my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Saturday, August 30, 2008
10:19 PM
weekends always past fast. sun, one more dae to enjoy b4 wrk on mon again. but i tink fy gg on long leave/duno wad duno wad n only be back on 3rd wk of sept. sat went to comex fair. a bad experience. i shallnt sae much. made mi quite sian actually. act. thot of recee-ing for my mp3 de but den see e crowd v sian also. bought the present. had dinner. quite a spread, but im starting to feel hungry in the middle of e nite alr. morny had breakfast w my dad. act considered lunch le, cus he called mi at 12.15pm ask mi 15mins go dwnstairs wait for him. but 15mins he called again den i slowly dragged my self dwn bed. seriously, damn shiok to have 11hrs of slp sia! fri claimed my PM off. so some stuff got to settle. alr planned to smoke thru life de, but den went to meet lorna for hoto. sianz. since im in mmi, hoto alot of things alr. basically hoto stands for handing over of duties la. aft tt roy drove mi to AH de SAF ward aka PMIC to noe those keys la. eyy i thot saf ward like v big le, but in e end im very wrong. very small indeed. no wonder it's called saf ward. my rest of e dae aft AM wrk was sweet.. =) oh ya, i had my two vaccinations. HepA and JE (japanese endothalmitis) wad e heck sia. JE super painful althou its kathy who did e injection. nxt week still nid to go for 2nd dose. faints. initally i find kong do e vaccination de, but den he was askin the new tx medic to do it. so i immed. shout for kathy when she walked past. 4 new medics. but all belong to lvl6. to replace kong wansan edwin. nxt wk gg to attached to eye clinic, also duno how to orientate them. sun my cousin terence bdae. tt nottie kid. but still tt cute la. buffet n cake's time! haah..my 21st. somehow i wish that the small lil plan in my heart can come true.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
7:24 PM
consecutive post. tis post also will contain some of my rants. my eye medic mc-ing for today and tml. when pple ask mi where is he n i say mc, some will gif mi tt kind of expression tt i wont wish to see. but cant blame him la, his last lap alr. so dead tired even thou i've just had my shower. welL~ todae dy clinic, scheduled 4px but 2 de fault but end of clinic time is 4pm. see tt recruit again, cant stand his parents. the 2nd px gif mi a great scare. haven finished the invest. tests @ NUH but r/v with dy. how can that be. in e end, get called into the rm. luckily is the px change appt at nuh to a later date, so phew not my fault. the first arrow during the start of e clinic i alr get shoot liao, no ken to shelter mi..but gt edwin to help mi la cus i v tired. morny first time did mhs..3crabz and 2crabz. i see 3crabz i'll be nervous liao. wth, dr jayant sae will be here by 8.30 when i ask him to reach at 8.15. in e end 9am i msg him still ask mi gif him 5more min. in e end, the two sirs all went dwn lvl6 for their tests la den come up so he has to wait. thot he's a reg or NS men, but nv knew he's a NSF so same w dr le n zhang dey all la. super frenly la he, machiam he know mi for v long liao liddat. lolx. but nice time talking to him la. kok peng made a v interesting comment bt jayant being late: he tink he 3bars can melt 5crabz ah? haah aft that dy asked mi to meet him for discussion. i noe sian liao. ask mi to do so mani things, but quite reasonable la cus its within my scope but deadline nxt mon. stupid. tml nid to go for my two vaccinations. two somemore.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 25, 2008
5:51 PM
MonDaY bLuEz! =/ seriously todae i really drag myself to wrk, but not tt jia lat compared to as when im retail-ing last time la. cus i noe quite alot of outstanding matters. my dat machine went crazy, but managed to revive it back aft some while. relief- 4 more daes to fri, i hope my PM can settle sui sui by then sia. its a careless mistake on my part tt i overlook sth. IQA nxt week, can see ma'm shamin v stressed. i also duno in for wad surprises sia. b4 lunch time went to install the av for inet. tink i also bit blur, did sth quite stupid also la. tink azami must mi tinking tis it idiot ger how can be ucito. i also wont blame him if he tink likewise la cus i dun even have confidence la. lunch buffet @ lounge by john chua. tink is his promotion. kathy was asking mi to enjoy, i noe her meanings la. but being too sian, i jus ask my medic to take food for mi to the office. was trying to fig how to untrack changes for the open office. in e end i gif up ask kathy teach mi la. looks like she also has many bunches of keys like mi. her cat one nt cleared, so has to be dere at the server rm. reali wish my cat one also nt cleared. haha kong n wansan were meddling with my slit lamp. they find it v amazing -.-"" PM of dae was qms/cc meeting. was u/s for taking e mins. wth. i cant imagine writing e mins. means i cant doze off during the meeting n its like so draggy. blaahhhh! the meeting ends at 7pm! mi kathy n dot. were writing msgs on our papers to stae awake. kathy gif mi a lift back until khatib n i trained to wlands. tml dy clinic. im prepared to get niaoed by him le over the BIO cus my medic tml mc. i can predict it. means no one to shield mi frm him le. pray hard.....i dont wan another late dae hm tml. pls end clinic on time!! i guess i had on hand enough sec duties le. pls shooooo...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
12:22 PM
Weekends ending~! back to wrk tml again. anw~ went to huiyu's 21st on fri nite. pretty girl as the host . sorry if we made a mess ah. haha~ its tiger's time. saw a few schmates and of cus my dearest gers la. hey u noe..we've noe each other for 8yrs++ liao le! ever since sec1 in 2000, the gers class and being in e same cca, den to upper sec where we sit adjacent to one another and just a classrm nxt dae. those were the daes man! yes, nxt celebration will be mine le! =D i wan presents n presents n more presents. surprises and more surprises. lolx. i love surprises. sat went swimming. no sun. no tan. swim le..a while only la..haha. but the water was seriously freezing cold lor. must be the rain b4 that. lunched @ jack's place w jessie. quite a fulling one. but den guess wad. when i reach hm~ i still sit dwn n enjoy my mum's food tgt. lol..tt consists of some fries n a chicken wing. aft that went out le. went ms. somehow im very attracted to those giap giap machines..i jus like to watch pple trying their luck to be able to giap the soft toy lo. catched the movie 4bia. its a nice movie..but its scary. i can rem the lady beside mi screamed twice. its made up of 4 horror stories lor. nice one. recommend u guys go watch. but i noe weiling n jessie wont watch one. lolx. aft that went to watch fireworks. okies, call mi mt tortise or wad le, its my first time watching fireworks la 'live' la. Magnificient le. right infrt of ur eyes~ wow..... had a late dinner at xin wang. nv knew still gt food for mi to eat. haha! someone honey lemon tea reali is lemon hor..all thanks to mi. lalala~ but im still v sleepy on e journey home even thou the lemon did perk mi out for a split moment. oh ya, my sis went for the AHM todae. 21km run. i must sae either she has a screw loose/tight/missing. but she;s back in a piece. lolx..kies i shall not be bad. had my fave breakfast at 211 again. yehs! 3/4 of the dae is gone. tml shall continue e shit frm fri again. wad happen on fri le..first half of e dae of fine. aft live, was editting the AOR cus ma'm ask mi to. in e end le, i send to the person who did it. he tell mi grammar wise leave it alone. im like wth. nv knew a mbbs grammar is tt cui and its ok to submit for approval. n i nv knew hvfa can rule out nite blindness. tis also come frm a mbbs. fine. so aft my lunch, clarify the remaining stuff with roy and sign my hoto. tt deadly shit. the duties of ucito shit all on mi liao. half wae went dwn celebrate shamin's bdae. she karna pour water, roy as well cus he's leavin the service le. saw the medics did their medic cheer... haha, nice one. i also duno y i decide to continue the AOR frm that mbbs. seriously here n dere, i duno when i will c tt machine physically. nvm..i shall do my best. i gt the whole bunch of keys..i jus hope my stm wont fails mi. all tis shit cause mi to leave office at 5+ when i intend to leave at 4.45. grr, shall stop my rants liao. haha. its a beautiful sundae althou its rainng. cus many tv prog to watch later and gg out w my sis to cwp. there's a sale at metro...time for some spree provided if i can get sth. i need a blessed mon!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
5:30 PM
ytd i had quite a 'dwn' dae, not in terms of sway, but feeling v sianz. early morning vincent talked to mi bt those duties tt roy had hoto to mi. apparently he had talk to j.c. liao lo..shortly after i receive email frm j.c. asking mi for lunch still picture until v nice.. i also know his motive for lunch. tt is to talk to mi. sian sia, i noe vincent's gd motive. i also nv grumble much..but i dont wish to be sound like a broken radio whining le. so ended up @ kopitiam @ kent ridge wing. nv knew the scenery is so nice dere. wah sey... but tink i also attitude le. he offer to buy mi food but i sae dun wan. in e end gif abit of face, get tuna puff. aft lunch walk all e wae back to nus. h.w. craving for durian ice cream @ bazzar so we all pei her buy lo. j.c. treated mi icecream, tried rum&rasin but not v nice. or rather maybe my mood is not gd either. coop a choco bar frm his rm but den my medic ate it. lolx. nvm la~ since he helped mi type my USMS n had a glib of tongue when talking to vendors...waited until my neck long for mandarin to come to do PM cus the man stucked @ NUH. so 6 liddat den finish..alr wanting to leave w hidhir le. but den DS key missing n he's e DS. so we search high n low for e key in e end in hum's tulip pocket. took 963 all e wae back.........dinner was a nice one. at least tt's sth that makes my dae and of cus hearing my dear's voice.. tue was colin's clinic. like v long nv c him le. i thot 3px onli le, but turn out nominal rolll nt updated. ji dan. but ok la..manageable. discuss some cases w him...haah! saw some malingers. dinner was @ sushi tei w xiang hui for his 21st treat. out w him, sure prenium and quality food. indeed it is. yummy dinner........goodness =) went ard taka and den wisma. bought one shirt frm g2k and mask sheets. waiting for sis de bdae voucher to come so tt gt 50% off...looking ard for a pair of decent heels but no avail!! mon was being roy understudy lo. okies..shit jobs basically la althou e titles sounds nice. UCITO and commspec. tink correct spelling. somehow maybe i hope my cat1 clearance nt passed den hohooo~~ as for todae...clement clinic. no2 on my 'dislike' list. first of cus is none other than my laoban!~ hahaha...he becoming more n more niao liao le. lucky its my medic tt get e arrow. =x nvm~ wasnt feeling v well todae. headache n tummy pain. asked my medic for tt painkiller i wan. wah sey he also has. gdgd, his mini dispensary. my mini drawer of sweets n beverage gg to empty le. gona restock le. oh ya, sit in for medical board todae. first time. hide behind the partition cus is bip de presence de so must siam lo. aft those i left le cus i can forsee i will doze off during those bia cases. nxt time maybe can request to sit in for pcc de. heard frm xiang jun tt its more interesting. life tml. still tinking wan to run or nt. ok off to pack my stuff le. tata. huiyu's dearest 21st tml! =D
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Friday, August 15, 2008
10:55 PM
2.26am on a sat morny. cant seem to get to slp. reasoN: on fri after i reach hm at 6+ i eat tv den bu zhi bu jue ko on my sofa all e wae until 0045am den i wake up and bath. i noe i very power! let mi recall..so for e past wk due to our nation's bdae, onli wrked for 4daes. and out of e 4daes,i've been having morny runs frm enclave to office for 3daes.tgt w h.w. but sway enuff, on fri, v paiseh, one doc spotted mi, so im dere running fast yet dun trying to look v lang bei. chiong to lvl7 put my bag @ counter and up lvl8. RC alr finished liao. freak. i tink i missed out e last page of RO, didnt noe im the conducting officer for run todae, shocked dao. ok, so assemble them @ lvl1, since those running de also nt mani pple. dr le kind enuff to help mi do the talking la, so i jus arrow kong to help mi lead them for warm up. finally see j.c. during life liao sia. =D aft life, did my printing..tt roy thot i wld siam him so he came up find mi. he hai si wo le la. kns. but i will try my best to learn. one wk to grasp his duties when im still in e learning phase of mine. 11am went to do screening for the personnels going for overeas exercise. easy job, VA and confrontation. duno y dey find confrontation so interesting. >.< thot gt two onli but duno y more than two appear? n my eye medic, as usual, near to lunch disappear to god noes where when im like craving for food le. grrh. aft lunch tts e happening part! one bunch come tgt. so we quickly chop chop finish our stations. dEn its beijing2008 time! initally onli dr le n kathy watching. den kathy ask mi join in. den subseq. all of us on lvl6 begin to join in the excitement. damn high we all. even thou those personnels coming for screening also high tgt w us. a pity there's no chips to munch on. some doc more cute la, stop cons. for a while if not each time they finish a px n out of their rm, dey would peep at the tv a while b4 continue-ing n keep asking for scores. lol. ke ai! i tink the medic guys 'suffering' on lvl7 w shamin ard..whereas mi n weijian were tv-ing on lvl6. i also had my hep B jab. tis time i clever le, ask kathy to vaccinate for mi. phew~ no pain no blueblack. =) so one mth later got to go for another dose. i throw tis to kok peng so its his responsiblity to remind mi since he's the docu ic. much of fri. thr also another happening dae. first time see maj paul zhao aft one mth plus. aww~ so frenly can. he's not exactly tt shuai tt kind, but just gt xfactor la. wear no4 le, i onli see reg doc wearing no3 one le. goodness.. aftnn clinic is clement. so mani pre en again. all duno y, siao one, reach so earli. so becus im watching beijing2008 on fri aftnn, i have mani backlot stuff nt yet done. shit! mon must clear up liao . still got to meet roy again on mon. sian ah!!! but wkends are here!! yippie i miss u.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Wednesday, August 13, 2008
5:47 PM
In quite a grouchy mood todae.with the songs on 88.3 made mi feel more emo. todae started off super badly for mie. woke up earli thot can reach office earlier but in e end, haiyo. when reaching b.vista, trying to pave my way thru when i saw this uncle also wan to pass, so i gif wae to him but in e end he tuck loi sia, so i onli managed to alight at c'weath. arsehole! in e end, took train back to b.vista chiong for my bus. n it had to be 95A. so i literally ran frm enclave to mmi. h.w. also running but i get into e lift first. reach lvl7 lucky still haven RC yet. reali phew!!!! morny, told mi no oversea screenings. den suddenly pop out 4. nv even set up the rm lor. n paces was dwn, lucky i nt doing live entry if not i can go bang wall le. thot can enjoy my lunch, but den a phone call frm topcon pissed mi off. wth. no cs @ all. kns! >.< went dover for lunch. thot gt free ride dere but den no, so walked dere w weijian. so lunch w lionel, dr jj, kelvin and weijian. unknowingly that mi n weijian had alr ordered, jj ordered half white chicken half roast chicken beansprouts and lemon chicken. i see liao. omg. but dey still managed to polish off e food. saobing clinic in aftnn. i tink he dere for 30mins nia lo, den finish seeing px liao. goodness..but e shit thing is i realise gt one px still waiting for him but he left le. i also duno wad e hell happen lo. in e end, smoke thru it lo. dead. x_x doing my paces for saobing's clinic. lionel was typing his notes. quite pek chek alr..den dispensary dere ask mi out drugs so tt can tally. mess up my files also, nearli explode. den i tink lionel sway la, he got it frm mi. dere mentioning bt cz again n again -rubbish- mi n him hx le, in e end i jus took one nips choco n aim @ him. nicely shoot dao his eye. shit! is painful de lor. reali dui bu qi sia, prior to that he see mi so sian keep attempting to cheer mi up, cus normally he tease mi bt cz i wld still ying chou him smile smile, but todae i literally dao him la. so he dere try to dou mi luff...yet i... daniel walked mi back to 515 buy dinner. ordered noodles n fries. in e end i forget all my order bt my fries. sianz sia. really sian. cux the noodles also not nice. tink i nt in a gd mood so everything jus taste as bad. feeling kinda tired. tml am pm clinc, crs clinic smoemore. but nvm~ will get to see maj paul.. ytd clinic worth mentioning. dy gt 4px only, but clininc ends @ 5.15. to them its v earli le. but den 4px lor. one passed formb, one post lasik, one gen. clinic, the last one the most ke lian de. pre lasik. orbscan maniiiiiiiiiiii times dere for 1.5hr, in e end a negative conclusion for him. sadded la. tink nw dy knows the difficulty of capturing a gd image obscan result ba! haa! tis time rd nv get nagged bt clinic forms cus i reali screen thru thorough...but weijian get niaoed by e wae we placed our con. files. ~ as wad he said, he sure find something to nag even thou there's nth. BAD BAD DAY! hopes tml wil lbe better! bless mi!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 11, 2008
12:10 PM
Long weekends for mie. sHiOK is the word to describe it. well, continue-ing frm last entry, marks lionel ord. smuggled scotch whisky. mixed w pepsi. a short drink session at tx rm b4 i left office. guys present -wansun kong aqcrm h.w. joel. can see that wansun and kong sama sama, face turn red aft one cup! super funny. i nv drank much cus i noe the outcome. lionel ke lian lo, aft that he still gt presentation but still get cheerssss by his bros. packed out shortly aft cleared the evidence away. thr they all observance parade @ cmpb and den cohesion. clinic screwed up abit la so ended at 11+ had lunch w vincent. disappointed lunch esp more so when im super hungry. saw qing xian again, that guy i tink v bu she de mmi sia or too loyal alr, ord for wks liao still back. seriously im not v full frm e lunch la, so had cup noodles. started keying into paces. aft that duno y still hungry so when i went mro to return the files, i grab one cup of milo as well. fri was a super slack dae. ma'm shamin nt dere..for i tink for 2daes, the counter bois v relax lor. no one to scold them. aft rc had breakfast w them. was listening to leng's love story cus he jus get attached the dae b4. haiyo, qing dou chu kai, 4words to describe him. really can see him chen zui zai ai qing zhong lor. sms-ing NON STOP and using the office phone. migrate frm counter(cus he kept being di siao by us) to the cons. rm. national dae went moonlighting. mariania on long leave cus she went back home twn. aww~ kinda miss dey all lor, annie andrew ying mariania laoda. shimin, still getting on fine ya? no matter wad u do, be sure bt it ya. i enjoy doing my refractions and luckily i nv chase ani cust away. it seems that i dun have e chance to wrk w melvin le. find him so cute sia, abit like mickey mouse =x a pity i dun have e chanceto catch the parade/firewrks. hmMm... sun was another yet enjoyable dae w my dear jessie and huiyun! wah sey, its been months since we went out tgt lor. had our lunch at bento box. huiyun sae she v hungry so order the bento set but as usual, ko quite fast. hehe. we went birdpark! i tink its my first visit there lo. see, i so ke lian with no childhood one. nice outing with u guys =) reali had so much fun tgt. i wan to go sentosa nxt!!! hitched a ride frm uncle to yishun for family dinner. alot of pple so waited for like half an hr lo. saw my forever ke ai de cousins.... cherished the times of having dinner tgt as one big grp lo. nice food nice company. gotta go pack my rm later. hopefully la. lolx.
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
+++
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
12:43 PM
Blogging in office now. past two days out for course. same as last week. while tis wk de internal audit trg more cui. trying my best to listen by doodling on my notes. haha. but the topic is more interesting la. cant wait for oct to assist vincent for int audit. my eye medic gone with the wind for a wk. so todae screening edwin helped mi. but tml clinic, i duno how sia. i cant possibly tell ma'm that i can forcast his mc, and request to release edwin from n.o.p. rite..gt diff reasons for referrals tml le, for DAT k/c blahhhh tink my printer KO on mi le, jus because paper stuck? sianz half, want to print out my directives for casual reading also cant. haha..vincent still ask mi print out copy of the manual..save mother earth....duno where to find for help. read thru my mails...pple ord-ing. lionel and jovin. saw their 'ord messages' so funny. aww~ lionel..i will miss him sia. my TLC! know him for abt one mth plus in mmi althou wae back in sp he's our senior, he guided mi along e way.. tink i will be bit lost w/o him liao. thou at times he seriously 'pissed' mi off bt cz. last mon aft my workshop met up w him. haha, realli find him like a xiao di di when he was having his drink. the chat over dinner nearli make mi cui, but i try not to tink so much la. just do my job well. we shall meet up soon ya even aft ur ord? all e best to him, no matter if he continue his deg or embark on his optometry career. for e sake of my tlc.. lens companies la..... shall end my entry here. gg for dinner aft wrk!! im hungry!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Sunday, August 03, 2008
10:53 AM
I enjoyed my weekends..!! sat morning went out breakfast to 211 w my dad n sis. had kway chap with many extra added ingredients. =) da bao for my bro. sun morning. wake up quite earli. 8am+ went out 211 again for breakfast w mum n had. had kway chap again. so i can forsee nxt one week i wont have any cravings for it already. went to market aft that. back hm, i doze off while watching my vcd until 2+. haha! catch money not enuff two. v entertaining movie! i guess the one beside mi suffers. sorry! went to wcp. that place changed alot le since e last time i went dere was like 5-6 years ago. nv knew oppo was jurong island. scenic nite view with the breeze and gd company (: but den seriously i v shocked to noe sth as well. hai`on e way back super funny. nxt time i wont condemn those old design bus de 178 liao. i've learnt my lesson and noe the importance of it. lol ever since i gt my isac card, pple like to email mi n i also like to communicate back. save mi e trouble of talking. hahaha! like wise also use oa to 'talk' to steven n junwei. v funny. just that its short of games inside..hmm~ shall ask weijian to zip n send to mi le. oh ya, last thr went out to hqmc with dr jj/le/zhang kathy shamin and may and a few medics . b4 tt we went upp. thomson for indian food. so basically roti prata n muturbak. shared w hum, get di-siao. stunned lo. the purpose of gg hqmc cus there's a duno wad walk by mmi one la. its like super boring. the qna session, arrows flying here n dere. sneak out during the qna session to find my medics. tc w them if not i tink i wld be lying flat in the audi. last fri also v slack dae. or rather fri is usually a slack dae cus no clinic. each time aft life , eat shower den near to twelve le. had a safety workshop by vincent. lst qns arrow mi liao. tink vincent gt inform those who he will call to ans qns so we can prepare. haha. my qns: 7 core values of SAF. but the present abit cmi la. haiyo. wad to expect la. aft the wrkshop, fire escape safety route again. wana sneak away w liping de but den dy was like looking at us so bo bian. but half wae thru @ lvl 6,some of e boys smoke out get caught. haha new wk coming again! mon n tue out to hqmc for internal audit trg. wish mi luck tt i wont doze off. tata!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
