my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Friday, March 31, 2006
10:10 PM
Yayness (EC) todae had GREAT food at Din Tai Feng w my dearie mushrmss! ahaha! absolute heavenly food...esp the xiao long bao n egg fried rice..woot! xD Attachment is back to the boring daes...doing sai kang everydae...clearing out the SPOC n labs..althou we may be small, but den there's act. alot of rubbish n our lecturers realli like to keep junk..esp dawnie..aww! at least todae morning...8students frm QiFa Pri pop by..haha! taught dem bt taking VA, color vision n steroacuity..n we gt free Macs tgt w dem! all thanks to uncle christopher! hehez. but den the mac meal realli make us feel drowsy..doze off during our lunch time n begin our sai kang aft that..sianz. Very Happy...cus our fyp no nid to split le! must thanks anna for that..yippie..i also dunoe wad i typing...in slping mode soon!! nitess! =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
10:33 PM
Aww, todae wasted my time and money going back to sch. Shldnt have gone back cus morning was really not in the right condition to go lor..but still bear w the pain. Reach sch, briefing on our grp task again, n find anna to settle our fyp..but in e end still no conclusion yet. haish! in the end, cant take it le, n im sitting dere cant help them to do the stuff, so ms lek asked mi to go hm..stupid gan die still sae i eating snake..n i actually cab home..lucky ten bucks..i entertain the cab uncle b4 going to my dreamland..luckily i wake up on time to direct the uncle to my hm..he's nice unlike the cabbie i met at e ferry terminal..went into my dreamland for hrs..wake up for lunch, slp, watch yu le den slp again..haha! bagus time for slpin cus its raining. When i was slping jus nw, my sis chao gaoxiao. I overheard her conversation w my mum..she said 'marmie, ah mei bu jian liao le, zai jia zhao bu dao ta' but in actual fact, i was slping in my bro's rm la.. xD feeling better nw le..jus nw went to c doct. same prob as last time, intestine dunoe wad dunoe wad..so onli can eat plain food, avoid spicy oily cold foodstuff, must well ask mi to die..haha..n tinking of craps to write in logbook..sianz. left two description..maybe shall write dem in sch tml.. feel like slping again. jus nw show my mum the batam pics..she sae casper n edwin v shuai..n gan die dun look like 39yrs old..still ask mi how he bao yang one..lols..kies..ciao!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
9:23 PM
Shall update on the batam trip. Set off on 19/3 which is a Sun. the ferry ride is a nice experience la nevertheless. Went to set up at the lst school... consider its our first time..its done quite fast already.haha! went to put dwn our lugguage at our chalet which is Nongsa Point Marina. Den we went town! had AnW for lunch n shopped for our neccessities like mineral water, soap, utensils n etc. When we reached our chalet, did housecleaning. mopped the floor, tidy up, so that it makes the place more homely cus we gona stae dere for 9days. Had a short briefing at nite. I still rmb i couldnt slp on the first nite. FIrstly was due to the aircon, n the freaky noises like pple trying to pry open ur doors..which i later know that its monkeys on the roof top. O.o
Mon to wed was spent at the lst sch doing screening. My first session is Ret. Its realli horrible until i have no words for it. hahaha!! the communication prob n my skill. but lucky gt danny's help. I enjoy VA taking the most. No business for ret during the last dae at this sch for my slot la..phew~ love the kids at this sch the most.. =D make us feel as if we are idols sia..asking for our signatures numbers...move on to Ibu Sina on wed aftnn. Set up again. this place the most sian one..hahah! move the heavy tables n chairs ourselves. See danny sweeping the floor le, rare sight. cus he's allergic to dust n of cus NOISE. the lighting is bad so we nid to set up our lamps to achieve the desired luminance. Went town again. first stop was DC mall den nxt is batam city sq. Dc mall was like mustafa style so the things dere were naturally cheaper compared to city sq which is more like far east. hahah!
Thr fri and sat were spent at Ibu Sina. the kids dere are v rowdy n noisy. Its quite fustrating when u are trying hard to take VA aft ur Ret, when the kids outside are shouting out the letters that u are pointing..n ur subject wld be jus repeating wad they shouted. haiyo.but den their warm handshakes melt my heart when dey saw us leaving lor..so yeps. Set up at the last sch for the following mon de screening b4 going to town again.the kids at the last sch was rather well disciplined. they cleared up the classrms for us. Shopped at megamall. time for us to spent our rupiah. hahah! Starbread aka singapore de breadtalk..their service is gd la, cus u no nid to take the tray to put the bread urself, the staff wld be doing that w their smiley faces! =D Danny that day v nice..bought alot of food for us to share..n he bought sth for mi which resembled grapes..in e end its not when weiling ate it..its sour! hahahah!
The trip ended quite fast ba. The taboo game which i made a fool of myself, the table tennis game, the nite when we stae up quite late to chit chat w jia n dawn, teaching the gurus how to take VA, abang Imam, Pak chapi/nicole/joo, shopping trip w e gers, having a new god dad(haha)..will always be part of the memories in my mind. cheers =D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
12:54 PM
SUnday liaoz...n im not in bed yet..nid to wake up at 9am later..haha! will be meeting ceeteing, sokhong n sylvia to cab to tanah merah ferry terminal...mMm.. wonder if i will be posing more inconvenience over there rather than helping over..hAI~ still no confidence in my ret n bahasa indonesia.. 9days over in batam..im going to miss alot of things here..my bed, laalaa, comp, local delights, tv programes, music diary etc etc...hhaa! n results out on 22nd, wont be able to check it myself. i hope the outcome wont be that ba n settle fyp.. O.o szehui!! dont worry, we will bring back the sandy grains for u to add on to the dou fu delicacy..lols..heehz! 4 more weeks to go! jia you! Isle of Indon~ someone ask mi to use this name instead of batam, cus it will onli make him tink of underage whores..diaoz..it will be a nice experience dere! yayness! =)
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, March 17, 2006
11:32 PM
2 more days b4 leaving for batam! Today half day only, final packing and briefing. Went Millenia Walk to exchange our Renu Solutions..60bucks richer..haha! i can go get my solutions n colored lens alr! had kenny roger's for lunch, lst visit dere...very delicious le! i love the cheese macoroni! huiyun's side dishes also not bad! bought a formal top..yehs! n huiyun bought her skirts at little match girl...haha! realise marina sq nt bad le, quite alot of goodies..provided u gt Vit M. walked to guan ying miao to bai bai..den went walk walk along bugis street. den went to meet sh for dinner at lai lai beef noodle.yeh! finalie we four can sit dwn n have dinner tgt again! haha..i like the pork balls dere! im gona miss my pork over at batam..hahaa~den took 960 home. my legs are aching like dunoe wad nw..n im very tired..so gona slp soon.. haha~ todae saw alot of pple..chuanzi, a couple of seniors ( weiqi, quek, vincent) at the rdshows, a senior(but dunoe wad name, i noe is shangling's batch de) @ spec hut, jason (my superstar)!!! n the gd fren of ramesh ( we call him bai de) at frames lens dunoe wad la at bugis..haha! still rmb tt i wrote b4, wont be so qiao to see elsewhere, but todae i saw u..haah! tink can go buy Ibet liao. omg..my jason is so shuai lor..haha! okies..i dunoe wad im rattling nw le..lazi to pack for the trip sia...hai! slping time! oinks! n gy, haha! clever hor..get into ocs airforce..pay looks attractive le..aa!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
7:37 PM
Few more days den leaving for batam le..so this week basically is clinical refreshing lesson on our retinoscopy, VA, BV, SUb Rx n etc. Leant bahasa indonesia ytd..cannot make it sia, but at least must realli noe the basics so that can communicate w the kids dere during screening..if not sure crossfire..realised that i almost forget all my yr2 stuff liao..the log Mar chart..sigh` den todae aftnn, learnt a bad news...i teared twice..once even infrt of vivien..dun ask mi y, i jus feel very very sadded by it..hai! felt bit better aft vivien 'consoling' when she told us wad happen previously n things will turn out fine..feel that machiam lao tian ye like making fun of us le..we got wad we wanted initially n yet nw.. -.O but den no one wld also want this to happen, wad to do? i also dunoe..shall wait till aft the trip or when everything is out..lucky this bad news nv hit mi frm the day start, but in the aftnn when attachment is ending in a few hrs time. aft it, was totali in no mood. slouched on the chair in optics lab, den dawn was like looking at mi weirdly. Sigh! Why why why!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
9:34 PM
Rare in my life..woke up at 5.30am todae..for the Funival @ Jurong East Sports Complex. Haah, mushrms were late..n we were on the same train. Walked to 7-11 to buy breakfast b4 heading to the sports complex. Decorated the store and soon after, there were kids coming in..hehe! the feeling was EXCITED. Yeps..told them on how to play the games n gif them a sticker each. some of the kids are jus damn cute..oh my god! but soon aft, my back was v suan cus i was bending down well explaining the the kids ma..nt like huiyun sitting down..haha! n danny v cute le, keep coming to disturb us..n whenever he comes to my booth, sure no kids one cus he scared dem away.. =) n he even took a cup of milk frm the DUMEX booth..n even ask mi to help mi take extra cups..lolz. starting to pack up near to one. Our beloved lecturers treated us to Pizza Hut for lunch...who wld choose kfc over pizzas rite? yeps..had two big slices n drumlets..v full! n omg, mr tang's appetite is v scary le..when i jus finished my two slices, i dunoe he finished how mani slices n drumlets liao..pei fu! took grp photos too w danny n dawn..but ms lek was nowhere to be found le.. n ya! i took the picture of the duck mascot..so kawaii!! xD n that mascot gif mi a hug lor..hehe! N the weather was sweltering hot while walking back to mrt station. Huiyun went to meet her fren..n mi n weiling decided to go K-box!! Went JEC for the k-student...frm 2-7pm+..shuang! althou bit tired, but the company was great!!! hehe! -My Anata-!!! n sang some retro songs... ;) Home sweet home aft that. Mum cook much for dinner n im still kinda full frm the tibits n pizza. grrh! n jus finished writing in my log book except for the description part..it shall be reserved for the walk in patient..ahaha! the ger shld feel honoured! xD nxt week de attachment will be on clinical training for the batam trip n packing as well! hope i still can brush up my clinical skills! *pray hard* ciaoz!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
8:27 PM
Hai! For the past two days..i've been sorting ophthalmic lens n Cls until i nearli wan to faint on dem. Ytd was more like a refreshed lesson..re-learnt focimetry n learnt autorefractor..nw i know my last sem for my glazed lens, my axis off by 10deg..must thanks danny for that xD. also, take out those near to expired CL frm the yr3 clinic..wah~ the synergy colored lens v v chio le,esp the pinky..woot~ i hope i nv overlook those near to expire lens ba..so pple~ nxt sem in clinic pls make sure that e lens is nt expired yet oh..haha! todae v boring althou time pass very fast.do the same old job. sort out more ophthalmic lens n batam specs..wah kao! the company also v generous to donate so much lens hor! sort until wan to vomit blood...mi, ling n ht recounted n repacked. had buffet lunch at staff canteen,time constraint n we were late back lor..wonder if the lects noe or nt. aft lunch, help to do inventory at SPOC, haha! realli had a gd look at those frames..well~ some more exp le, n the lens too, imagine the cost price is onli.. *faints* its kinda boring for my attachment up till nw. sianz..but den its quite a nice feeling singing our fave songs tgt at the lab with speakers connecting frm ipod..but den i wan to do edging n dispensing stuff le, not that i v pro at it, but its e other way rd..wana practise lor, if not this wld defeat part of my purpose for choosing oitp. somehow, mi n weiling had the same feeling...our grp is damn un-united..well~ dunoe la...n waking up at 6.45am every dae is killing mi...i jus not used to slping n waking up earli.! tml half dae! yesh!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
11:25 PM
2Days since my attachment started..up till nw, is still considered SLACK! shall start on my lst day, since im nt intending to write in my log bk lst..so shall treat my blog as my log bk.
day one: briefing on Sun Funival n Batam trip..collected our schedules..started thinking of our games, posters..make a trip dwn to queensway to source out quotations for our jerseys n polo tees Yeps..settled for FBT jersey n a grey polo tee. left sch for city hall to meet my 3dearest...star hest n elsie..im the earliest! went carl's junior for dinner...liewx, the burger is big le, heng i nv order ani extra sides..during the meal, i damn lame lor..lame bt alot of things until the 3 of dem buay tahan..hahah! well~ miss those times w/o lamer choi for our entertainment..n toking bt entertainment, im the most ez to entertain cus i luff my head off for every single thing yeps xD very late liao....share cab w hest n star..haha! thanks gers for dropping mi off at wlands lst oh.
day two: slp ard 2am..so todae was v v v v tired. reach sch, started to make our games..found a new place w excellent color printing-->uncle richard's rm! we print those cartoon characters..cutes sia! i was slping during the process of searching of pics..sorry dayne n weiling..n oblivious to wad is happening..weiling,paiseh le! haish. n todae is the lst time i sweep the floor aft like donkey yrs cus the optics lab is dirtied by us ma...den also lst time using scissors to cut the circles..achievement althou the shape kinda distorted.ahah! aft lunch, continue w the poster making whereas the guys went to queenswae to place orders for the shirts. aft the poster, went to take a short stroll n help danny sim's grp to sort out the recycled glasses..boxes of dem.. some frames are quite cutes larhz. n ms yeo v hardworking le, has been figuring out the software for metropsis for our FYP..realli blessed to have her as our supervisor..
well~ weekend is burnt for the carnival thingy..but still can watch superstar repeat..lucky my zhiyang not out ..yehs. n i tink that day can see alot of cuties kids ba..for batam trip, we not staying at turi anymore,but dawn sae its better than turi, but den chalet le..as wad ts said, everyone under a roof, i rather find a rm mate..shrugs.
hai~ =/
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, March 04, 2006
11:31 PM
Went out todae again! Pigged all the way until 12+ when my sis come in n disturb mi...went out ard 3plus to raffles city..n aha! mi n sis were looking at cosmetics at body shop ma..den saw weikiat ivan n xiang hui! xD their hands hor..i tink each person gt 3shopping bags...steady! den lst qns my mum asked was which one is tong teck? refering to xh la..ahaha! so i called xianghui den let my mum c hu is he lor..yeps..den went g2000..saw the 3guys dere too. dey realli stae dere quite long lor..so when guys shop, dey also took a long time one okies..nt onli gers!! so when my jie fu came...we begin our spree @ g2000. i realised i look damn alien in long sleeve shirt..haish! mMm..lucky wad my sis bought todae..all to my liking!! so i can share the aparrels w her! =) aft that..went marina sq, the place woo! aft renovation alot of shops le,but nv walked ard la cus quite late alr. dine @ secret recipe...the service is shit la n the food so so nia. OUT! the air con v cold also lor..mushrms..nxt time go dere for outing okIe!! alot of restaurants le hehe.
when im at g2000 while the 3guys also dere..i asked my sis 'jie, the 3guys, which one is the most shuai de' she tell mi xianghui le! dots! my mum also same reply..cus she sae xianghui looks more frenly..lols. n my mum still ask mi how come ivan so tall...!
dead tired...i still haven got enuff slp yet!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, March 03, 2006
11:37 PM
Legs nw aching!! Today spent my 4mrt trips away...cool hor. Morning..drag myself out of bed, was rather in a grouchy mood, cus lst dae of holis cant even let mi have my precious slp to the fullest. i slpt at 3am lor, cus im gd la, help mike type out the brief outline for CL forms plus the norms for lag sag all this.. Met Anna, She briefed us on our fyp!! kinda excited to embark on it! hehez!hope it will a ultimate success n cheers to working tgt harmoniously the ten of us! Get to learn new equipment : metropmeter to measure the CS, n sth to measure the axial length..
had lunch in sch...den company ling n dayne to Changi hospi for their vaccine. lucky gt Shuttle bus..hehez! den saw desmond at Simei Mrt, exclaimed kinda quite loudly when i saw him, n he smile at mi back! guess he's the frenliest senior among all =) dayne n ling saw lionel, but i nv le. Looks like my peripheral view is failing to some extent.
aftwhich, went orchard meet sh. pei her go her ITP place--> IGARD! hiak! sh, ni zhuan dao le! mr yap not bad wor! hahahahaha!!! enjoy internship at his shop..gt ani nice news must tell mi kies..*crapz. den went to meet my dear ~ hy. wanted to take lift until 22th storey de,but e lift i took go until 18th nia...so i went dwn lobby wait for her..aha! went food republic @ wisma. finally had my HOKKIEN MEE!! its nice le! den was telling mi the story of the bian tai idiot! reallie cursing him lor....arshole! a disgrace to guys n definitely smeared the meaning of love.
im dead tired...i shall slp until aftnn tml! hoho!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Thursday, March 02, 2006
11:44 PM
Finally, the much awaited dae for yr2 dopt students...our SEM EXAM is OVER! n yr three, we dun even have sem exams! horray! Shall enjoy this few days cus MonDay attachment starting.. 8.30-6pm daily at SPOC..hope everything will turn out gd, n those whose attached to optical shops..althou the long retail hrs is dready,but den it will be a nice experience too! Finally, year two has ended...so much has happened in yr2. the conflict w classmates, the academic stress, things that happen at home, the breakup, the breakdwnS, n the list goes on. This holis, as wad i've said in e previous entry..it will be diff(other than attachment). I really hope my mind wont wander off...yeps..hopefully. fyp project balloting today. wad can i sae, always let us c the ugly side of human nature. not e lst time thou.
Was reading thru ht blog, den hopping to ernest n others...try to picture the situation n finali get some light to his newest entry..was crying while i read the entries in ht blog, ernest said either im siao, if not is due to RGP reflex tearing if im wearing. kaoz... ht, i hope u are alrite nw...n things definitely will be better nxt time. well~ this mades mi tink back of what happened two yrs ago.. the break patch break patch during the JAE period, n ultimate the finalae! a short well later, he's w another ger, someone whom i once considered my close fren back in sec sch. but at least he's not as B____* as yk. ugly sight of human nature again. Im starting to reflect, shld i still continue w the thot i had in my mind? if i really did, wld i betray her..
n i thot i can no nid to return to SP till Mon, but tml gotta meet anna for fyp stuff at ten..gona forgo my beautiful slp, even during exam period, i still slp until 11+. haish. This weekend, althou its short, but i wan to tidy up all my lect notes. tidy up the mess in the comp. learn how to use my new k750i.
ytd was e realise of e As...frens out dere? if u wana go ani UNi open hse..jio mi along can? n gy, i dunoe if u still reading my blog or nt la, im reali relieved that ur FM still can get a A despite staying up until wee hrs the pre nite to listen to my cryings n stuff..thanks! quite a long entry le ba..tatA!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
1:14 AM
Im here to blog again. damn boring..really dun feel like studying..not that im smart or not that's y no nid to study..but jus nt in e mood..but den im not really exactly looking forward to the holis too la, dun ask mi why. But then this holis will be diff frm the previous also, cus attachment n stuff. hopefully gt things to keep my mind occupied. stayed up until 3am last nite, tv for a while aft i offline den flip thru my CP 3040 notes..several stuff were running thru my mind..kinda emo @ that moment. when the clock strikes 3, gif my bro his medicine...hai~ realli pains to c him liddis althou mi n him nt reali v close la. morning wake up at 9+ to gif him his medicine again, den i pig until 11.30. listen to ying yue ri jing chong bo...mMm...i still haven bought my music diary 3 de xie sheng shu le when its out for weeks alr
one more hr to dem getting their Alvl results. qin sae he will msg mi if he get at least a A, im sure he can do it ba..althou we are alr over,but den i still hope that dun becus of ur GP den cant get into local U..n as for my dearies...get le results must msg mi kie..
huiyu~ sat free or nt?
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
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