my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Thursday, June 30, 2005
5:24 AM
Lalala x) week 5 coming to an end again! i guess this semester will pass very fast...at least its gd too cus soon i will graduate wif a dip.in optom liaoz...!! haha! todae's prac...still alrite,but sat going back to practice..wana improve my ret skills...todae lessons kinda slacking le...anna yeo cancel one hr of her lect...n out of the remaining one hr..half n hr was tc session...during dr koh lesson, ehh! i onli rmb mi luffing awae n drawing smiley faces on weiling notes! :D
during lunch todae...saw kian kiat n gang at fc1..he asked mi: 'tt time u sae e nxt class gt chio bu..hu are dey?' i sae huhuhu n huhuhu...he asked mi to go jump off building...kns! :P hahah!! so bad lor him...n saw yz qutie alot of times todae..hohoOO~
kinda disappointed wif my wang di yao cai ji le...
watching proj superstar soon! pple...vote for F5 Silver Ang kie! She rawks! :D
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
4:32 AM
"haiz.. u guys told me diff stories.. duno hu to believe.. but i hv no rights to meddle into tis prob cux i wasnt present.. i seriously feel tt it's nt worth it to fall out wif one another jus bcux of 2 bks.. so no matter who apologise to who.. u cant deny de fact tt both parties hv faults.. no use quarrellin wif some1 elsn hu's nt there.."
i tink i started to get 'annoyed' by u alr ( e u nt refering to e owner of e above ) perhaps it wld be a 'a blessing in disguise' afterall..
todae during cl prac,,,sth kinda interesting happen la... entitled 'the story of rgp lens' co starring c kwey n ms yeo..haha! n gosh..ms yeo wan to check our prac..jia lat..so much scribbling n all...n cl de lab qns like so @$&Y^&^ lurh. todae finalie know test dates for 3 modules...patho, contact lens and optics. fall on week 7/8. still gt pharmacology n clin opt to come...aww! study camp..anione?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
6:46 AM
I realised that im back to my yr one sem2 life...nua-ing n still nua-ing when sch has started for one mth le...this one mth compared to sem2, indeed is learn much more new stuff..i dun wish to be like last sem..come to week 10 onwards den come n gan jiong..it wld be too late if i did it this time round.. dun sae bt scraping thru yr2...even hav prob getting to sem2. but todae im glad tt i did some serious studying...pharmacology...n ytd nite optics..realised tt i cant study on sat until mid nite den i can guai guai de revise work...n sun better still...can concentrate e whole dae....
since last week till nw...act i nt feeling v gd...due to the stupid cough n flu n studies...dun reali untd certain stuff den keep asking weiling esp...sorry le ger...if i reali pissed u off..must tell mi kie?
sometimes i reali wish tt i can ignore u...at least.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
5:26 AM
Finalie the dreadful thr is over..i jus dread thr...8-5 wif onli an hr break!!! how to survive...prac's time passed v fast...i rmb towards e end of the prac..i v gan jiong...towards e last 15mins,i did ret on marilyn's eye n sub refraction as well...but left her left eye half done..haa! todae anna lesson watch video tape on contact lens..n towards e end of lesson,ms yeo ask weijian to recap her lesson...oh my god..he v funny lor...send e class luffing awae. n for dr koh clin opt lecture..hoho~ learn how to use cross cyl!!! diaoz...its confusing...n kinda hard to digest...thank god tt i nv shut off todae if nt i will be a piece of dead meat.
met peggy to took train hm tgt..n jus nice same train as weikiat n ivan...hahaa!! she bad ger...todae landed mi into 'troubles'...get di siao by sh dey all...esp sh..aiiyo ger ah!! ivan is urs le..i wun snatch wif u de... :P
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
6:45 AM
yuan beng todae kinda gd mood de..cus i at least feeling abit better...but todae lectures kinda horrible for mie la...the prismatic effects jus dunoe wad is vivian talking...n pharmacology...also dun reali untd. if i understand...dunoe if i noe the right things...
actually u are right...im perhaps in a much better situation than u..but it doesnt means that everything is perfect..try to talked tings out ya? dun ever raised ur voice or resort to ani 'nt legal' actions hor!!!! it's bit of hard thou...cus some times pple are insensitive ba...when we put ourselves in their postions,we may understand how dey feel..but then, there's nt much use either...the onli thing is..jus REN ba...i tink i will choose to be this..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, June 20, 2005
6:14 AM
Bad bad dae in sch...was dozing off in gems cus too tired liao aft taking the medicine...keep coughing n nose tio blocked..aft that went lib de proj rm ZzZZ....i noe bit bu wen ya..but hu cares...managed to get winks of slp...lunch time..reali feel like eating Jap but i control myself..eat fish porridge..haa! i have been having fish porridge for 3daes le..but its nice so nvm.
learn forcimetry during optics prac...hmM~ for sph lens kinda easy..but for sph-cyl lens still so so la.. yr2 realie learning bt stuff that is applicable for working life...haiz..clin opt do subjective refraction! todae clin opt reali wan to vomit..but i REN!!!! jus hate e feeling of throwing up n the acidic taste in ur mouth..tts disgusting...so i onli did on sh..but she haven did on mie yet. finalie one prac lesson can avoid the stupid ret...make mi so tired.!
finalie home sweet home...piggy asked mi if i wan him to walk mi hm or nt..budden no nid la cus he nid to travel all e wae dwn...haa..i will nt walk to too fast,will wlak under e shade,dun go under e sun,drink more plain water n nt worry too much cus i will recover soon :) so todae i took bus hm thou its onli 2 stops...wah! realise that in e evening..mani illegal hawkers selling soon kuey,popiah,curry puffs,meesaim,mee fen, n ba zhang...woot! v tempted to buy ba zhang n eat...but ya....
I WANT TO GET WELL SOON!!!!
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with a shattered heart
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
5:59 AM
Todae my whole dae was wasted on SLEEPING n SLEEPING n SLEEPING! wake up at 11...aft breeakfast slp till 2+...wake up a while do monica assignmetn den slp all e wae till 7+...sorry to those i nv reply ur sms,but was disturbed by 2phone calls thou..qi si wo le! n im still tired nw..stupid flu n cough...take medicine liao also like no use...nv studied aniting...grrghhh!!
nw talkign to my junior..peggy..hhaa! huiyun,i nt pro in biochem la...lols~ a nice ger le..she told mi one secret...kinda shocked when i heard it... lalalala x) tml long dae in sch..sux!
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with a shattered heart
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
5:38 AM
Aww..sick again...flu n sore throat combo! so is a boring dae..spent half of my dae in lab doing ret n slp for e rest of the dae when i came back...was disturbed by e presence of my coursins when dey come..so wake up...
ytd went to watch Proj SUperstar! Silver rawks! haha!! hope that she will get into the semi finals! n because of tt...reach hm at 12+ n slp at 1+...n todae my ret results all v de inaccurate..die liaoz...all gif mi 6/7.5 or 6/6 VA...i hate ret more n more liaoz..torturing my eyes... >.< 3weeks have passed le...lectures notes more n more..haven even revised thru dem thoroughly..still unsure of subjective refraction...shall call guan kai tml monring!! hahah!
jus nw in msn...someone whom i nv talked to for 2yrs msged mi...haah! looks like my memory is poor..he rmb mi but yet i forget him...haah...okies..going out le..tata
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with a shattered heart
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
5:23 AM
todae is e last prac for retinoscopy...n i still nid to do 5subjects on e phoropter...grrhh!! morning did on iris only..cus i be pple subjects loh...n during lect..learn new things again..subjective refraction. initially thot it is some easi stuff...but den i was totally wrong lurh...i dun catch wad dr koh is teaching todae cus she teach so fast....n im jus so tired...so shut my mind off....later shall go read read c i utd or nt. n todae tt 'ru hua' scold mi sae i no manners cus i forget to sae thank you aft asking her some qns.. >.<
bad dae for me todae...throat feel kinda pain n having stomach runs...no appetite for ani food...looking forward to tml! cus going watch project superstar de quarters finals 2 (females)...must thanks casper for the ticks...my optom senior silver in le !!! althou she grad le la..but all e best for her still :) jia you silver!
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with a shattered heart
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Monday, June 13, 2005
5:25 AM
Monday is here again...3rd week of sch alr! n meaning those jc peeps de holis getting over soon. haah! earli in e morning had gems..the lect is biased agst gers la!! n dun bother bt our grp le..diaoz..but tts also a gd thing ba! slack for 2hrs in e lib b4 going for lunch at fc1..had jap n fruit juice..thou i was v hungry,but cant finish the food le..aft lunch went to SPOC to change GE appt..haah...juliana my student clinician oh...chio bu chio bu! *sh,dun sae i lustful*
had vivian's prac..cool! she's lively! :D todae prac was kinda easi..taking dist/near/monocular PD n use pupillometer.. aft that came 2hrs of clinical opt prac..briefing for a while den hands on on ret again! was v scared...sylvia was my lst subject! xing ku ta le..cus i take 40mins to scope her both eyes...v long rite? her pupil is small..n she's v tired cus she like bit keep closing her eyes..aft checking her,ask dr koh check...phew~ astig de axis off bit but she sae nvm cus its v low de astig,other than that cyl n sph power still alrite. when sylvia finised scoping my eye,dr koh check..haah! she blur la,nv remove e working lens,still dere tinking why my VA still so poor...diaoz~ at lst i still thot my eye gt pathological conditions.
left sch quite late...went hm alone...sianz. nw my legs aching...waiting for sis hm wif my dinner..tml another long dae 8-5...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, June 10, 2005
8:27 AM
Todae is a v slack dae wif onli 2hrs of lesson...come to tink of it..pon also can..but im a guai kia. haah! reach sch earlier cus nid to pass ms lek the money for the cyl...clarify my doubts bt retinoscopy..n jus nw jeremy like gif mi a lecture on ret also on msn..so nw im sure of the steps liao...but the technique to get correct power is a challenge...n its a tough one...i decided to use sph sph method ah...cus i can neutralise ani meridian lst den do transposition...unless the 2nd meridian gif mi a agst movement when i streak it..den i can continue wif sph cyl..
n during our break todae...mi n weiling discuss bt the assignment..n she finished e typing le..editing i did halfwae onli cus haven add in pics...haah..my lab report also finish le...todae dey all v bad le. keep suaning mi bt the ba zhang...aiyo!
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with a shattered heart
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
9:39 AM
aww...3hrs of clinical opt...hai~ time pass v fast during clin opt...cus i guess i take quite sometime to figure out things...todae learn how to determine ur power ...asti +sphere power...hai~ practise on schemetic nt v de smooth..on human eyes worse cus pupil aperture so small...how i wish ms lek is one of e clin opt lect...i mean nt saying dr koh n tang nt gd la..but dunoe la...jus like ms lek alot...
weekend like nid to do alot of things le..my prac1 report 3/4 done...intro to CL de assignment..500 words thou may look easi..but kinda hard to write le..realie feel like going out on weekends...but den scare nt time to complete the things...
ytd was quite a bad dae...kept tinking of alot of things...was rather down...yr2 seems terrible le...hopefully i can make it..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
8:09 AM
todae is e 3rd time i practise my ret.....better than e previous attempts...sorry to wl,sh n hy..tink i kinda pissed u three off n make u all go hungry..sorrie...n sh,i tink i will reali make a bad partner..
HERO There's a hero, If you look inside your heart, You don't have to be afraid Of what you are. There's an answer, If you reach into your soul, And the sorrow that you know Will melt away
And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside, And you Know you can survive. So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you.
It's a long road, When you face the world alone, No one reaches out a hand, For you to hold. You can find love, If you search within yourself, And that emptiness you felt, Will disappear.
And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on, And you cast your fears aside, And you Know you can survive. So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong, And you'll finally see the truth, That a hero lies in you.
(Ohhhhhh) Lord knows, Dreams are hard to follow. But don't let anyone tear them away (hey yeah). Hold on, There will be tomorrow. In time you'll find the way. REPEAT CHORUS That a hero lies in ...you... Mmmm... That a hero lies in you...
must be a winner okie? rmb wad u told mi on mon n the song tt u which u changed e lyrics to a 'encouraging' one..haaH!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, June 06, 2005
5:33 AM
Haii! Todae reach hm aft my bath...feel uncomfortable le..feel giddy n wana vomit liddat,but cant vomit out lor...sianz..2nd week of sch lor! time pass quite fast la...ahh..clinical opt..feel like a total idiot le... todae use ret...but dunoe wad to look out for exactly also...kinda discouraging.... :( nvm..hope tml during the practice..i will catch the ball.
on the lighter note...for todae gems...at least nv doze off...feel a sense of achiement when i managed to solve the puzzles....okies...althou its nt tt great..budden i still feel a sense of man zhu gan...n phew~ i can save on my movie treat cus tt duck also in honors roll...tts gd :)
[[sch starts for mie alr, but i dunoe is like u are ignoring mi le instead of the other wae rd..but nvm..i dun hav e rite to sae aniting]]
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
5:49 AM
Aww....im so TIRED!! todae is a LONG dae for mi sia..8-5 wif one hr break onli...n glad tt i finish my clinical opt prac in time...but the clin opt lecture aft e prac i was totalli dreaming lor...cant seem to concentrate...aft lunch feel betta ba. n time to collect money frm class again :) rmb to pay mi 5bucks oh....
hai~ being in this course reali cause mi a bomb...those extra money add up tink also gt 1000bucks... my retinoscope n opthamoloscope cause mi 714,cross cyl 66,n the ref book for ocular pathology 130++ hope jeremy reali gt tt bk ah......till nw still haven confirm wif mi yet...haiz..im seriosly btoke la...owe dayne $$ still...boo!!!
TIRING dee..dun tink will touch ani lect notes tonite...tml heng is a half dae for mi onli..but b4 monica lesson tink gona go re book my appointment for GE le..
okies..nw waiting for my dinner to be back hm~!! im starving!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
