my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
3:55 AM
Woot..pple are mugging hard for their tests and exams wor...compared to mi..yeps..slack le! but ehh, i still gt did my best in studying le, ytd is e lesson class for gems le! so happy! but act is nxt week,but den i decided to pon again..so ya! presentation was a breeze n glad that the lect contented wif our ppt yea!
todae had cl prac test, omg! haah. its a easi one but den hor..to mi..v screwed up la..im nt surprised if i get a single digit back n i wld luff sia..cus if realie single digit,i im certain i sure break record le. no one will noe how bad it is cus im e one hu did e prac.. but i can sae i did my best le..haaH!
todae cl lesson become patho..tumours finished le,heng nxt week de test no include injuries...but still alot to study! during patho lesson, haah, huiyun v blur le, thot i was luffing at the price of the indirect oph thingy but im nt,im luffing at e sms tt nicholas sent mi..sibei gao xiao lor...but i noe he's joking la.
tml other pple half dae i full dae,thr pple no sch i still gt lessons frm 8-5..ah! y poly no have off dae for lectureer's dae!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
4:45 AM
I jus wake up aft 2hr+ of slp...n thanks to that duck lor..haa~ if nt i tink i wld still be slping happily.. act. 6 i was awake le, cus the radio programme v nice-->feature bt those singers frm ming ge chang ting..den dey sing unplugg lor, n the songs reali rocks..all to my liking de. listen until 6+ den get waken up at 7..
ytd practise for intro to CL de prac exam, realise that i totally forget how to use radiuscope! thats terrible le,hope tue de prac exam, i can manage it ba.. den todae morning did clin opt. eh kinda traumatising when using oph le, took v long to look at marilyn n iris de eye..sorry,but v big thank you for being so patient wif mi le..thanks...n of cus,wei kiat! haa!!! paiseh le,i keep movingg my eyes ard.. ehh...weikiat de cupping is nice le...v obvious lor..haa~ wonder if szehui see this wad wld she be tinking again.. hiak hiak. den ivan de...nt obvious one le, guess thats e diff bw a dog's eye n human eye..
left sch ard 2+..went JE...we all had koyabashi..and set no 2...hahaa...den sth v funny happen..the moment when we talk bt mou mou ren...the dog's face turn red sia...den we all were like teasing him lor..den nth much la,finish lunch le we all went separate waes hm...
Sigh`...... my worse fear abt to come soon... i really really really really hope i can get thru this sem,esp clin opt..thou its jus a PASS, im CONTENTED enough. i really dread slitlamp n oph cus i realie nid to take a long time...wonder if during oph exam,take quite long to find the ONH will get penalised till wad extent...hai `
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
4:40 AM
AWw...sickening thr over le! my arms n back aching le...i tink bend too long during prac le,jus to search for that stupid ONH using the direct oph...omg! todae had quite a 'traumatising' experience, was 'qin fan' by koh >.< ...tian ah! althou both of us are of e same gender..but den duhz! tts y she sae i keep moving my eyes..nt tt i dun wan to focus, is tt i v bu shu fu lor..sad case..
tml a dae for mi to slp till late le,finally. exams n test n prac dates are all out le..very packed for the whole of nxt mth until 28/9...den is holis for a mth liao..looking forward to it sia. v xian mu le,tzesiang n gang planning to go msia-redang+kl+genting if im nt wrong...so nice...sure v enjoyable de.
Sian leh,todae late for patho again,consequtive late for 3 to 4x alr...i left hm earli le,but still late..the stupid train fault. dismiss half n hr earlier...cus i tink she also tired la,rush thru e lecture like train..so fast...anw,patho reali alot to memorise n i realise that 2weeks later is patho test still gt slide test somemore...
aft class went to prac lab,did sub rx on yuanfang! omg..this ger is reali cute lor..she's reali sweet la..haah! she was a easi subject le..cus low power and no astig...if exam i get this kind of subject i v happy le..den did panoptic on dayne peg sylvia n weihuI! at least i managed to see Optic nerve head n the cup n bv all this..glad. but i noe tml prac i bound to peng ding zi again. did slit lamp on dayne n peg too..but hor..this ger! i can c her eye closing liao,she's reali exposed to too much halogen lite liao.. paiseh ah ger!
left lab near to 6..tired...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
8:36 AM
This few daes...kinda bad for mi..esp ytd la...hai~ ophthalmoscope!! sian le..i cant c pple ONH le.. except weiling de...hai..failure failure failure x 100000000000. the moment i saw ling's ONH,im happy cus i see all the things susposed to see v clearly the moment i zoom in.. but tinking of i cant see others de makes mi demoralised again..im tinking tt im nt cut for aniting la, failure.. ytd koh also like v pek chek wif mi la,but wad can i do tt im dumb, but i will cont to practice hard lor...tts e only thing i can do.
Hmm~ was looking forward to end of class todae..cus meeting hy ma! haaah! so happy!! cus at least sth to look for ward to..n long time no c her le! passed her the bdae pressie...hee! we walked rds n rds in lot one..cus dunoe wad to eat ma...when we settle at kfc,realise tt the promotion over le..so in e end we went the Lets Eat Restaurant..order the set meal for 2..hee! n huiyu treated mi le..thanks oh..hugs~~ :) i saw woody at B1 todae,tt fella! smoke n dun tink he gt wash his hands thoroughly de leh,cus can smell the cigarette de wei dao de when he tt time touch my eyes. ! n huiyu makes her specs from emperor de-->woody store! haah!!! todae's last prac for intro to CL le..v dry le todae de prac..i also lazi to copy dwn the names n agents all this,so i jus spent hrs on net searching..sianz. n when chris was doing the demo of washing the lens...he so cute lo! my god...n sad to sae,todae i broke one rgp lens..haah!
ytd did rgp..eyes bit tired la...so i dun reali look forward to the fitting...chey~ chuan zi get 8 lor,he tink too much liao la,scare mi le cus all of a sudden beocme so sian...which makes mi also sian too.
i guess im reali numbed to my grades le,gd or bad i reali dun feel aniting le..unlike last yr,im quite affected by my grades but nw..i reali dun feel much unless i fail...i onli wan a PASS for everything.. enuff for mi to get thru this sem can le.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
12:34 AM
okie..shal blog bt wad happen ytd...had mushrm outing ..finally... went Harbin ice wonderland at bugis.. freezing cold inside,but the ice carvings are reali nice..except some are chipped off la..haah! played slides..took pics...n yeps...went V8 for dinner...haah..big serving..the fish n chips nice le! chick cutlet n huiyun's baked rice also v nice oh..haha~ the prce consider reasonably okie la..nt tt exp compared to swensese..aft de-freezing,went to had desert...why both of u all sae i dun enjoy ah? nt bad la..but eat too much at one go can be quite ni lor..haa...walked to national lib,the lift is.woo..SHIOK! we funny la,take all e way to 14th storey den all ago...woo!! nice one!
hmm~ overall,ytd reali enjoy myself to e max aft one week of .... ya..thanks for e outing oh mushrms.love ya!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
11:30 AM
Wah! Results out lor...Kelvin n Kelly! ultimate winners for the females n males..hmm~ jy out..dear dun be sad kie...nt bad le..tt time spore idol also frm sp, nw jue dui superstar also frm sp..looks like sp can produce talents har..well,of cus im not one.
another thr had passed,means one week is over soon. n it had been a week. a week of sadness, thots, n ......... todae prac,when doing wif sheena,gossip alot..den when mi n cas were doing slit lamp, we talked bt alot of things lor,nv knew he's quite chi qing oh..den still tok bt ...... tink u all shld noe wad this dots means. for e past of lweek, i dun tink im the ger tt im, nt reali the cheerful self thou i may be smiling. ytd was looking thru e previous enteries of my blog, read until where i wrote bt the begining of sem2...sia la,duno y gt quite alot of 'tt dog' appearing..tt time must be siao liaoz..n wad i told hy,its realie easy to sae den done.
saw her testimonials for u, dey're all so sweet n jus sweet. i dunoe wad's e reason u left her, but if i've wasted ur times this few mths, im sorry. but of cus, this few mths, the times,msg,calls,i appreciated dem.. thanks.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
6:59 AM
shall blog again...lstly must thanks dear for sending mi all e songs..ehh~ jy de songs,many nt clear le, his mo ri zi lian/yi wang guo qu/ta yi di heng ai ni/ ... but thanks goodness jason de clear! hmm~ this few daes, kinda shit la..shit of the shittest..okies, i noe it sounds bu wen ya.. hai, persistent headaches this few daes, n o ya time to set my target for sem exams le! get back 2papers n a prac test so far le...hmm~ all v zhun la..68% kies, below is wad i aim to achieve: hopefully i CAN achieve it.
Clin opt - D Intro to CL - B+ Opthalmic optics: B Ocular Pathology: B Ocular Pharmacology: C GEMS: B+
todae during lesson,ms yeo told us bt this yr1 guy doing rgp fit... den i kpo lor,ask chuanzi bt it, hear liao,sigh` he also told mi bt another story lor..haah,y this yr de yr1 like so jia lat ah? i dun rmb last yr we gt gif so much troubles le...
[[Day after day,Time passed away,And I just can't get you out of my mind, Nobody knows, I hide it inside,I keep on searching but I just can't find the courage to show to let you know, I've never felt love like this before. Night after night I hear myself say. Why can't this feeling just fade away. there's no one like you , You speak to my heart. It's such a a shame we're worlds apart. I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose,But sooner or later I gotta choose, And once again I'm thinking about, Taking the easy way out....]]
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
7:08 AM
Another week is gone le..3more weeks to prac exams n term tests n 5more weeks to sem exams.. "great" actually reali quite sian of pia-ing so hard for academic liao le..one yr of pia-ing in yr1 is enuff le...im tired alr...anw if heng heng can sail thru e semesters smoothly,u still get ur diploma ultimately, but not merit diploma la,which is v hard to get..to mi la,but to marilyn..hoho~
ytd was v tired during lessons,thou i onli had 3hrs of lesson which started at 12,im yawning like nobody business n dozing off occasionally,tink is becus previous nite slpt at 2+ ba. during e 2hr break,help yiping wif her fyp n met xinyi @ lib,talked alot to her while she was doing her report, hai~ dunoe y all of a sudden talk bt c0m3t...sigh` tt guy................ miss him loads sia. last time i saw him dunoe how mani donkey yrs ago liao.......talk to her bt other stuff...miss e sec sch daes when we were in e same class, wif e excuse of going toilets where we find a place to chat or consoling mi when im down wif r/s probs....how gd if she were to be in optom too..
todae went back sch..met peggy aft her test..haa~ her van van n her kor kor...*hair stand* but peggy, van van is definitell a better choice compared to the other 3 la hor...had lunch wif her at jec,or rather she c mi eat cus she onli had a miserable sundae! jian fei ah U! had dinner wif dad n mum at vista pt, sian, my fave store close dwn le, the new stall de fish meat also nt nice de...hai~ both of dem keep saying i look thin, cant be le,i recently nv cut dwn ani meals le lor...fan er eat more,esp chocos!
this few nites...i jus cant get to slp.... seems tt i jus cant ........ dear.(hy).i miss u le... n piggy, if u're reading this, haa~ since u gt exta ten bucks extra,rmb my movie.haa
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
9:24 AM
Weekend is coming..oh well~ nth much to anticipate. ytd wed ma..ends earlie,catch movie at clementi -Bewitched. hai~ budget place to go,but v uncomfortable ah! nearli wan to doze off....prac todae, somehow i feel like ........... dun wana sae liao, sae alr i more gek sim n .......... haah~ mani dots dots dots to fill in hor? n still gt .............. yahz...i pei fu tzesiang le,i on my light to fullest n he like nv complain tt its bright? power....
todae,msg hy dear.....told her sth...hai~ i v sad leh! how? >.< todae is e dae i dread most,n time flows v slowly, met elsie at dover ..went hm tgt. she bought 2 egg tarts for mi...muacks ger~ ok..nth much to blog liaoz..or rather i realised tt i tend to keep everything to myself.. phew~ junyang is in...dear,dun be sad kie thou derrick out...stae happy!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
6:59 AM
Happy National Day.......so sickening le..frens ard mi tml still holis,yet tml i still hav sch,luckily is 2hrs of lessons only...still not that bad. todae slpt until nearly noon..mum dragged mi out of bed..den whole family went out cwp. bro got his acuvue advance hydraclear..den gt promotion too,so gt free specs, so i take tt spec lor since my frameless alr is haii liaoz..the design still alrite lor...saw one senior working at the roadshow,pay is damn gd sia..$9/hr +commission. nxt time work for J & J cus i tink its better den ciba vision...went crystal jade for lunch..woot! waited for long liao,finalie can dine in dere..haha! :D had dim sum too!
sometimes, its v easi to offend someone unintentionally..no matter if tt person is ur close fren or wad. i dunoe y, at times im quite affected by wad pple said bt mi, even thou its pple whom im nt close to. since tt incident, i still dunoe if i did anithing wrong.. n it troubled mi for daes..n i tend to avoid dem...perhaps avoiding is a quite gd wae to prevent misundertandings of offending pple lor..
tv time!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 08, 2005
6:51 AM
Todae went for my SCL fitting...hai,chuan zi recommend mi get Dailies disposibles...so aft he fitted mi of softlens one dae and 1day acuvue,i get acuvue again lor...wasted half of my curry puff cus initally i wan to eat in e rm de cus he sae can de..den ms lek come in sae cannot...in e end turn cold le so i threw it awae..finalie found one tt can flip eyelid w/o discomfort..yay! wonder did mi n chuan zi talked v loudly meh? sh,sheena,lionel all complain le..sia la..must try to lower dwn my volume liao..booked my rgp fitting todae too...under him again..haha! hope he will be gentle to my eyes n dun kai you my legs like todae...heng i nt wearing skirt,if nt i tink i will scream sia...
get back optics prac..ok lor 17/25..guess this sem i reali surrender liao la...den saw lao ba mark, :( haI~ i can forsee i goiing broke soon...wed watching movie wif mushrms...hopefully the 4 of dem will go too lor...todae aft sch,must thanks tt duck for pei wo chatting on phone...if nt i tink i will die of boredom n for siam-ing ...... lor...sat at e void deck again for almost 45min b4 going up,the evening breeze is reali cooling... :)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
8:07 AM
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sat went back for slit lamp...nt as traumatised at ret..but still bit traumatised..cus i realise i onli ............ hai..dun sae le. reach hm,as usual,slp thru e whole aftnn until 7+ go out for dinner... had pig organ soup+slice fish+vege for dinner..toking bt pig,i began to tink of wad ivan said on train last fri again..haah! oopz..dun be angry sh. todae is sun..spent hrs slping again..gosh~ den tonite i sure v late den slp liao,n worse still tml lessons @ 8..nv did much studying todae...6 more weeks to sem exam, 4 more weeks to prac tests+term test..time flies... jus nw watch the dropping of atomic bomb on hiroshima..omg..like having mrs sim's hist lessons liddat..heex...act hist is v interesting de..but dunoe y 3/4 of e class were in dreamland during hist except video watching times...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, August 05, 2005
7:00 AM
One week plus nv update alr..n yeps..one week ended since term starts...and which is quite a bad start.shall update..
mon: gems cancel..so class starts @ 1..the feeling is damn wonderful la..slp until late in e morning..had optics prac..my lst prac in yr2..nt tt bad..hope can do well,but was kinda worried bt the OCD frame PD n stuff..clin opt-->slit lamp? omg..its tough to see the structures...but lst session on slit lamp is nt as traumatised as lst session on ret..
tue: break for a dae..no test. dun quite rem wad happen on tt dae..during the 4hrs of break..had a nice time chatting wif mushrms at e lib..tink we were quite noisy..but hu cares?! hahaha!!! n monica lesson..was ZzZz, n weiling keep hitting mi to wake mi up.got back CL test..heng the class nv did tt well if nt i sian zibua..67%,lucky tt a few qns were nt included,if nt e score wld be lower..i hope tt the CL module wld have e same fate as my anatomy,lst test dead,but the following few SURVIVED
Wed: patho test-->managable,but dunoe wad e outcome will be like.nth much happen.
thr: slit lamp prac again..this time was traumatised...cus i was like? wad e heck to observe? hais..affected my moood thru out...had clin opt test too...jus hope tt i wun fail..i did study okie!! jus tt some ans couldnt be found...but im worried bt it lor..cus its a 8credit module n ICA somemore..fail jia lat liao.pls pls..pray tt i can pass this module
fri: TODAE! lessons at 12..woot~ slp until 10...den bath..go sch meet duck for lunch..had chicken n egg bowl..but i realised chicken onli a lil bit nia..aunty stingy sia. monica lesson i dunoe y..also dere zZzz,but this time weiling nv hit mi le..hahahah!! finalie sch ends le..went JE,dine at pizza hut wif duck~ ordered the cheezy delight meal wif add on of calamari rings..woot! FULL N DELICIOUS..the pizza is damn cheezy...n yummie.. :D went pasar malam /popular walk walk..looking thru mags n cds..haha..den reach hm drop dead on sofa while watching tv..b4 sch..saw benedict n his gang..he dere keep tsk tsk..cus u noe y? yz was dere..diaoz...heng yz dunoe his meaning..if nt i sure super paiseh...haha
Haiz..jue dui superstar...my dear jason out liao...sad. i noe mani out dere dun like him..sad ah!! silver still nt out..hope tt she REALLY IMPROVR on her singing if she wan to stae on..but dunoe la..she gt so mani supporters...weekend is here!!! enjoy time liao! :D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
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