwn bought some neccessities stuff. met my sis @ bugis. initial plan was to shop. but den im feeling kinda sleepy so dun reali gt e mood lor. bought earrings n two watches. saw two juniors moonlighting @ rdshows. steady sia! had gelare waffle @ cwp b4 heading home. had a bath den went dwn EC. help them did settlement. lucky nv yue bang yue mang. told annie sth. den went for food @ marsiling. nw still kinda bloated frm the food sia. my ez link card gt a new facelift alr. tt dae i was casually telling him tt my ezlink card v ugly wan to exchange mine with him. but nv la cus my amt inside quite lil le. so jus nw he ask for my ezlink card cus i jus top up money ma n he said he also jus top up money, so can exchange lo. w/o tinking much i jus pass him my card. wad he did i reali quite touched lo. he bought those kind of sticker meant to paste on the frt of ur ezlink card de. n he pasted it for mi. im like seriosuly stunned le. so i asked him, why he get mi a pic of a bear de. he replied saying cus tt time we walked pass the build a bear shop, u mention u wan a bear ma. omg. call mi a fool or wad. i feel gao xing le.!! =D i noe sh gona knock my head when she sees this. long entry le. gotta go dreamland le!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
