my shadow's the only one
that walks beside me
my shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there
will find me
'til then i walk alone
broken dreams
a shattered heart
a lonely soul
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Thursday, August 30, 2007
11:06 PM
ytd was a GREAT day. met up w xh n my dear mushies. was susposed to meet at 1130 at orchard. but im like still at hm at 1110 so i delay the meeting time for 15mins later. den luckily im somemore at khatib, someone sae he jus left home..phew~ we had lunch at pepper lunch. caught rush hr 3 at shaw. its a funny show i must sae. no regrets if not i wld have rant at him cus he dun wan watch 881. aft the movie, someone plan to head to botanic gardens on foot. luckily in e end we took a bus there. wah~ the beautiful place oppo a 5* hotel ( in my impression ) hmM~ i thot i can look forward to seeing swans..but in e end i jus saw statues!!! grrh! cheat my feelings!! so met sh earlier at ms first. the 3ofus went LJS. dayne n ling joined us aft tt. dinner was at changing appetite w my dear gers. i love the mudpie. okies..since i choose our meeting place at marina for a reason -to see merlion- in the end, the 4 of us walked to the esplanade area there for the merlion. thanks gers! but actually, i really love the nite scenery of there. breezy n romantic. nxt time we go there again ok? but hopefully there wont be weird tourist asking us to take pics tgt. hhaa! its really a nice time catching up w e gers while sitting on the steps, gazing at the moon...when will we be meeting up again? althou it jus ytd tt we saw each other.... todae being my off dae as well,~ woke up at 12+ grrh. initally agreed to go dwn to yishun for breakfast w my mum..but become a lunch at causewae. mum went off work n im all alone. went to tp to find june..chat w her lo since she also nth to do n i also nth to do. she realli understands pple well...lucky my tears din roll dwn when we mentioned bt tt incident. glad to see someone wrking..hee~ halfwae june went to do her stuff n i being to talk w tt someone la..went off near to 5. cant believe i stae dere for near to 3hrs talking...lol. hai~ its been sometime since i have e feeling of someone occupying the space of my mind. perhaps its the emo mi having nth to do during my off. the nite is ending...tml gotta return back for wrk...5 more daes to nxt off! jia yoU!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 25, 2007
11:39 PM
SO shiok todae. went swimming at CSC@bt batok. thanks to c kway tanning oil~ im bit tanned. and roasted. haha! shouders burnt. hopefully there wont be any peeling. its really a nice place. sh~ nxt time must bring mi go again ok!! =D after the swim, she went for her hair session n i went to meet sis at cwp. went to t.p. to find june..jus nice they having a tea reception also. act. dun intend to eat one, but someone kind enuff to take food for mi..so in order nt to make him paiseh..i just eat lo. somehow i find him quite cute la..shld i take e initiative to msg him? haah~...[ok,ignore wad i jus type] had dinner w sis at banquet, how i wish she wld treat mi swensense le, but she say haven get pay yet. im missing the tian ji zhou i had last nite at geylang le. althou its v spicy, but the meat is so juicy tender. but the meal doesnt comes cheap la. hai, tis mth really spent alot. but sept is another big hole off pocket mth too..but my sis shuhui optician n mr boss bdae. goodness. we still tinking of how to celebrate mr boss bdae. but im craving for a delicious meal la..hee! another 3more daes to my two consecutive offs. it seems that tis mth, i gt 3wkends off cus my off daes get changed n i get called back to wrk. but its quite worth it la. the 3rd wkend is becus of my mc. actually im quite well enuff to go back la, but since there's enuff pple wrking..i jus sms ben to apply mc n he said ok. haha! can sae its chao keng la..but dun care so much la. sept schedule is out. gt quite a few daes gona tend e shop w my SA n optician..althou nt the first time alr..but still v scared la. cus i cant handle trouble shooting well. annie gg taiwan. ben gg genting. all in sept. for oct le, the rest also planned their holis alr. my optician gg back hometwn, kim gg vietnam. mi le? stuck in singapore. decide nt to go HK in nov cus kim sae weather nt v gd and nt much stuff to shop during tt period of time. had a tea session w mr boss aft wrk at delifrance few daes ago. haha~ he still rem the existence of tis staff cus he said 'sorry stella, it took mi so long to have a talk w u aft u started wrk' welL~ to mi its ok..cus i dun wan to talk to him. he asked mi bt feedbacks n he also have some feedbacks for mi. but the tea session is like so impromtu tt i duno wad to feedback lo..i jus nod my head n reply w uh ya expressions. he like hinting mi to go for CE courses lo..i dun mind gg la, but gg alone is v sian lo unless annie or other frens wana go w mi. hai..sometimes how i wish i can take a long break from wrk. one mth wld be enuff. but scalie he dun nid mi to come back aft tt one mth..haha!! anw my off daes for sept. mushies see when we can find a date to meet up kies. 5,9,16,20,21,24,26,27
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 20, 2007
1:17 AM
somehow todae i return back work v v lethargic. well~ kinda made full use of the two off daes. fri went out to cai hong hua yuan @ pelangi dere for makan. woot~ cheap n yummie. i had kway chap and i tink the ingrdients i ordered is meant for 2persons' share but i finish all lo. mum had claypot rice n herbal soup. wad i like best was the fresh fruit juice. rock melon is sweet n best w milk! =) went back city sq buy some confectionary b4 heading back home. sat met up w szehui for swimming. hmm~ the details can be found in her blog. but well~ lucky we managed to swim if not i wld be v sad. cus i really missed swimming .... jus a pity that there's no sun. went to novena dere for food! my yuan yang rice! haha! nite time met mum at cwp and basically jus walked around. todae was another slack dae. recently v v slack, i cant imagine if one dae the shop is bz i tink i sure cant get used to it alr. haha. lucky past two daes i nv receive ani calls frm shop so means no shit of mine nt settled. yay! we all had an earli lunch todae n mac flurry for tea break. shldnt have had the ice cream cus im coughing like mad. talkin bt it, i've been having nite cough for always a mth alr. medications doesnt seem to work. anw~ todae over heard ben saying sth bt optoms. i cant catch the earlier part of wad he is saying. but i hear one section v clearly. mentioning bt my .................... i hear liao kinda da bao bu ping lo. aft wrk went kopitiam w kim n my optician. somehow i feel that im a pig la when ben is not ard. how come i can eat more than them n yet nt complaining tt im full? time check 1.16am of a mon morning. i still cant get to slp! tata!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
11:10 PM
Whoosh~ my off daes are here. its daes n not dae. got my two consecutive off - fri n sat - reason being last wed which is susposed to be my off is cancelled lo. but ben replaced w a sat..okie~ nt tt bad. when annie told mi on mon tt 'wed either u or amy( my new optician) gotta come back to wrk' i immed gt a feeling its gona be mi. n reali it is. tue ben was asking if i can go back on wed? can i sae no? haah if i sae no, i tink havoc liao. cus amy wed gotta go n settle or wrk permit n she moving hse. see, im so understanding..lol. but den becus of tis, cant meet up w e gers. sorry! n i missed the movie secret. biz is damn bad recently. bad until the whole dae tc-ing w each other bt every n ani topics. ani topics frm ben wld be interesting. tis time rd he was telling bt those hum sup bars at joo chiat, and the spa he went w mr boss. tis two tales made mi luff until i nearli roll on the ground. being slack, mi n kim began to wipe specs lor. i tink on wed, we finished wiping n cleaning 80% of e specs in e shop..reali boring. and there's tis cust de specs. lenticular lens lai de. mi n kim begin to play w it by wearing. hahahaha!!! we were luffing like mad when we see each other. cus the eyes is like mega n popping out lo. machiam like cartoon. n when ben wears it, more comical reali cartoon! but e story behind it..quite sad la. the lil ger is a aphakic tts y her power super plus! hai..trust us to still play w her specs. i can forsee mid autumn festival coming soon cus shuhui brought us mooncakes. frm starbucks somemore. 3flavours. all three are nice. raspberry the white nut one and the expresso...woohoo~ but the price is even nicer la. lalalaalaa.......talking bt moon cakes.~ im hungry .
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Saturday, August 11, 2007
11:31 PM
Hai..im waiting for my nxt off daes which wld be in 3days' time...wed wed quick come. gona meet up w iris! recently kinda slack at shop..n haven been seeing mr boss for some time, but tml gona see his face. sinaz. my manager failed his dt so that goes off our free supper treat. but on tue, we sitll went out for supper at ah la mee~~ tis time i had horlick dinosaur, but i still prefer my milo dinosaur~~ roarrr. i only had 4hrs of slp that nite cus i woke up super earli on wed which is my off dae. cant imagine i drag myself up at 6+ aft bathing make my way to sgh. lucky mum still haven went for her endoscopy yet...yar so during her endoscopy i literraly walk ard the hospi compound by pass nhc ncc n snec..so sian. tink tt morning m1 netwrk sth wrong..so pple cant receive my sms, in e end use my mum hp n msg my sis. settled at kopitiam for some food n went back to the ward to read my bk. lucky mum can be discharged in e aftnn. the trip back hme is like so damn long. reach hm str8 away zZzz.... wrking on national dae. slack slack slack considering its a PH. we ordered pizza the cheesy feast. but nv finished it so ben da bao hm. but when i reached hm, i still able to eat a bowl of fish meat noodle...yeps i noe im a pig. but fri i proudly declare i nv spent a single cent la. morning i had breakfast at hm. lunch was biscuit n milk. dinner i had it at hm, but my dear amy wld always share her dinner w mi cus she dun wan to eat so much. haha! mum cooked my fave dumpling soup for dinner. i tink i had almost ten ba!! bro was hm w 6doughnuts frm doughnut factory. so when i asked him 'kor, gif mi one to eat le' guess wads his reply? he said 'i sell u one for 3bucks la' tmd! haha! but in e end i still ate one. i was telling tis to kym during wrk todae..she told mi if she were mi, she wld gif two slaps liao...lol~ some times i wonder y other pple de bro so dote on their xiao mei one, but my bro le? no lor..todae i so xian mu one cust lor. her bro paid for her CRT lens n specs lo..wah kao. tts over 1k lo! hai, if my bro is half as gd. anw since todae is a slack dae, we were dere talking nonsense again. keep laughing thru out.was talking bt clubbing la. den he said mr boss is a ming fu qi shi de merlion . dotx. make mi luff until peng. den still sae gt one time rong ge drink till drank until thomas has to support him. n kym was surprised at act. in local cineplex gt r21 shows. lol.! tc bt alot la.... somehow, my craving for fine cakes still nt satisfied aft wks....hahaha~
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Monday, August 06, 2007
11:11 PM
sadded. off dae ending in a few hrs time. haha~ wonder wh y i sounds as if there's no tml. past few daes wrk wrk wrk. sat was a super slack weekend. the cust we met all di siao siao one. so we were eating and slacking away. i bought my zen stone plus ! pink de. same as kym..but i bought at at 95 bucks instead of 99. yay~ nite time went out supper -curryfishhead- i tink the cabbie also sian la, cus the trip only cost $2.70 so u guys can imagine how near it is frm plaza. chit chat until quite late n i guess the 963 i took either was the second last or last service alr. n poor brandon gotta suffer the midnite charge cus no train service home. luckily sun i still mananged to reach on time. ggrhh~ i told myself, i must reach on the dot hopefully i can persever on la. todae being mon!! its my off. slpt till 11+ b4 making my way to see the doc. the queue quite long la, n my mum's colleague 'kind enuff' not to tell mi my queue no. cause mi go dwn so earli..so to kill time, went to the kopitiam to have my brunch. extra serving of chicken cus im realli hungry la. aft eating bt my turn liao. sway sway eye gt stye..kinda forsee it la cus my eyelid swollen. gt some ointment n doc advise mi to stay off contacts for two wks. im like wth. i pract. have no decent specs la. my new specs still haven made the lens yet. feel like taking mc but den if i take mc, someone wld have to sacrifice her off daes. nvm~ im a kind soul..hopefully my condition worsens abit (reali abit la) so i can geng mc during the wkends la, but den im feeling guilty le. met my mum for lunch. had kfc. another chicken meal again. haha! was tinking a few hrs ago.. i was watching css2 n the 9pm show w my bro. haha~ we were commenting happily bt those contestants la..at during the 9pm show, he keep saying that show is a form of PRP. bluffing those innocent ones =x super funny lo n we were luffing like mad. hai...tml another dae at wrk. sian! i wana take a break!!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, August 02, 2007
11:29 PM
HaiiI! my dear jessie seeing her rainbow, whereas for mie, heavy clouds hovering above my head. last mon, being half dae wrk for mi, tinking that mr boss wont be in shop, wore sth tts bit out of company policy for attire...in e end! tue i get all the shit frm ben. but cant blame him, earlier on he's got #@&$^(% by my mr boss. get said by him by alot alot of things la..frm sales to attire to mistakes..all boils dwn to that stupid rayban! hai..aft all his sayings..i tink all the negative words to describe my feelings all struck mi. guilt sadness n wadeva shit la. sometimes im tinking...sometimes if im not a optom, or my pay isnt wad it is, perhaps u wldnt have much shit to clean up ba. i rather be a staff, jus a simple staff n not aniting else. at times how i wish the commission at northern isnt tt much, perhaps to some its reali lil la..but to mi i tink tts quite enuff alr, maybe u wont have the kind of sales stress. each dae tinking of the zar nikon pa lens. alas~ wed is my off dae. a gd nice break from wrk. but it jus dreads as nite time is here. so todae thr, first time i see my new optician - amy- within a mth, i've met 3 new comers. b4 wrk, met brandon n have a short chat w him. hai~ i must sae he's really v sway la. duno how he's wrking at vision co..esp w the tall one. anw, todae wrk my mind was drifting away to i also duno wad stuff. new promo for the mth..see until i also blur. i was literally staring at the new promo but my mind was awae. in e aftnn, annie so call highlight some of my mistakes? nt exactly too la, i jus treat wad she said as words of encouragement mian de the clouds turn more black..haa! mr boss came dwn to shop todae to see those suppliers. gt mani new frames n sunglasses coming in.! since he;s here, i msg shuhui not to step into the shop first. she brought us yakitori sticks. u noe, the sticks made mi remind of a certain someone..which makes my drifted away mind drifted off even furtther.... >.< anw~ i tink for the mth of aug, shld be no wkends off again. and since the trip has gone up into smoke, i also dun intend to have 3consecutive offs la. if ben allows, gg to exchange w annie. so wld be mon wed n thr. off daes for the mth: 1,6,8,15,17,22,27,29,30 iris!! rem our date ah! hahah!!!!!!
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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walking this empty street.
*~S+eLLa~*
20 oct 1987
sweet 19
SP DOPT
